We had another showing yesterday, and again they asked me questions.. Also the ones that looked at it Wed. really liked it, my realitor told me that they had to go back to the bank and see if they could get an extra $5000 if they can they are going to put a bid in on the house... So we will see..

I have been doing really really good on diet and exercise, but I think my scale is broken cause I don't think it is possible for me to lose 4 pounds in one day not to mention the 2 pounds the day before.. Thats a total of 6 pounds in one week... Hmm wait a minute maybe its water weight then the 6 pounds could be true.. Aunt Flow stayed way longer than normal this month and all the salt in the Christmas food, well maybe I did lose 6 pounds.. I will weigh again in the morning to see. I really hope the weight is true!!

Today I am taking Jordan to spend some of his Christmas money and to go to grocery stores.. Yes stores cause you can't get everything at Sams so I have to go to Walmart too. I really hate that I wish Sams would just carry everything I need..

I tried this face primer stuff that Sam gave me and I really like it, It keeps my makeup on so much better. The problem is I don't wash my face at night cause I have never really wore that much makeup and by night time it was usually off, but with this primer it stayed on and I didn't wash it off so now my face is broke out like a dam teenager... I saw Selma Hyacke on Rachel show a while back and she has come out with some face stuff that suppose to be pretty good.. She claims all her products are less than $20 and sold at Walgreens.. I'm thinking about trying some of it.. I really like my Dr. Brandt , but that shit is high.. Oh how I miss the good old days when noxima was my face wash.. Stupid hormones had to go and f**k that cheap face wash up...

Jeff will be off Monday so I probably won't be back on here till Tuesday.. Hope everyone has a Happy New Year.. Be safe

awkward

I did my dance 3 video instead of the treadmill yesterday.. It was a lot of fun , but kinda hard.. I did it for 45min.  It was one hell of a work out.. More so than even when I did zumba..I will do the treadmill today, and dance friday.. By next week I hope to do both in the same day..Right now my body really doesn't like me much.. I really should never stop exercising completly cause it hurts to much to start up again.. I did pretty good on my eating..

We had a showing yesterday and it was a couple that has 5 kids under the age of 12. They asked me all kinds of questions about the neighborhood and schools.. They were here for 30 min.. They seemed to really like the house and the potential it has for remodling...

Not much going on Thank God.

I'm trying not to shop for Vegas until the weekend before I go and then all I really want to get is a couple of new tops.. I'm wearing jeans the whole time and I just got those so no worries about the bottoms.. I'm so excited I can't believe its almost time.. I'm still not sure where to put my tattoo at.. I'm going to play around with some stickers on my body and see if that helps.. I am torn between on my wrist or between my belly button and hip bone that area above my jeans towards my side a bit..Jeff doesn't want me to put it on my wrist because he thinks dice are manly and won't look good on my wrist..I though about the area between my belly button and hip bone , cause having dice there might be kinda of sexy , you no that saying feeling lucky!!  Haa Haa   Anybody have any suggestions I could really use them?

Hope everyone has a great day!!

Ouch!!

I exercised for one hour yesterday, burned 500 cal. and ate very smart until I had the last 6 pieces of chocolate candy.. I didn't eat them all at once , but just through out the day as I walked by them.. I'm not kidding I have no will power with chocolate in the house.. Luckily its all gone now so today should go better.. Sam is here this morning and I think were going to do my Just Dance 3 video. If I get enough of a workout doing that I will not be bonding with the treadmill today..
Jeff went to a new place this week.. It is north east of Dever, Co. I told him to take pictures .
Well thats all I got. Hope everyone has a great day..

Whew!

What a busy weekend.. I'm so glad Christmas is over, now I can start planning for Vegas...
My diet was a no show over the holiday, so now I have got to get busy. I wonder just how much of a difference 3 weeks will make.. THREE WEEKS !!!  OMG I'm so excited...

At my aunts house on Christmas I got a pretty cool compliment it was from my cousins wife whom I had just met.. She told me I didn't look old enough to have a 19 year old... Made me feel pretty darn good. Then my dad came over yesterday and said that Ruthy , a woman that was there , but is no kin to me thought that I was Rondi's mother cause we looked a like and were always together..Talk about knocking my good mood out the window.. We look nothing alike , except we both have short hair and green eyes..
I need to call Rondi and tell her this. We were so pissed at the lady any way , she was making a big deal about my nephew playing the chinese christmas with us because it was suppose to be adults only.. The thing is Hayden plays every year because it has always just been him and Ryann as the only kids.. Well now we have some family that has moved to town with small kids and they didn't get to play... but the other kids didn't even care to play , they were off playing with each other and there new toys.. Anyway Hayden played and got his gift that he brought and was just as happy as can be..

We have no plans for New Years Eve, we never go to a bar so I no we won't do that.. Last year we went and played skip bo at my aunt Cindys.. We have always brought in the new year with our kids so what ever we do Jordan will be with us..

I hope everyone had a very Merry Christmas.. I hope this is a good week for everyone..

Christmas Eve Gift!

