getting ready for the weekend!!

I had good dreams last night such a relief.. I had dreams about us looking at houses. Odd I know. Anyway today is going to be a busy day I have to run over to Micalick (totally mispelled) sausage place and get sausage for our weekend, Jeff wants it. Then I think I will get my nails done. Still not sure if I want fake nails again. I really loved them when I had them its just an added expense every 3 weeks, but hey I'm worth it. Thats what I keep telling myself. I feel guilty enough having to pay for my haircut every 4 weeks.. That reminds me if we move I will have to find a new girl to cut my hair and that frightens the hell out of me. I love Becky I have been going to her for like 6 or 7 years... I get my haircut today Yea! its long I hate it when its long.. Its funny though I get more compliments when its long. I can't make it stand up like I like it when its long since I have such thin hair.. Then I have to finish up the laundry and pack. I cleaned house yesterday so thats done.. I don't really see me losing the 10 pounds that I wanted to lose before our girls weekend. First clue ; I 'm just now back to the weight I was before my week at my moms. And now we are going back and I'm sure I will gain 2-3 pounds. So next week will be getting that weight off so it only leaves me two weeks left. I really don't see me losing 10 pounds in two weeks. I am still going to exercise and diet , I feel this is the norm. for me.. I am very pleased with the way I look so if I lose any more weight its just a bonus for me.. I like having a little meat on my bones it fits my body.. I have curves with a little meat on my bones and I'm liking it.. I have never been curvy. When I got real skinny back when Jordan was in pre-k I had no curves , no hips. course I was only 32 . Now at my age I like my curves. This tonning workout I'm doing is really shaping my body. I'm even starting to see some abs. Next week to change up things I feel I need to do yoga instead of the tonning. plus cardio always cardio..I put a color on my hair last night its extra bleach blonde I really like it. I have never put a color  on before my haircut so I hope its still there after she cuts my hair.. Well there you have it a day in the life of me!!! Love you guys hope yall have a great weekend see you on Tuesday...

WTF!!!!!!

My baby has hit the teenage attitude syndrome please send help ASAP!!!!  This morning has been full of tears , screams, threats , and it wasn't even 8 yet..  Jeff wanted Jordan to mow this morning so I had to wake him up so he could get it done before it gets to hot... You would have thought I was killing him.. The boy has had it way to easy...So proud of me I did exercise last night. I just did cardio not the tonning , but I will do them both this morning.. Then I think I will put a color on my hair..I need to clean house either today or tomorrow..Yesterday at Ross I ran into an old acquantance from Austin Elementary... Her son and Jordan were in the same class and both had learning problems.. We are gonna get together next week and go to Browns pool so the boys can hang out.. Her son is like Jordan no friends. She told me that once again he failed the tacks test and had to do summer school again and was thinking about homeschooling him.. I will talk to her more about it next week... He is suppose to be going into the ninth grade... I guess thats where I get so confused mentally in my head because Jordan should be in the ninth grade.. Oh hince the attitude !!!! I know one thing I'm ready for the weekend my mom is going to take Jordan to the Planatarim in Corsacana on Saturday .. Just the two of them yea Grandma!! Friday night we are all going to some bbq place that has live bands.. I 'm excited I love a live band.. Jeff wasn't too thrilled about me buying more stuff , but he wasn't mad. I told him that was it for now I won't buy anything else until my girls weekend... Its just so much fun shopping now, to be able to wear cute clothes again I feel so much younger...I just hope I don't look like an old lady trying to look like a young girl. I hate women like that !! I used to wear mini skirts a lot in my teenage years. I have forgotten how comfy it was... I promise all my new dresses are longer than my skirts back then...I bought this one long dress with spaghetti straps I can't wait to wear it. I need a new strapless bra though mine has no support anymore...Hmm? Hey Tia did you make the lowfat cupcakes?

shopping again

I have to stop , Jeff is going to kick my ass.. After all my running around I decided to run into Ross just to kill a little time to not come home... I'm sick of being home... Big mistake, I found 3 more dresses . I only spent $35 on them , but then I had to have shoes.. not good another $35 on shoes..(2 pair) . they are so cute though.. I'm really into dresses. all these cute summer dresses are cool and comfy.. So now I must stop shopping or I won't have any money to shop with when we go on our get away..I need to go get on the tredmil , but just like I figured I don't want to exercise now... I am though, i am...

