I must be stronger...

Saturday was such a nice day. Jeff grilled baby back ribs, I cooked beans and potatoe salad. We sat outside and visited. Something we haven't done in a very long time. He had a few beers I had a few Bailey's & Coke. It was really good. The only thing that would have made it better would to have had friends over to join us. I miss that so much. I weighed this morning to see how much damage I did with all the drinking and I'm very pleased I only gained half a pound. So today I am cutting back to 1200 cal. Hopefully this will help. Cole did not come home yesterday and he didn't even call. I am so hurt that he didn't call to tell me that he wasn't coming. I really don't know if I should say anything to him. He is staying with Sam now. Maybe it just feels like he still lives here cause his stuff is still here. He is so excited about his first check. They get paid Monday and he said it should be about $1200. Not bad for an 18 year old. Jeff has to go to Sonora today to get his load for tomorrow, so he said he couldn't exercise. I knew he would have excuses. Oh well .