Holy cow I can't believe Christmas is tomorrow!!!   When your kids are big it just doestn't feel the same as it used to.. Even when they stopped believing in santa it wasn't so bad cause Christmas was still so much fun.. Now that they are big they already have everything that they want. Cole is able to buy what ever he needs and wants.. Jordan never wants anything , so he is really easy.. I guess since my brothers were younger than me Christmas always felt like Christmas growing up.. Even though the boys are bigger and this year is the easiest Christmas we have ever had, I sure do miss all the hype about Christmas..

Merry Christmas everyone!!!    Enjoy your little guys going crazy about the gifts because before you know its all over..

Christmas

Yuk, we went shopping yesterday and got everything done.. the crowds were too bad.. Tonight we go to Ballinger to have Christmas with Jeff's mom and sister and her kids.. Tomorrow we go to my aunts for some fun.. lots of drinking and games and food.. Then sunday we go back to my aunts for Christmas dinner and gift exchange.. we do the chinese christmas its so much fun.. I can't wait for this year my sister law Rondi bought the best gag gift ever , she bought an Obama calander and mad dog 20 she is going to wrap it really pretty.. she is putting in lottery tickets too so its not a total waste.. In house full of Republicans this aught to go over really well... I didn't buy any gag gifts ours are pretty good gifts. a dvd, cooler, and picture frames..really cool picture frames I might add..
Hope everyone has a safe and Merry Christmas!!

Today we are going shopping.. I know idiots RIGHT...   Jeff and I were so lazy yesterday he didn't even take a shower... So we will have to cram everything today...

Day one of Jeffs vacation we were getting along until Cole came home.. Jeff and Cole really argue a lot.. and last night it was like Jeff was trying to pick a fight with Cole over stupid stuff. and he just kept on and on and wouldn't let it go.. So I stepped in and said my two scents worth and of course that pissed Jeff off..
Day two here we go, not starting out well cause Jeff wanted a bj this morning and I didn't feel like servicing him since I haven't been for over two weeks.. yep I know two wrongs don't make a right , but damit I'm tired of him always getting off and I don't.
Hope everyone has a great day!

No One is Blogging

Okay I know we are all busy (wink wink), but yall need to at least say hello.. I don't know whats going on with all yall if you don't spill it on here.. Cause we all know how much I use the phone.. So whats going on with everybody? 

We have a showing today at 3.

Jeff starts his vacation tomorrow.

We have to buy a turkey to smoke.

We have to finish up Christmas shopping..

I hurt my moms feelings.. I didn't mean to. See every year we flip flop holidays so that we can take turns with the family.. Well this year was moms year for Thanksgiving and my Dads for Christmas. which means we go to my aunt Janes.. Well my mom and her husband are not getting along.. and her husband wants to go see his mother in Arkansa for Christmas , so my mom told me that she might come see us on Christmas instead of going with him.. I had to tell her that she was welcome to come , but I wouldn't be able to visit with her until late Christmas night cause we will be at Janes all day.. I told her that she could probably come to my aunts house if she wanted too.. (awkward), cause Jane wouldn't mind... My mom said no that she didn't want to intrude.. I had to explane to her we were at her house last Christmas its the other side of the family turn. She took it really well , but I could here the hurt in her voice... Oh and just incase your curious about Jeff's family. We have never had the event on the actualy day cause his family is so big with so many kids that we always just picked a day where everyone could get together.. Now that all the kids have grown up we hardly ever get together with all of them.. This last Sunday was the first in a very long time..and Vonda, Jeff's mom has always been so good about any weekend will work for her.. So this Friday we will have Christmas at her house.. which now that the kids are bigger will just be a meal.. We are not exchanging gifts this year.. I'm so looking forward to a good turkey and dressing meal..

Jeff and I are really getting along great , I really hope him being home for 5 days doesn't ruin it !!!!  

busy weekend

Boy did we have a busy weekend. Friday we had Ryanns bday party. Saturday we did shopping for Christmas at Norton for Sunday.. Then Sunday we did Christmas at Norton.. It was nice to see all the family. Wednesday Jeff starts his vacation. Friday we have Christmas at Vonda's. Jeff is going to smoke a turkey.. Saturday we will go to my aunt Janes to drink and play games. Then on Christmas we will be back at Janes for the day.. I'm not doing so well on my diet or exercise.. I plan on doing better this week to make up for the weekends.. I still have a little shopping to do , but we are just giving the kids money so I really don't have much to do.. Jordan does want pjs so I'm on the hunt for those.. Jeff and I arn't exchanging gifts this year since I'm going to Vegas and he is getting a new gun.. That is are gifts to each other.. Its going to be a busy week and with Jeff being home I probably won't be on the computer much.. I really hope everyone has a Merry Christmas..

P.S. Temple text me on Saturday and said Bill gave her Jaylee.. He just came over last Sunday and said here I don't want her anymore she's yours.. And he also told her that he would give her 50/50 for Cassie... Very strange for him to fight so hard for a child that wasn't his to just give her away..

Still got nothing to talk about..

Penny still not well..

Going to my neices bday party tonight at Las Ponchitas..

No weightloss!!

Ready for Vegas!!!!