oh well

Yesterday I was suppose to run and do all my errands, but I didn't.. I called to get my girls(weiner dogs) in for there shots  and they were able to get them today. So I decided to wait and do all the running in one day.. I need to make me a list while I'm sitting here cause I know I'm going to forget to do something.. getting old sucks! I am not going to exercise untill later today when I get back from everything.. I sure hope I do it.. usually if I don't exercise first thing (after coffee) then I get lazy and don't do it... Jeff won't be home tonight and I don't have to cook , cause there is plenty of leftovers , so maybe I won't be lazy..I need to put a color on my hair this week. I'm getting it cut on Thursday and usually I color after the cut but we will be leaving for my moms early Friday . So I think I better do it before the cut.. or I could do it Thursday evening... yep my life is pretty boring.. I have decided not to take my girls with us this time to my moms.. I have to admit it kinda freaks me out leaving them so long, but Cole will be in and out through out the weekend so that helps... Its just we are going to be going so much at my moms and I don't want to worry about them being cooped up in my moms house. We have a doggy door so they can go outside when they want to. Well I guess I have bored yall enough..

running around today..

Well today I get back on my diet and exercise.. I weighed this morning and I gained 4 pounds since I last weighed which was on the 17th. The lack of exercise really makes a difference with me. All week at my moms I did very good on my eating , but not exercising really stuck it to me.  We are going back up to my moms this Friday for the 3 day weekend. Jeff wants to go. He wants to cook again for them.. We are also going to some gun place in Ft. Worth on Saturday and look at some houses while were up there.. Jeff got word this morning that it is probably gonna happen. It will be a few months before he gets transfered but it looks like its a go.. So now we really need to get the small jobs done around here. I saw a commercial on a Pod storage thing I have to check into. I don't know how expensive that is or if it would work for us, but by the commercial that would be great for us. They bring the Pod to our house we load it up they take it too there storage place then when we are ready for it they bring it to where we need it to be . I'm going to look online and see if I can get some info. it may be way to expensive...I have to take some items back today and get lawnmower gas and going to get me some coffee at Decoty. I may get my nails done too..

Sorry I haven't posted in a long time. I had a blast at my mom's. We went to  the zoo and shopping . It just really confirmed how bad I want to live up there. I think we may be going back this weekend cause Jeff has a 3 day weekend because of the holiday.. I have to check with my mom to see if she is going to be home and if so we are gonna go.. I think we are going to look at some houses if we go.. I got lots of new stuff this week, it was really fun buying new clothes in a smaller size. I think I'm set for a while. I bought my first wedge's, I haven't wore them yet but can't wait . They really do make your legs look better..I bought a tan color, but if I really wear them alot I'm going to buy them in black. I like the wedge's I can actually walk in them versus heel's.. I am so out of my comfort zone with these shoes, but I'm trying new stuff..  I have decided to get my nails done again. I'm going to go sometime this week.. I really blew my smaller plate idea yesterday when we took Cole to eat at Olive Gardens for his bday... I ate the whole thing.. I was so swollen my ring wouldn't even come off.. too much sodium! On the plus side of being a pig I only ate the one time yesterday.. Monday I will get back on my strict diet and exercise....

pretty good

well yesterday we went to the dallas zoo and it was great. saw lots and lots of animals (duh) . we spent about 4 hours there just to see it all. so for a zoo thats not suppose to be good we thought it was.. Today we are going shopping in dallas with my sister in law Danielle. She's driving so pray for us!! My mom will be home tonight then we have all day with her tomorrow, then we are coming home on friday.. I haven't slept good it has rained every night and the wind wakes me up..I'm a bit homesick, but I think its just cause I'm not surrounded by my stuff. Jordan and I are splitting all of our meals that we have eaten out so that has helped with not over eating, but my mom has cake , ice cream , and candy bars here so that has been a challenge..Monday I will be hitting the meat and veggies only diet and 2 hr. exercise I want to lose 10 pounds before our weekend get away..So far the biggest complaint I have is trying to keep my moms green carpet cleaned from us coming in from outside with the dogs. Yes I brought my girls! well I have got to go get ready were suppose to meet at 10..

