7 day holiday

I know its been forever since my last blog.. Jeff came home the wednesday before Thanksgiving at 10:30 that morning so I didn't have a chance to get on the computer. Then we left at 6:30 Thursday to go to my moms.. She didn't get home as early as they thought they would so by the time we got to her house we just went straight to eat at some buffette place there in Waxahachie.. It was packed we ate there two years ago on Thanksgiving so we were kinda prepared.. The food really sucks which I guess is a good thing because me and buffette's are really good friends.. LOL! After we ate we just went back to my moms and laid around and watched movies. I had a really big fight with Jeff on Wednesday before we left about my reading.. He feels that I read way too much.. I swear I can't please the man.. First I drink and watch way too much tv  now I read too much... he said every time he calls I'm reading , everytime he's home I'm reading.. Which is not true I get all my chores done and errands done before I start reading.. I made a compramise with him any time he is home I will not read unless he is on the computer or playing xbox. He said he wanted me to limit my reading while he was gone as well.. OH HELL NO!!!  What is the difference in reading and watching tv.. So he agreed I could read while he wasn't home.. I swear sometimes I just want to scream!!  I truely understand him not wanting me to read when he's in the same room with me, I get it, but to try and get me to not read when he's not home thats a little crazy.. So back to our arrangement I will only read when he is doing something himself.. So back to my trip.. on Friday we went to Jeff's dads work and surprised him. We haven't seen him in I think close to 7 years..Then we went with my mom to look at house she wanted us to see.. It sucked , I don't know why she thought I would like it.. Then Saturday we went to visit his dad at his house for a couple of hours and went and ate at El Chicos with the family.. It was fun they have really great margarittas...Sunday we came home to a frickin mess.. Chip (our boxer) got bored and destroyed all of Jordans pillows that he had. My son sleeps with a lot of pillows I mean like 7 or 8.. So just picture in your head snow in the house and back yard.. So from now on Chip will not have free rein in the house while we are away. He will be locked in the den..After me and Jordan got the mess cleaned up I cleaned the house and started some laundry. Jeff was on the computer so when I was done I started reading.. HAAA!  I am so hooked on this fanfiction.. I have discovered something about myself. I really like smut and compared to some of these sex stories my sex life really really sucks..Don't get me wrong these are love stories with smut , not just some total random sex stuff..Jeff was off Mon & Tues. so I cleaned more and did laundry and while he played xbox or on the computer I read.. I told him to help me by telling me to stop reading when he wanted my attention.. He never did so after all my chores were done, food cooked , I read..He told me I need to get out of the house more and stop reading so much, but if I get out of the house more I will just end up spending money, so he said never mind...
Today I have errands to run and food to buy.. I have a whole bunch of receipts I need to write down form our weekend, but yuk who wants to do that...Any who things to do today so I guess I need to get off here and get busy..

weekend

I had so much fun over the weekend. Jeff did too, he said he really liked everyone.. YEA!   I have to say I think all of yall's kids are awesome , except for the one time zain got hurt there was no fighting... and they all have such great manors.. Yall are great parents!!! 

I still don't know if this computer will post my blogs, but I'm trying. I'm on may way to see Breaking Dawn again with Rondi , she hasn't seen it yet..

I haven't started the book the Matt gave me yet ,cause I was finishing up a story I was reading from my fanfiction list. I really should stop reading some of those stories they get me so sexually frustrated!!! UGH

We are leaving to go to my mom on Thursday and coming back Sunday. We are going to look at a house that my mom found for us. Its on an acrea and half and Jeff can drive the big truck home.. any who we will see. Its an owner finiance so I don't know about that..

Hope everyone has a fantastic holiday.. I already miss everyone it was so much fun saturday..

damn technology

I'm trying to blog it may not work. Our computer is still messed up and now Jordans is too. His will turn on , but the screen is black and won't turn off. Poor guy if his computer is done he will have to repeat this years lesson cause his stupid mom hasn't backed anything up. In way that his good for him to repeat , but in a way that really sucks for him... At least he would really no the stuff if he has to repeat it.
We are looking forward to Saturday , it will be our first time to hang out with everyone.. And honestly I'm looking forward to a Jordan break...
Breakimng Dawn is showing every hour today and the only times that are sold out are the night times, so me and Jordan are going this afternoon... YEA!!!!!!!
See yall tomorrow