Hope everyone has a great weekend!!!

drunk blogging

Yes its a  Wednesday (I think) and I'm drunk and alone.. My hubby won't be home tonight so I skipped cooking and Jordan and I just ate soup for lunch so instead of eating tonight I decided to drink.. I'm really lovin my vanilla vodka.. I loved the green apple too, I think I must try all the wonderful flavors of vodka..
Aunt flo was visiting this week so I gained two pounds.. BITCH!!!
I'm so ready for Vegas I just want to skip Christmas.. I know so selfish of me..
I need adult time bad.. Jeff and I watch church together every Sunday morning and this last Sunday the preacher was talking about the things that bug you about your spouse.. Well Jeff and I got to talking about it and why he is married to me I have no idea.. There is a lot of stuff that bugs him about me.. The main thing that he said was how I have to be the one in controle all the time..Like my way is it no other way works.. I have to disagree with him.. Yes I feel that if I'm right then I will fight for it, but he gets his way a lot more than I get mine.. My main thing with him is how he never ever shows me affection out in public.. No one would ever know we were married if they didn't know us.. He never introduces me to people that we may come upon , or ever sits by me if we are at a bar, or holds my hand as we walk into a place.. When I was fat I always felt he was ashamed of me , so now that I'm not so big WTF!  He just told me he doesn't like to show affection out in public.. This is so wrong of me what I'm about to say, but I wish just for once while out in public some hot guy would flirt with me cause he thinks I'm single and Jeff be right there, so maybe he would act like we were a couple out in public.
Okay enough of that its killing my buzz!
I was reading a fanfiction and its not done yet and it totaly pissed me off the way the author is leaving us hangin..On the up side of my reading all this smutt I have learned a few sexual things and have showed Jeff , he is very pleased with my reading now!
I am 40 about to be 41 who knew there was so much more to sex than what I have been doing.. I have been in the dark for way way way too long!!
Okay enough of that hubby is away tonigh.
Well my drunk blogging has come to a close its time to get my drink on!!  Later guys!!

hurt dog

Well Penny my almost two year dog has hurt herself..( I don't know how to spell the word that I'm about to try)  Hurneatated disc in her neck.. she is dopped up bad so she doesn't move around.. Her eyes are so big and black its soo soo sad :(   On the plus side nothings broken... Just rest and meds for 7 days..

The weekend was good.. lots of showings this past week , but no offers yet.

Don't really have much else to say.. Hope everyone has a great day!

Ugh I knew this would happen!

Okay deep down I knew once the words left my mouth asking Sam if she wanted to do a weight loss challenge with me that my system would shut the fuck down.. I only lost 1 fricken pound this week.. I exercised and ate right and I lost ONE pound... I'm so going back to just laying around reading all day.. Why the hell not I lost 4 pounds doing it that way..So really the question is do I want a firm tight body and not lose as much weight or a squishy body and weigh less?  Hmm ?  Or wait maybe I could lose the weight then tone the shit... Oh hell now what to do ...

Well we had a young hot guy come and look at the house yesterday. He liked it well enough to ask for a second showing today at 4:30 for his wife to see it.. As much as I want this house to sell I don't want anything to happen till after my Vegas trip.. I know selfish,Right?

Hope everyone has a great weekend. I have found another fanfiction author I like and am currently reading a story its 40 chapters long and I'm on ch. 18
Were going to a Christmas concert with my Dad side of the family on Saturday. Should be good.

Sorry still got nothing.. Its been a pretty calm week so far.. I have been a good girl and exercised and ate right. I weigh tomorrow to see if it has helped.

I was a good girl I exercised and did well on my eating..Not exercising for such a long time then starting back up again made me sleepy during the day.. I feel asleep for about 30 minutes on the couch.. I will probably nap untill my body gets back into exercising again..
Its so cold out, I hate it.. I don't like it when its this cold.. The snow falling yesterday was pretty, but I hate the cold..
I really got nothing. Just gonna exercise then lay around and read so I don't eat.. HAA

Venting / BEWARE

I don't know if I'm gonna make it this winter, I'm already freezing.. I like cool weather not cold weather.. HaHa
Hope everyone had a good weekend. Mine started off pretty rough but ended really well. Jeff and I have had some sort of wall up between us. For a lot of reasons.. I don't know if its him going through mid life crises or me, but right now we seem to be going in different directions.. Friday night I was so pissed at him, then saturday morning I was pissed at him.. Its like hey whatever happen to waiting until I was done before you. Thats how it used to be, now its like he gets in and gets out before I'm even close.. So sexually frustrating.. So by saturday afternoon I'm a little grumpy.. You know you would be too if you came so close two times in two days , but didn't get to finish.. He asked me what my problem was and I just blew up at him.. He really didn't say much about it.. Then we went to Sams and bought groceries..He has really started questioning all my disissions.. like for instance he wanted me to make chicken and dumplins for sunday.. I know how to do it I just don't like to cook them because it takes so long and I have told everyone all the time I hate to cook. thats why I make simple stuff and don't bake. I like to get in the kitchen and get out.. So anyway about the chicken and dumplins. He loves the way my aunt Cindy makes them and wanted me to call her and get her to tell me how to do it. I told him she is the one that taught me, but he just kept going on and on about how he didn't remember her telling me how.. So he asked me how I make them I had to tell him step by step. Then when I mentioned the butter and maybe some milk he was like nope thats not right Cindy didn't tell me she used butter and milk you need to call her back.. Well I refused and told him if he wanted me to make them then he needed to back the fuck off cause I do know how to make them.. So now I have to run into a different grocery store to get bisquits cause Sams doesn't have raw bisquits.. I told him to just run by Walmart we are right here and I will run in real quick and get them.. He said why don't we just go to Albertsons, I said were right here at Walmart I will just run in no big deal.. So he got all bitchy about it and said yes BOSS  what ever you say BOSS.. I don't get it if I'm the one running into the store and I don't mind running into Walmart why even suggest going to another store.. So by saturday night we had a few drinks and watched two movies with Cole, Sam, Jordan.. He was in a better mood and took his time with me Saturday night to make up *winkwink*  oh and then Sunday morning was pretty hot as hell *wink wink*  We got along great all day Sunday and my chicken and dumplins turned out fabulous and he loved them.. Took me 3 and half hours from start to finish but hey at least he loved them..So left overs today YEA!!
Okay so I really want to lose some weight before Vegas and me losing 4 pounds last week really got me pumped so since Sam is always talking about needing to lose weight , I decided to see if she would do a weight loss challenge with me.. See who could lose the most weight by Jan.8th.. She agreed.. Cole then through in who ever wins he will give them $50.. So starting today the challenge is on.. She's young so her metabolizsm will kick my ass, but she is also lazy and doesn't like to exercise so maybe I will kick her ass.. We will see..Let the game begin!!!