My mom's

Well Jordan really wanted to come to my mom's house for the week. So we loaded up and left about 2. Tomorrow my brother is taking us to the Dallas zoo. Yes I have heard the Ft. Worth zoo is better, but we have been there before.  Its kinda creepy being at my moms house with no one here but us , the wind is blowing really hard here . Probably because they live in the country so it just seems hard. I will post tomorrow night to tell you about my day... good night and sweet dreams.. Jordan is sleeping with me tonight cause he is scared .. How strange to have my 14 year old sleeping with me.. oh well he is my baby no matter how old he gets..

Stupid electricity outing..

Such a rough night, I woke up at 2:45 cause the electricity went out. I woke Jeff up cause I was worried we blew a breaker or something.. Our A/C never shuts off.. Well it was the whole block so we knew it wasn't our fault. Trying to go back to sleep was pretty hard. I love the a/c and my fan . Its hot even at 3 in the morning..Finially the electricity came back on at about 3:20. Then at 4 Jeff's alarm went off. After Jeff left I went back to sleep and had a horrible nightmare. I haven't had a bad dream in a very long time and I know why I did. First off while laying waiting for the electric to come back on we were talking about hand guns. Lawrence had a little bitty gun that I actually liked and would like to shoot it. Jeff has been hounding me about getting my conseal handgun liscence since he has his.. Well I'm scared of guns , but this one that lawrence had was small and I thought maybe I could handle it better. So I was asking Jeff all kinds of questions about the gun. Second reason for the nightmare is because of my weightloss. I'm starting to like the way I look so I feel more confident. Well Friday at the grocery store I (for the first time ever) noticed two very cute younger men checking me out. The fear of being noticed has brought up all the bad things from my past... I will not let the fear of being looked at sabatage my weightloss . Not this time!!! Here was my dream;  For some reason I was at someone's house in a small town that I had never been to before. I kinda think I was cleaning this house for this person. Well a man came into the house and started screaming at this lady and told me I had to leave. I was staying the night so I didn't have a car. The man became very violent with his words and the lady told me it would be best for me to go. She paid me what I earned and I left. As I'm walking down a deserted dark street I'm trying to get a signal from my cell phone. Nothing! Then I see a store light up ahead and I'm thinking to myself I will go there and use the phone and call someone to come and get me. Just before I get to the store I see a group of men across the street they start yelling stupid shit and walking towards me. I take off running for the store.. I'm not a fast runner in my dreams so they catch up to me.. At first they were acting like they didn't mean to scare me and were trying to help me.. Then one of them got mean and pushed me down.. I was trying to fight them and get away, but they got me. They took all my money which wasn't much and my phone. I thought they were going to let me go then, but one of them put something on his hand and covered my face. Then I woke up.. Such a stupid dream , like no way in hell would I be at someone's house I don't know without my car or staying the night.. And like where was my husband and my kids.. So stupid, but felt so real..... This week Jordan and I might go to the Abilene zoo or go to my mom's house even though she won't be there till Wednesday.. Jeff had to go to West Virginia so he won't be home till Thursday night . I really want to get away and do something and Jordan is really bored too. If we were to go to Abilene we would have to leave supper early cause the zoo would be so fricken hot..I don't know. I need to exercise really hard this week I ate a lot of junk this past weekend. We made new stuff so I had to eat it. We made white chocolate popcorn (yum) chocolate frozen banana's (yum) and lowfat cupcakes. they were so good and easy to make..You take one box of devils food cake mix and 1 can of 100 percent pure pumpkin and mix the two together . thats it , don't follow the box instructions. Then fill your little muffin pan and poof  a moist chocolate brownie like cupcake in 20 minutes... So yummy and only 180 calories..

Fathers Day dinner

Well we all went out to eat for Fathers Day last night at Cheddars.. Clara was there , but she really didn't talk much.. Cole bought our dinner and my brother ended up buying my dad and Clara's so Score we were out nothing...My dad seemed to really enjoy all of us together, Clara gets so jealous its stupid.. Then later last night we went to the new yogart place and it is amazing.. Even Jeff liked it.. I was on cloud nine cause my skinny sister in law Rondi told me I looked amazing and had very sexy legs.. Yea tonning paying off.. She couldn't believe how skinny I was.. ( I'm not ) , but I guess compared to how I was I do look skinny...I wore my new skirt and I felt very skinny. I know all clothes fit differently and I'm probably not totally in a smaller size, but hey my new skirt says size 6 and it fits thats what counts Right!!!  We finially finished with all the tree limbs , now in a few weeks we will start on the trim for the kitchen ceiling so I can paint... then Jeff said he could take the air vents to the shop at work and sand blast them so I won't have to scrub them then we can spray them with his air paint sprayer... Yea less work for me... All in all a very good weekend.. I did eat way too much junk , but I always do on the weekend..