stupid evil virus

So our weekend started out great. Jeff was off friday so we went shopping. I was on the hunt for some really cool brown boots and new panties. Jeff's first time in Victoria Secrets he said he really liked the store. duh!  Then he stopped at the sunglass hut just to browse and we ended up getting me a new pair of Ray-Bans. I really didn't need any mine are still good, but these are oh so cool. They are way bigger than my others and touch my cheek bone, but I'm trying to get used to it. If not at least you have 90 days to take them back. We went to Marshalls to check it out. big mistake that place was a night mare. I'm going to wait till the newness wares off then we went to the beauty store Ultra I think is its name. So cool it reminds me of a Sephora.. Jeff didn't care for that store so we didn't stay long in there , but I will be back. Didn't find any boots that I really liked so we went home. we shopped all day just me and him it was really nice. Then when we got home he got on the computer and discovered we had a virus that totally wiped out our hard drive. He worked on it a bit friday night and then saturday trying to recover it, but nothing was working. I really didn't want to buy a new one this one is only two years old. Saturday was another fun day. Jeff's xbox hasn't worked for awhile and he has been using coles , well Cole wants his back . So Jeff and cole went to game stop to see about a trade in. they gave him $95 towards a new one. so he did the trade. I was at Target and found some really cool boots. so I got them. Then all of us went to eat at Outback. so yummy. Then Mandy and Corey came over about 4 and drank and hung out till about 11:30 they were kid free and she was celebrating about her surgery being successful..Thank God!!! She still is a lovy drunk so that got old, but other than that it was nice to hang out with other adults. Sunday morning Jeff got up early and was working on our computer and was able to restore back to September and then run the anti-virus scan. Its working , but its still not completly normal. It wiped everything out all our pictures. so now we are backing everything up.

Today is the Breaking Dawn premier in LA , So I will be using Jordan's computer to watch it..Then Friday the movie opens.. YEA!!!!

After my blog yesterday I felt much relief and decided to talk to Jeff about how I felt. He seemed a bit surprised about what I was telling him. He said that he didn't mean to make me feel like he didn't want to do anything for me because he does. So he will work on his attitude. When I talked to him about my other issues with him he got kinda defensive and really just listened and said okay I got it you can stop going on about it.. None of us like to be critisized so I really understand him wanting me to shut up...So I think now that is out in the open when he falls back into the non-decission spot I will remind him nicely that he is the man make the choice..

There was no house showing after all yesterday , so I pretty much laid around and read.. Jeff didn't come home so I didn't feel guilty about not doing anything. Today I will get busy he will be home.

Marshalls opens today , but I think I will wait and go tomorrow and check it out.. I have to get dog food so I will be out and about anyway..

We may not be going to my moms for Thanksgiving , she told me since there truck has been in the shop so much they may need to work that week to catch up. No biggie we will just go to my aunts or Jeffs grandma's..

Got all my errands done yesterday and exercised.. Possible showing today so I am fixing to start cleaning. Okay I'm going to vent just a bit so if your not in the mood to here stop reading now..

It has come to my attention that my husband acts like the boys do when I ask him to do things for me.. I saw a glimps of it that time with the pancake syrup, but now I'm starting to see it more often.. He has no problem fixing things that are broke when asked to, but personal request he kinda sighs and or makes up an excuse to not do it.. For example ;  last week when he got up for work at 4 I had already taken the puppy out like 3 times and I was sleepy he was up and dressed and she needed to go out again. I asked him if he would take her and he just sighed then said nothing then said let me have her all angy like.. I just blew it off cause I was sleepy.. Then when he brought her back he gave me a quick kiss bye. I knew then he was really pissed that he had to take time to take her outside. Then this morning I had already taken her out at 3 but for some reason she needed to go out again. I know this for sure cause she jumps on my head when she needs to pee. It was about 5:30 Jeff was getting up to go to work I asked him if he would take her for me and he said she just went at 3 you said so she doesn't need to go out. Then left the room.. However I knew better so I took her out. And yes she did have to potty.. I don't ask much of anyone cause I'm home all day so I really am able to do everything and I don't mind. so when I do ask for help why can't I just get it..Okay moving on to another problem. I have noticed at the store Jeff will not make any choices on his own. I have to make all choices. example; we were looking at the alcahol mixers stuff at  HEB , he had just said the night before he wanted to get some triple sec for mixed drinks I said cool. At the store there were a couple to choose from he kept asking me which one. I told him I don't know just get one and walked away a little. He didn't get one and we left.. Then every single time he cooks  he makes me taste everything before it is served. Beans, sauces, meat.. Why can't he just taste it  and decide for himself if it needs something . I know because he is trying to please me and he wants my approval.. I get that, but sometimes it sure would be nice for him to take charge and do it himself.. I don't know what it is with him when it comes to his cooking. He is really good at it and when we eat it we tell him how good it is several times while we are eating. But then after were eating he still asks did you like it.. This last weekend he made chilli and it was really really good. Before I took my first bite he asks well what do you think. I said I haven't ate it yet I just sat down. Then he watched me take my bite and it was great. Really the best chilli I have ever ate. I told him so.. Then after we all ate and all agreed it was great. He still asked me well what did you think about the chilli.. I just looked at him and stood up and said I already told you how I felt about the fucking chilli. and walked out of the room.. I know harsh , but come on enough is enough... He didn't bring it up again and he wasn't mad. Like I said I know he just wants to please me and that is very sweat but sometimes it gets on my nerves... Sorry , I am greatful for him he is a great husband I just needed to vent a little. I'm sure I do things that aggrivate him too.