Today we have a showing of the house. Its the first one in two weeks. I turned down four showings during the two weeks.. They were all spur of the minute showings and I wasn't home when my realitor called. I'm so tired of showing the house, I know its a must in order to sell it. I have decided I just don't give a crap whether they think my house is clean enough. I mean its clean its just not as clean as it would be when I know people are coming over. I dusted last night and I'm about to vacuum and sweep and then thats it.. I'm tired of going all gung whole everytime we have a showing.. We normally hang out in the back yard while they are looking at the house, but Jeff wants me to load up the dogs and leave.. He doesn't realize what a pain in the ass loading up four dogs is for a showing that lasts maybe 10-15 minutes..
After the showing I've got some errands to run. then home to cook pork chops and mashed potatoes..yum!
I didn't do the dance kincet yesterday , but I did walk/run on the treadmill for about 30 minutes to build myself back up for next weeks hard core workout.. Of course now that I have a showing I won't be exercising today. I will sat. and sun.. maybe :)   I did weigh myself this morning and reading does the body good.. I have lost four pounds.. See I knew reading was better than watching tv. When I watch tv I want to snack, but with reading I don't..So 14 pounds to go and I will be at my goal weight.. I would really like to be at it by our Vegas trip, but I'm not going to make it an obsession because if I do I know I will fail. If it happens it happens and if not oh well.. I'm so excited to being going back to Vegas it falls a week before my birthday and it just feels so cool to be going . Maybe I could make it like a birthday tradition..HAA!
I'm going to go pay for my ticket today and then it will finially feel like a real deal..
Hope everyone has a fantastic weekend.. stay inside it looks to be a cold crappy weekend..Good time to read...LOL

Got all my errands ran yesterday and cooked taco soup (yum) we will be eating left overs today.. Monday I will start back exercising.. I will have to do it slowly cause I haven't exercised in two weeks.. shame on me..today Sam is here and we are gonna play dance central on my knect , so there is a bit of exercise.. Cole got it for me right before Thanksgiving and I haven't played it yet. Sam has and said it really works up a sweat..
Chip is sick again, damn dog and his allergies.. These mesquite trees are the cause..
Not much going on today its so cloudy out it makes me lazy..perfect day for laying around and READ!  haa
hope everyone has a good day!

7 day holiday

I know its been forever since my last blog.. Jeff came home the wednesday before Thanksgiving at 10:30 that morning so I didn't have a chance to get on the computer. Then we left at 6:30 Thursday to go to my moms.. She didn't get home as early as they thought they would so by the time we got to her house we just went straight to eat at some buffette place there in Waxahachie.. It was packed we ate there two years ago on Thanksgiving so we were kinda prepared.. The food really sucks which I guess is a good thing because me and buffette's are really good friends.. LOL! After we ate we just went back to my moms and laid around and watched movies. I had a really big fight with Jeff on Wednesday before we left about my reading.. He feels that I read way too much.. I swear I can't please the man.. First I drink and watch way too much tv  now I read too much... he said every time he calls I'm reading , everytime he's home I'm reading.. Which is not true I get all my chores done and errands done before I start reading.. I made a compramise with him any time he is home I will not read unless he is on the computer or playing xbox. He said he wanted me to limit my reading while he was gone as well.. OH HELL NO!!!  What is the difference in reading and watching tv.. So he agreed I could read while he wasn't home.. I swear sometimes I just want to scream!!  I truely understand him not wanting me to read when he's in the same room with me, I get it, but to try and get me to not read when he's not home thats a little crazy.. So back to our arrangement I will only read when he is doing something himself.. So back to my trip.. on Friday we went to Jeff's dads work and surprised him. We haven't seen him in I think close to 7 years..Then we went with my mom to look at house she wanted us to see.. It sucked , I don't know why she thought I would like it.. Then Saturday we went to visit his dad at his house for a couple of hours and went and ate at El Chicos with the family.. It was fun they have really great margarittas...Sunday we came home to a frickin mess.. Chip (our boxer) got bored and destroyed all of Jordans pillows that he had. My son sleeps with a lot of pillows I mean like 7 or 8.. So just picture in your head snow in the house and back yard.. So from now on Chip will not have free rein in the house while we are away. He will be locked in the den..After me and Jordan got the mess cleaned up I cleaned the house and started some laundry. Jeff was on the computer so when I was done I started reading.. HAAA!  I am so hooked on this fanfiction.. I have discovered something about myself. I really like smut and compared to some of these sex stories my sex life really really sucks..Don't get me wrong these are love stories with smut , not just some total random sex stuff..Jeff was off Mon & Tues. so I cleaned more and did laundry and while he played xbox or on the computer I read.. I told him to help me by telling me to stop reading when he wanted my attention.. He never did so after all my chores were done, food cooked , I read..He told me I need to get out of the house more and stop reading so much, but if I get out of the house more I will just end up spending money, so he said never mind...
Today I have errands to run and food to buy.. I have a whole bunch of receipts I need to write down form our weekend, but yuk who wants to do that...Any who things to do today so I guess I need to get off here and get busy..