Hey Now!!

I'm jumping with excitment, I just bought me a new denim skirt and its a size smaller than what I have been wearing !!!!!!!    Oh and I did eat chinese food , a very small plate . I was pleased with myself.. Jordan ate a small plate too..Fighting the desire to go get some Bailey's..

Yea!!

This morning the scale was my friend , I lost two more pounds which puts me 1 pound away from being at my original goal weight.. When I say original I mean way back in July of last year when I began my long weight loss battle...Now that I'm this close I have decided I want to keep going.. I don't really want to set a weight limit for myself cause it took me a year to get where I'm at now.. So I'm just going to keep doing what I'm doing and when I feel good about myself then I will stop dieting and maintain...I wish I wasn't addicted to food.. Like right now all I can think about is I lost two pounds I want chinese food for lunch, and in my head I'm figuring out okay if I eat a late lunch and no rice then don't eat dinner tonight I might be okay... I'm just like that stupid yogurt commercial where the girl wants the cheese cake and is comptemplating on how to go about eating it.. I have got to find peace with food, maybe my new body and cute clothes will help!! Also I think I may have a Bailey's problem too, I haven't had any in 18 days and I FRICKEN want some!!!!!!   Okay I'm better..( not really) anyway moving on. My brother called me to see if I wanted to go in halves with him to take my dad out to eat Saturday for fathers day.. I'm really having issues with this, I love my dad its my step-mom that I don't want to feed.. Also those two never do anything for us or even call us enless he needs Jeff's help..If were having a big family get together my aunt Cindy calls us not my Dad.. He has never been close to us even when we were small.. My brother really laid into him a few weeks ago about not coming and getting his grandkids, so my dad came and took Hayden to play miniture golf he called to get Jordan , but that was the weekend Jordan was at Austins.  I know I'm wrong for feeling this way , but hey you can't help how you feel.. I'm asking God to help me to change my heart..

UGH!!!

I'm so aggrivated at my stupid period.. I don't know if its these drops messing with it or if its my different exercise.. I started my period on the 6th and I have been bleeding off and on since then. I will go a couple of days then off a couple of days.. The days I'm on my weight is up a pound the days I'm off I'm down a pound. So now my weight is bouncing up and down again... This really sucks!!!! I got the hallway painted and the baseboards scrubbed..Now all we have to do is clean and paint the air vents, put some trim up in the kitchen and clean up all the junk in the back yard.. We still haven't finished hauling off the tree's we cut down two weeks ago.. At least were making progress even if we don't move the house will have all the stuff done that needed to be done 4 years ago!!

could happen fast...

Okay so I went back on my diet yesterday and my thyroid pills. I wasn't taking them before  because I read that you weren't suppose to take anything else with the drops that it would take care of any problem you have. Well my feet started going numb again so I got back on my pills on Sunday.. When I weighed this morning I already lost 2.5 pounds. So now I weigh less than before I cheated.. YEA!!! Okay now onto the whole moving thing.. Jeff came home last night and said that New Fairveiw got approved for the blending plant. So they will be breaking ground very soon.. The boss over that yard told Jeff he sent the big boss an e-mail asking if Jeff could come drive out of that yard instead of Sonora. So if its approved Jeff and I will be moving.. I'm just leaving it in Gods hands if its meant for us to be up there then it will be , if not then I will be happy here.. I'm going to paint our hallway today (maybe). That was one of the things on the list to touch up..Part of me is really starting to freak out over this possibility of moving...Moving is hard and expensive..

I'm back on again..