Well I was a good girl and exercised yesterday. I plan on doing it again today.. Look out I'm on a role..Today I have to get the puppy scheduled for her second set of shots. I keep forgeting to make an appointment.. So not me. We also have to go to Game Stop because some game is in and the guys pre-ordered it so we have a copy waiting on us to pick up.. Man my day is going to be busy.. Haa. ! Since I will be out and about I want to go see if Marshalls is open yet.. I've never been in one and curious about it..Plus I have been looking for brown boots and so far haven't found any that I like..

For Lacy

I tried to comment on your blog and it said for team members only.. WTF!!  So I will tell you like this.

I don't know you like the others know you , but after I read your blog I want to know you better. You are a strong, beautiful, caring woman. I'm sorry that Mr. Right hasn't come for you yet my only thought to this is that God is an on time God. So be patient God has the perfect man for you and he will come at the most unexpected time in your life.
I agree with what you were saying why is it that the mean crappy people get there dreams fulfilled and us that have been good are made to suffer.. It isn't fair..  I think about ALL my hardships as a child and as an adult. And even though I went through some really bad stuff it has made me the person I am today.. I'm greatful . I'm truly a better mom and friend. I don't lie, cheat or steal. I'm always going to speak my mind . I'm alway honest even though feelings get hurt.  What you see with me is what you get. If you don't like it then you don't have to be around me. With your ex-best friend that you envy so much. Stop it!!   She may look like she has everything, but she really doesn't.. She sounds  like a manipulator .  She must have always hated you to treat your child like shit.. And who says her own children are as happy as they appear.. Its just pictures everyone can look happy in pictures..
I'm glad you have a new attitude and taking your own advice to start enjoying your life and the blessings God has gave you.. He will bring you Mr. Right.. Just keep asking for him.



Okay so onto my weekend.. Jeff fixed my oven. Yea!!  only $55 so that was great news.. Who knew how much I would miss an oven.. The deal is I hate to cook.. I really do. And with oven I can just throw some crap together put cheese on it and put in the oven and its yummy.. Cole's girlfriend stayed with us the whole weekend which is usually what she does but this weekend Cole worked so I figured she would go home or to a friends house , but she didn't she stayed here.. It was nice having a girl around. I really love this girl I hope she doesn't break his heart again or I may have to inflict bodily harm. Not really... 
Mandy and Corey and baby came by on Saturday and stayed a few hours. It was the first time we have seen them since the baby was born.. He has gotten so fat.. He is really cute, but he stunk so bad like stale ciggerete stinch.. I guess they smoke around him or maybe its just from being on them when they pick him up.. Anyway its gross..
I did lots of reading and Jeff played on the xbox. I would really like to get some other form of electronic to read on. Cause sometimes the fanfiction I come across I don't remember how I found it and I don't want to exit out of it because I'm affraid I won't find it again. So the entire time I can't use my phone. People can call me but thats it. If I try to text or look at a text or call out my reading stuff is gone.. I saw a commerical about a kindle fire, but I need to research it more to see if I can go on the internet with it or if its just strictly Kindle stuff..
I'm going to start exercising today. Just walking on the treadmill. I haven't exercised in two weeks and with the holidays approaching I need to get busy.. I love sweats too much..