weekend

I had so much fun over the weekend. Jeff did too, he said he really liked everyone.. YEA!   I have to say I think all of yall's kids are awesome , except for the one time zain got hurt there was no fighting... and they all have such great manors.. Yall are great parents!!! 

I still don't know if this computer will post my blogs, but I'm trying. I'm on may way to see Breaking Dawn again with Rondi , she hasn't seen it yet..

I haven't started the book the Matt gave me yet ,cause I was finishing up a story I was reading from my fanfiction list. I really should stop reading some of those stories they get me so sexually frustrated!!! UGH

We are leaving to go to my mom on Thursday and coming back Sunday. We are going to look at a house that my mom found for us. Its on an acrea and half and Jeff can drive the big truck home.. any who we will see. Its an owner finiance so I don't know about that..

Hope everyone has a fantastic holiday.. I already miss everyone it was so much fun saturday..

damn technology

I'm trying to blog it may not work. Our computer is still messed up and now Jordans is too. His will turn on , but the screen is black and won't turn off. Poor guy if his computer is done he will have to repeat this years lesson cause his stupid mom hasn't backed anything up. In way that his good for him to repeat , but in a way that really sucks for him... At least he would really no the stuff if he has to repeat it.
We are looking forward to Saturday , it will be our first time to hang out with everyone.. And honestly I'm looking forward to a Jordan break...
Breakimng Dawn is showing every hour today and the only times that are sold out are the night times, so me and Jordan are going this afternoon... YEA!!!!!!!
See yall tomorrow

stupid evil virus

So our weekend started out great. Jeff was off friday so we went shopping. I was on the hunt for some really cool brown boots and new panties. Jeff's first time in Victoria Secrets he said he really liked the store. duh!  Then he stopped at the sunglass hut just to browse and we ended up getting me a new pair of Ray-Bans. I really didn't need any mine are still good, but these are oh so cool. They are way bigger than my others and touch my cheek bone, but I'm trying to get used to it. If not at least you have 90 days to take them back. We went to Marshalls to check it out. big mistake that place was a night mare. I'm going to wait till the newness wares off then we went to the beauty store Ultra I think is its name. So cool it reminds me of a Sephora.. Jeff didn't care for that store so we didn't stay long in there , but I will be back. Didn't find any boots that I really liked so we went home. we shopped all day just me and him it was really nice. Then when we got home he got on the computer and discovered we had a virus that totally wiped out our hard drive. He worked on it a bit friday night and then saturday trying to recover it, but nothing was working. I really didn't want to buy a new one this one is only two years old. Saturday was another fun day. Jeff's xbox hasn't worked for awhile and he has been using coles , well Cole wants his back . So Jeff and cole went to game stop to see about a trade in. they gave him $95 towards a new one. so he did the trade. I was at Target and found some really cool boots. so I got them. Then all of us went to eat at Outback. so yummy. Then Mandy and Corey came over about 4 and drank and hung out till about 11:30 they were kid free and she was celebrating about her surgery being successful..Thank God!!! She still is a lovy drunk so that got old, but other than that it was nice to hang out with other adults. Sunday morning Jeff got up early and was working on our computer and was able to restore back to September and then run the anti-virus scan. Its working , but its still not completly normal. It wiped everything out all our pictures. so now we are backing everything up.

Today is the Breaking Dawn premier in LA , So I will be using Jordan's computer to watch it..Then Friday the movie opens.. YEA!!!!

After my blog yesterday I felt much relief and decided to talk to Jeff about how I felt. He seemed a bit surprised about what I was telling him. He said that he didn't mean to make me feel like he didn't want to do anything for me because he does. So he will work on his attitude. When I talked to him about my other issues with him he got kinda defensive and really just listened and said okay I got it you can stop going on about it.. None of us like to be critisized so I really understand him wanting me to shut up...So I think now that is out in the open when he falls back into the non-decission spot I will remind him nicely that he is the man make the choice..