Okay so after a two day break from eating right I have gained two pounds back.. YUK!!!  So today I begin the diet again. Jeff has gained back as well, but not going back on the diet. He will finish off the drops and just eat smaller meals.. We really did splurge over the weekend. I had chips and dip and a beer and candy. Yep I splurged... and now I have two pounds to get back off, but I'm really glad I splurged cause I got it over with now I can go back on my diet full force again.. I'm really really starting to like the way I look.  I know I will never be skinny my bones are too big and I would look sick, but I do like the shape my body is starting to take...

okay were done..

yep were quiters! Jeff is sick of all the veggies. He looks great by the way. Its amazing what 10 pounds did for him. He still wants to lose weight, but not eating all the rabbit food..He said he will just cut all his portions in half. I know I can do that, but I really don't see him doing it. I really hope he does.. Were still going to finish the drops and just eat normal again , just not normal portions..We are also not going back to sugar or white flour. I have been buying wheat noodles and brown rice for a long time so thats no big deal... I know what your thinking why stop when your on a roll, but honestly I'm sick of veggies, and I love veggies.. 

Omg!!!

I am so excited I lost two more pounds!!!! For me to lose 7 pounds in 10 days is fantastic, considering I would just lose 1 pound a week.. Then gain 2 on the weekend.. On the down side I am really really getting sick of what we have to eat.. Tonight we are going out to eat for my aunts Birthday. We really got screwed cause they want to go to Pac Saddle barbeque..I don't like Pac Saddle so I hate waisting our money eating at a place I don't like. Plus what food choices are we going to have.. We don't know if they have grilled chicken if they do we will eat our portion of chicken and I guess a house salad. If they don't have chicken we will eat a very small portion of brisket with a house salad.. Today I am fixing something new. I'm making taco's.. We found these Romain lettuce scoops so we will use those instead of the real shells, and of course no cheese.. I miss dairy :( I miss my Baileys :( but I can do this .. Just 10 more days . I really hope I lose more than 7 pounds in those 10 more days. Cause thats only 14 pounds and I really want to lose 20.. Tia and Laura, I really hope yall have a great vacation!!!

No hubby tonight..

I have laundry going, food was cooked yesterday so my plans today are nothing. After I exercise I think I will just lay out in the pool and enjoy not doing a dam thing..I ran around gathering things and cooking things all day yesterday I deserve a me day... Hope yall have a good one too!!!

Man I'm tired!

Today has been a pain in my ass..My morning started out good, nice and quiet then it was time to get Jordan up to do school.. he is really becoming a grouchy , negative, kid.. I made him go for a walk with me he hasn't been in a few days. I thought that the sunshine would help his mood. I tried talking to him about how negative he is about everything, and he said he would work on it.. Then Jeff informed me he will be home tonight then won't be home tomorrow night, and he is sick of salad. I don't blame him on that part. He wants me to make some of the recipes that came in the book. So I got online to order from that Walden Farms web site and discovered that Albertson's and Heb sell there products. Well I looked at Heb last week and didn't see the products so I trucked myself up to Albertson's and was so pleased that had every single thing I needed except one item.. So then I ran over to the Health food place and they didn't have what I needed then I came home and called Heb and ofcourse they don't either. Luckily the one thing that I didn't get is not really a big deal. Then I came home and grilled chicken breast and boiled eggs. I just got threw making Jeff 3 different complete meals and got everything ready for our dinner tonight. My back hurts from standing so long preparing everything.. I only lost 2 ounces today, but I did start so maybe that has something to do with it. If I don't lose in the morning I'm going to do the fasting thing they said you do if you stop losing the weight.  okay gotta go time for Ellen..

oh wow!!

Increasing the water really made a difference I lost 2.4 pounds in one day.. I have now lost 6 pounds since last Tuesday.. I can't tell yet, but I'm totally stoked about the end results..Yesterday I worked out in the pool, today I am going to do a toning dvd and maybe the pool again or the eleptical.. Sam is treating me to the movies today. We are going to go see Bridesmaids.. I hope its still out.. Jeff has lost 9 pounds since Wednesday.. You should see the smile on his face. He is so happy it is working.. The only thing is he is getting tired of salad.. we are going to make some of the recipes that came in the book, but I have to order some of the sugar free products . Our health store here doesn't have them. I should go back in there and see if she would order them with her next order.. hmmm? I was able to get the coffee Jeff wanted and I discovered so many new flavors of coffee.. I think I'm going to get me some mud slide that sounds yummy.. I'm really not having any food problems at all. I'm not hungry like I thought I would be. I like alot more veggies than Jeff so I'm not tired of just eating veggies and meat.. My only complaint is my dry skin.. you can't use any lotions or creams or moisturizing shampoo's. You have to use all natural stuff. So my skin is really really dry. They recommend using mineral oil to moisturize your skin which I do, but its just not the same as my lotion.. My hair feels really dry too, but that could also be from all my coloring..In all I'm very pleased with the HCG , I just hope the weight continues to come off..

oh you know..