This is going to be an awesome week. My crush is going to be on lots of late night tv and on Friday the second Harry Potter dvd comes out. Then next week more Breaking Dawn stuff and then the movie is out on the 18th...I know I'm a sad sad person.. Hey I'm just living vicarousily. I'm so bored with my everyday life what does a little fantasy hurt...
I talked to Jeff about me getting a job, because I'm so lonly but he doesn't want me too.. Not right now.. I tried talking to him about us needing to have more fun time, but we are on different paths right now.. His idea and mine are not the same..I have been such a mother hen for so very long that I feel like I am about to burst.. I want to relax and not give a fuck about anything and just have a mind blowing good time...Well with in reason of course!!!

I got nothing

We have no plans this weekend and since I have already gone to the grocery store there is no need to do that. So we will just be home all weekend and do nothing. Sounds pretty good to me. Time change is this weekend. I really hate this time change. I hate that it gets so dark so early. I have been so lazy this week. Just reading and watching tv. I really need to get up and start exercising again, but I'm in a funk. Hopefully I will start back up on Monday.. I have been in my fantasy world these past few days and exercising doesn't exzist..Haa!  Jeff is pretty pissed about all my reading. I really don't get why. If all my chores are done what difference does it make with what I do with my free time. At least I'm here at home. When he is home I only read when he is doing something. So its not like I'm taking away from our time.. I read alot at night in bed which he fusses about..He's sleeping , I just don't get what the big deal is. Its on my phone so no light is actually on.. Oh well , Sorry I just needed to vent..
Hope everyone has a great weekend.

Oh Happy Day!

So much Rob going on right now. My twitter feed is blazing. There is a thing he will be at this morning and I'm waiting to watch it on the computer. Then he has all the talk show and mtv interviews going on for the next few weeks.  My heart is pounding with excitment...I bought my Water for Elephants dvd yesterday and Jordan and I will be watching it today.

I stayed up till 4 reading some fanfiction.. I'm almost through with this story. There are so many great stories out there I may never have to buy a real book again.. LOL

Nothing else going on , just me and my fantasies!

Yesterday was a long hard mess.. Jeff and Cole left about 11 in the morning to go car shopping. Only to find out that even the tote your note places wanted a co-signer. So then they went to the banks to apply for a loan. Nope his age and the fact that he has no credit hurt him. Even though this 19 year old has $5000 saved up they wouldn't loan him anything. We were really starting to get worried then Jeff stumbled on to a small tote your note place , and they said sure we can give you a car. They are owned by Mitchell so that was good. The guy helping Cole said they deal a lot with Thorps employees so that was also good. Cole ended up  buying a 2001 Toyota Tundra for $10,000 . They wanted $1500 down , but my son put $4000 down then he bought the exteded warranty so in the end he will finance $7000 for two years. At least now he will have credit. The truck is really clean and perfect for him. He had to do something and even though tote your note places rip you off big time at least now he will start establishing his credit. All the interest and everything was already included in the price so everything he pays go to the loan. I think his payment is like $200 a month. His insurance jumped up a bit, but as soon as he sales the jeep  he can drop it and his insurance will go down some. The jeep is totally gone, they couldn't even get it started yesterday to try and use it as a trade in. He just going to have to sale it to someone who wants a project.

I have not exercised or weighed this week. My schedule was kinda messed up since we were gone. I know I need to get in there and do it, but I have been reading again and its so hard to stop until I finish. I'm so hooked on fanfiction..The down side is I'm reading it on my phone and Jeff is pretty upset about it.. I don't understand what the difference is between electonical and paper books, but apperantaly there is . (to him) So now I only read when he isn't home or when he is on the computer.

Well my child support checks have stopped. They sent me a debit card or I could have direct deposit. I really don't like those choices..  I guess the debit card thing won't be bad as long as I can get cash from it. I don't want direct because if we do sell the house and move that is one more headache I have to change..As of this morning I have $15 on the card. I have no idea why unless Doug is no longer working. I was getting $98 every week. I guess I will wait till next week to see if more gets put on the card and if so I will activate it.

We will be going to my moms for Thanksgiving this year.  I can't believe it already November. The year is flying by and my birthday will be here soon and I'm not at my goal weight. I'm such a loser..

Today I have to go to Sams and buy meat we are out. then I will be buying my Water for Elephants dvd.. All this week and the next two Rob will be on tv promoting Breaking Dawn.. Thank God for dvr..
Hope everyone has a great day.