There was no house showing after all yesterday , so I pretty much laid around and read.. Jeff didn't come home so I didn't feel guilty about not doing anything. Today I will get busy he will be home.

Marshalls opens today , but I think I will wait and go tomorrow and check it out.. I have to get dog food so I will be out and about anyway..

We may not be going to my moms for Thanksgiving , she told me since there truck has been in the shop so much they may need to work that week to catch up. No biggie we will just go to my aunts or Jeffs grandma's..

Got all my errands done yesterday and exercised.. Possible showing today so I am fixing to start cleaning. Okay I'm going to vent just a bit so if your not in the mood to here stop reading now..

It has come to my attention that my husband acts like the boys do when I ask him to do things for me.. I saw a glimps of it that time with the pancake syrup, but now I'm starting to see it more often.. He has no problem fixing things that are broke when asked to, but personal request he kinda sighs and or makes up an excuse to not do it.. For example ;  last week when he got up for work at 4 I had already taken the puppy out like 3 times and I was sleepy he was up and dressed and she needed to go out again. I asked him if he would take her and he just sighed then said nothing then said let me have her all angy like.. I just blew it off cause I was sleepy.. Then when he brought her back he gave me a quick kiss bye. I knew then he was really pissed that he had to take time to take her outside. Then this morning I had already taken her out at 3 but for some reason she needed to go out again. I know this for sure cause she jumps on my head when she needs to pee. It was about 5:30 Jeff was getting up to go to work I asked him if he would take her for me and he said she just went at 3 you said so she doesn't need to go out. Then left the room.. However I knew better so I took her out. And yes she did have to potty.. I don't ask much of anyone cause I'm home all day so I really am able to do everything and I don't mind. so when I do ask for help why can't I just get it..Okay moving on to another problem. I have noticed at the store Jeff will not make any choices on his own. I have to make all choices. example; we were looking at the alcahol mixers stuff at  HEB , he had just said the night before he wanted to get some triple sec for mixed drinks I said cool. At the store there were a couple to choose from he kept asking me which one. I told him I don't know just get one and walked away a little. He didn't get one and we left.. Then every single time he cooks  he makes me taste everything before it is served. Beans, sauces, meat.. Why can't he just taste it  and decide for himself if it needs something . I know because he is trying to please me and he wants my approval.. I get that, but sometimes it sure would be nice for him to take charge and do it himself.. I don't know what it is with him when it comes to his cooking. He is really good at it and when we eat it we tell him how good it is several times while we are eating. But then after were eating he still asks did you like it.. This last weekend he made chilli and it was really really good. Before I took my first bite he asks well what do you think. I said I haven't ate it yet I just sat down. Then he watched me take my bite and it was great. Really the best chilli I have ever ate. I told him so.. Then after we all ate and all agreed it was great. He still asked me well what did you think about the chilli.. I just looked at him and stood up and said I already told you how I felt about the fucking chilli. and walked out of the room.. I know harsh , but come on enough is enough... He didn't bring it up again and he wasn't mad. Like I said I know he just wants to please me and that is very sweat but sometimes it gets on my nerves... Sorry , I am greatful for him he is a great husband I just needed to vent a little. I'm sure I do things that aggrivate him too.

Well I was a good girl and exercised yesterday. I plan on doing it again today.. Look out I'm on a role..Today I have to get the puppy scheduled for her second set of shots. I keep forgeting to make an appointment.. So not me. We also have to go to Game Stop because some game is in and the guys pre-ordered it so we have a copy waiting on us to pick up.. Man my day is going to be busy.. Haa. ! Since I will be out and about I want to go see if Marshalls is open yet.. I've never been in one and curious about it..Plus I have been looking for brown boots and so far haven't found any that I like..

For Lacy

I tried to comment on your blog and it said for team members only.. WTF!!  So I will tell you like this.

I don't know you like the others know you , but after I read your blog I want to know you better. You are a strong, beautiful, caring woman. I'm sorry that Mr. Right hasn't come for you yet my only thought to this is that God is an on time God. So be patient God has the perfect man for you and he will come at the most unexpected time in your life.
I agree with what you were saying why is it that the mean crappy people get there dreams fulfilled and us that have been good are made to suffer.. It isn't fair..  I think about ALL my hardships as a child and as an adult. And even though I went through some really bad stuff it has made me the person I am today.. I'm greatful . I'm truly a better mom and friend. I don't lie, cheat or steal. I'm always going to speak my mind . I'm alway honest even though feelings get hurt.  What you see with me is what you get. If you don't like it then you don't have to be around me. With your ex-best friend that you envy so much. Stop it!!   She may look like she has everything, but she really doesn't.. She sounds  like a manipulator .  She must have always hated you to treat your child like shit.. And who says her own children are as happy as they appear.. Its just pictures everyone can look happy in pictures..
I'm glad you have a new attitude and taking your own advice to start enjoying your life and the blessings God has gave you.. He will bring you Mr. Right.. Just keep asking for him.