I am finially down to below what I weighed before L.A. left us high and dry... I'm loosing about a half a pound a day. My cousin sujested I drink more water so I'm gonna give it a try...We cooked up a bunch of meat yesterday so Jeff would have food on the truck.. Its really kinda neat doing that cause now I don't have to cook until Thursday...which is great for me cause I hate to cook.. Jeff did try squash last night and he liked it grilled so thats good..He is sending me to Decoty coffee today to get him this coffee flavor that we had at my cousins.. He loved it and we can't find it in the stores here. We have a kureg coffee maker and they don't even sell it in the k-cups, but luckily it came with a little filter thingy that you can put your own coffee in it. Its really messy like that , but oh well the man wants the coffee..I really liked my cousins coffee maker you just put your cup under a spout and pressed down on a lever..... I am so in the shopping mood since I got a little taiste over the weekend.. Its been so long since I have bought me anything.. but i will wait ...Jordan spent the entire weekend with Austin , he called me at 11:30 yesterday morning asking me to come and get him. Everyone was still a sleep over there.. I don't think he will stay over there again.. He said the house was messy and they smoke in the house so it stunk.. (he stunk like a stale bar)  I can't believe Mandy is still smoking , when she even made comments about Temple smoking when she was pregnant.. Not only that, but to be told you have one stage before cerivacle cancer. I just don't get it, if you wanted to get pregnant like she said she did why still smoke. She quit with the other two..Plus smoking in the house thats just gross..okay enough of that...I think I'm going to take a break from walk/run out at the koa. since I saw that one snake and then Tia posting the snake they saw and then the news talking about 5 pets being bit by rattle snakes. I just don't like the feeling I'm having about being out there.. So I am going to go with Rachel tomorrow night to the stadium or at least find out why she said the gates were open when they were closed for us.. And I'm just going to work out in the pool and here on my equipment for a little bit.. I was going to use my kinect this week, but now Jeff's xbox is acting up..figures!

Holy Cow!!!

Jeff lost 4 pounds in one day!!!!  The turkey has almost lost 10 pounds in 4 days!!!!!Tree cutting did him good... oh and I forgot to tell you earlier I have decided that if we stop to get tattoo's I'm getting a lady bug on my big toe, and if we still have time I'm getting the baby feet on the back of my ankle to finish my tatt. Only if yall are still getting yours done will I get the feet, cause I can have that done anytime.. and I don't think the lady bug would take that long to do .

our busy day

oh boy was our day busy.. we started with hauling off a lot of dead tree branches that we have needed to for over a year. I know were bad.. Then we cut half of a mesquit tree down... It was hanging over our neighbor's house almost touching the roof so we had to do something.. I thought we were just going to trim it back like we had before (hinc dead tree branches) , but nope Jeff and Cole cut it down.. You should have seen Jeff up in this tree and Cole with a rope pulling the branch away from neighbors house . I should have taken pictures, but I was in momma mode. This is very dangerous work.. These branches were huge..We now have to cut all the branches in to small branches so we can haul it all off. Except for the good part of the wood. Jeff uses it to cook with.. I don't know if we will do that today or next weekend.. The guys do need a day of rest before the work week.. They call me a slave driver, but come on I'm not an evil slave driver..Friday I bought me a new dress from Sam's .. It is a meadium. I haven't wore a medium in so long I don't even remember.. I also got me a new necklace and earrings at the chicken farm on Saturday morning ( before tree cutting) Oh and I also got me new sandals on Friday.. Not the ones I saw online that I wanted , but they will work for now.. I 'm thinking about getting some sandles with a slight wedge to them.. They say heels make your legs look better.. I haven't bought myself anything in such a long time. I didn't even feel guilty this time...I lost another pound as of this morning.. Jeff is still in bed so I don't know what his is..When he weighed yesterday he had only lost 2 ounces... So if he hasn't lost anything today he will have to do the fasting.. Thats where you don't eat all day , just drink water then at dinner time you eat a 10 ounce steak.. So far I haven't felt hungry.. My mind plays tricks on me sometimes cause I'm a bordum snacker so I think I'm hungry , but when I get up and start doing something it goes away.. Jordan stayed all weekend at Mandy's hanging with Austin.. It was very quiet around here.. I miss the little turd...