Okay so onto my weekend.. Jeff fixed my oven. Yea!!  only $55 so that was great news.. Who knew how much I would miss an oven.. The deal is I hate to cook.. I really do. And with oven I can just throw some crap together put cheese on it and put in the oven and its yummy.. Cole's girlfriend stayed with us the whole weekend which is usually what she does but this weekend Cole worked so I figured she would go home or to a friends house , but she didn't she stayed here.. It was nice having a girl around. I really love this girl I hope she doesn't break his heart again or I may have to inflict bodily harm. Not really... 
Mandy and Corey and baby came by on Saturday and stayed a few hours. It was the first time we have seen them since the baby was born.. He has gotten so fat.. He is really cute, but he stunk so bad like stale ciggerete stinch.. I guess they smoke around him or maybe its just from being on them when they pick him up.. Anyway its gross..
I did lots of reading and Jeff played on the xbox. I would really like to get some other form of electronic to read on. Cause sometimes the fanfiction I come across I don't remember how I found it and I don't want to exit out of it because I'm affraid I won't find it again. So the entire time I can't use my phone. People can call me but thats it. If I try to text or look at a text or call out my reading stuff is gone.. I saw a commerical about a kindle fire, but I need to research it more to see if I can go on the internet with it or if its just strictly Kindle stuff..
I'm going to start exercising today. Just walking on the treadmill. I haven't exercised in two weeks and with the holidays approaching I need to get busy.. I love sweats too much..

This is going to be an awesome week. My crush is going to be on lots of late night tv and on Friday the second Harry Potter dvd comes out. Then next week more Breaking Dawn stuff and then the movie is out on the 18th...I know I'm a sad sad person.. Hey I'm just living vicarousily. I'm so bored with my everyday life what does a little fantasy hurt...
I talked to Jeff about me getting a job, because I'm so lonly but he doesn't want me too.. Not right now.. I tried talking to him about us needing to have more fun time, but we are on different paths right now.. His idea and mine are not the same..I have been such a mother hen for so very long that I feel like I am about to burst.. I want to relax and not give a fuck about anything and just have a mind blowing good time...Well with in reason of course!!!

I got nothing

We have no plans this weekend and since I have already gone to the grocery store there is no need to do that. So we will just be home all weekend and do nothing. Sounds pretty good to me. Time change is this weekend. I really hate this time change. I hate that it gets so dark so early. I have been so lazy this week. Just reading and watching tv. I really need to get up and start exercising again, but I'm in a funk. Hopefully I will start back up on Monday.. I have been in my fantasy world these past few days and exercising doesn't exzist..Haa!  Jeff is pretty pissed about all my reading. I really don't get why. If all my chores are done what difference does it make with what I do with my free time. At least I'm here at home. When he is home I only read when he is doing something. So its not like I'm taking away from our time.. I read alot at night in bed which he fusses about..He's sleeping , I just don't get what the big deal is. Its on my phone so no light is actually on.. Oh well , Sorry I just needed to vent..
Hope everyone has a great weekend.

Oh Happy Day!

So much Rob going on right now. My twitter feed is blazing. There is a thing he will be at this morning and I'm waiting to watch it on the computer. Then he has all the talk show and mtv interviews going on for the next few weeks.  My heart is pounding with excitment...I bought my Water for Elephants dvd yesterday and Jordan and I will be watching it today.

I stayed up till 4 reading some fanfiction.. I'm almost through with this story. There are so many great stories out there I may never have to buy a real book again.. LOL

Nothing else going on , just me and my fantasies!

Yesterday was a long hard mess.. Jeff and Cole left about 11 in the morning to go car shopping. Only to find out that even the tote your note places wanted a co-signer. So then they went to the banks to apply for a loan. Nope his age and the fact that he has no credit hurt him. Even though this 19 year old has $5000 saved up they wouldn't loan him anything. We were really starting to get worried then Jeff stumbled on to a small tote your note place , and they said sure we can give you a car. They are owned by Mitchell so that was good. The guy helping Cole said they deal a lot with Thorps employees so that was also good. Cole ended up  buying a 2001 Toyota Tundra for $10,000 . They wanted $1500 down , but my son put $4000 down then he bought the exteded warranty so in the end he will finance $7000 for two years. At least now he will have credit. The truck is really clean and perfect for him. He had to do something and even though tote your note places rip you off big time at least now he will start establishing his credit. All the interest and everything was already included in the price so everything he pays go to the loan. I think his payment is like $200 a month. His insurance jumped up a bit, but as soon as he sales the jeep  he can drop it and his insurance will go down some. The jeep is totally gone, they couldn't even get it started yesterday to try and use it as a trade in. He just going to have to sale it to someone who wants a project.

I have not exercised or weighed this week. My schedule was kinda messed up since we were gone. I know I need to get in there and do it, but I have been reading again and its so hard to stop until I finish. I'm so hooked on fanfiction..The down side is I'm reading it on my phone and Jeff is pretty upset about it.. I don't understand what the difference is between electonical and paper books, but apperantaly there is . (to him) So now I only read when he isn't home or when he is on the computer.

Well my child support checks have stopped. They sent me a debit card or I could have direct deposit. I really don't like those choices..  I guess the debit card thing won't be bad as long as I can get cash from it. I don't want direct because if we do sell the house and move that is one more headache I have to change..As of this morning I have $15 on the card. I have no idea why unless Doug is no longer working. I was getting $98 every week. I guess I will wait till next week to see if more gets put on the card and if so I will activate it.