So far so good

I started the HCG drops on May 31. So for two days your suppose to gorge yourself. I did and of course gained 1 pound for doing so. Well this morning I weighed and I have lost the one pound I gained plus 1 more pound. So I'm down 2 pounds, but really just 1 pound from first weigh in. Yesterday was my first day of strict eating. And I really didn't feel hungry until late in the evening. Then I realized it was all the stupid food commercials, I really wasn't hungry. So I would just change the channel when a food commercial came on. which is all the fricken time.. No wonder Americans are so over weight...As far as the eating choices I'm good, its basically what I was doing before. Meat and veggies just alot less . One thing I'm having a hard time adjusting to is no creamer for my coffee..You can't have any dairy, you can have 1 tablespoon sugar free creamer in a 24 hour period. So I drink 2 cups everyday. One cup taste like shit , the other taste like half shit...I have never used sugar in my coffee just french vanilla creamer. So now I have bought the french vanilla flavord coffee and stevia... Not the same, but I can do this .. I can sacrafice 21 days of no creamer if it will mean I will lose the weight... Already jealous of Jeff he is on day 3 which means today is his  first day of the strict diet.. He lost 3 pounds on his pig out days... So not fair.. He got to pig out and lose 3 pounds in two days...Just found out that we are allowed to go to the bobcat stadium .  I'm going to start that today. I may only be able to do one set of stairs , but its a start...

house info.

So my cousin the Realator came over today. I was so nervous for her to see our house. To me its a fixer upper. She said our house was not a fixer upper, it just needed a few touches here and there. She gave me some great idea's and in all would only cost us about $100 to do them. I know I would feel better with them done, I just thought it would have cost us more than that. Its stuff that I can do , so summer projects here I come.. This is actually good , cause it will keep me busy and not think about food..She ran the comps. in our area and we only gained $7000. Well after closing cost, realator fee's , and paying off the house, we wouldn't walk away with much... Not enough to put down on a new house.. So we are gonna wait.. I'm gonna do my projects and maybe Jeff will get started again on his storage building and we will just be happy here... I said if God wants us to move then it will work out smoothly and its not , so were staying put... Odd thing is I really feel good about it. I think the reason I wanted to move so badly is because it would be some place new with lots of new things to do. Once I got to thinking about packing and moving and all the deposits and truck rental and gas money , that kinda made me think twice..We are leaving it in Gods hands .  If Jeff does get transfered up to New Fairview then we will deal with moving... So day two of my drops has been very different. I still had to pig out today, but oddly wasn't hungry.. I know mark it down thats a first.. I ate a egg and bacon burrito at about noon, then at about 4 I stuffed myself with 3 slices of Digorno pizza.. I'm still bloated like crazy.. So thats all I have ate, I'm gonna eat a chocolate cookie here in a bit, cause if I don't then I will think about them tomorrow and I can't have them..Tomorrow I will began my very strict eating plan .

It came

Our HCG came in the mail yesterday!!! I'm so happy.  I actually took my first drops yesterday. The first two days your suppose to eat lots of fatty foods while on the drops. So since I made enchilladas for supper Monday I just ate left overs for lunch , then ate chicken and mashed potatoe's . I haven't had mashed potatoes in such a long time. They were soooo good. So today I don't know what I'm gonna eat. I want something good since its my last day to eat good for a while.. hmmm , gonna have to think about it...My cousin Brendy is a Realator and she is coming by the house today to look at it.. She said right now its a buyers market so that may hurt us on selling the house , but really help us in buying a new one.. Just gonna have to wait and see what she says. I didn't sleep good last night thinking about her coming over and looking at the house. We have so many unfinished projects, its embarrassing ..Some things Jeff said he would finish others not so much...