We will be going to my moms for Thanksgiving this year.  I can't believe it already November. The year is flying by and my birthday will be here soon and I'm not at my goal weight. I'm such a loser..

Today I have to go to Sams and buy meat we are out. then I will be buying my Water for Elephants dvd.. All this week and the next two Rob will be on tv promoting Breaking Dawn.. Thank God for dvr..
Hope everyone has a great day.

Home

We just got home about an hour or so ago. We had a great time at my moms. Friday night we all went to Logans to eat and of course the waiter pissed Tony(my step dad) off so the whole night he was an asshole to the waiter and swore he would never return. And he won't. Then Saturday we went to the store to get the food that Jeff was going to cook on Sunday. Holy cow $130 worth of food.. Then Saturday night we went to Dave and Busters. Jeff's cousins joined us and we all drank and ate. then the guys and jordan went to play games and me and my mom and sis in law sat at the bar and drank more. So much fun. the guys really liked it. Jordan used his tickets to buy me a coffee mug, and a shot glass.. so nice of him. Sunday Jeff cooked and we all just ate and ate and drank and drank. I have eaten and drank so much in the last three days to make up for a month.. (NOT) Back on my diet tomorrow..
Jeff and Cole will be going car shopping again tomorrow , I hope he gets something. I hate taking Jeff to work at 4 in the morning.
Water for Elephants comes out on DVD tomorrow and then in 18 days Breaking Dawn.. Hell Yea!

I'm lovin this cooler weather. I wish it would stay like this for a few months. Perfect window weather. My electricity bill would be so cheap. Today I'm going to get my nails done. Then get cash and gas for our trip. Start packing because I always have to try on my outfits before I pack them. We leave in the morning to go to moms then we will be back on Monday. Hope everyone has a great weekend.

Not much has been going on, I have been reading some very good fanfiction.. I get so caught up in the stories I just can't stop until I'm done.. The down side to fanfiction is it usually isn't done so you read and read and then bamb there not done with it so you have to wait for the ending..

Some people came to look at the house today. After looking they actually stood outside and signed some paper work. So I don't know if they were putting in a bid on our house or someone elses..

Well thats it.

Sorry its been a while , but when Jeff is home I don't get to use the computer. I had such a great time over the weekend. First off Thursday went and saw Footloose. Loved it! I liked it better than the original one so much more chemistry between the actors. Then I went shopping and got new jeans. I got 4 pair and a sweater thingy. Can't wait to wear the sweater thing its so cute.. There were so many other things that I tried on and wanted , but my pocket book told me no..I will deffinatley be going back to Maurices to shop again. My next purchase that I want is some really cute brown boots. I have several black boots , but no brown(want).

Well Cole's car is a gonner, looks like he needs a new motor. Jeff and him didn't find him one on Saturday so he is using mine and I'm driving the truck. I hate the truck I feel so butch in the truck, but Jeff said the Durango is older if Cole was to mess up a vehicle he perfered the Durango.  Cole applied for a bank loan , so we will see how that goes. If not he will try a tote your note place. If that doesn't work he may have to buy from an individual. He is 19 with no credit, but no bills either and makes really good money so hopefully something good will happen for him.

Today I have to go to WalMart and get the oil changed in the truck and pick up a few things that we need. We will be going to my moms on Friday and won't be back till Tuesday..

Daisy has learned to use the doggy door. It is so cute cause she is so little that she has to jump up onto the ledge and flops over, but hey so smart she is only 8 weeks and using the door..

I had a great time Saturday can't wait for all of us to do it again.

Well Sam is here today and we are going to go see Footloose and maybe stop over at Maurcies to look at jeans. Then I need to run out to Sams to get a few things. Jordan hasn't decided if he wants to go or not.
I've been exercising really hard but not really eating well , I have not got on the scale and don't really want to.
Daisy slept until 5 this morning and then we slept till 8. She is doing really good on the potty training.
Well thats all I got hope everyone has a good day.

I knew my day to day was pretty easy , Jordan is a big boy now so he really just doesn't need me to do things for him.. So now we throw in this puppy , holy cow I'm tired.. Unless she is a sleep you have to constantly watch her.. She has started exploring the house and its not puppy proof..Sasha really mothers her and then torments her.. Penny plays with her when Sasha isn't in the mood, but Penny is pretty pissed off about her most of the time cause now she isn't the baby..Penny has always been stand offish though so I might just be reading more into the situation than there really is.. I know one thing Daisy will be a tough little shit she is already snapping back at the others when she has had enough...So far the potty training is going good.

We had someone come and look at the house yesterday. It was a young woman.. I guess she didn't like it cause we haven't heard anything.

I got my haircut yesterday and Becky told me to take a break from the color I was useing cause my hair felt gummy.. So no color for a while.. Luckily my hair still has some color on it..

I'm suppose to go to the movies Thursday afternoon with Sam. We are going to go see Footloose.. I loved the original and I really want to compare the two..

Oh one more thing Becky(my haircut lady) had on the cutest jeans with them tucked into some bass ass boots. I asked her where she got the jeans she told me Maurices and that they were jeggins. She said they were stretchy and so comfy. She is like me with fat legs and they really looked slimming on her I think I may check those out.. I'm all for stretchy and comfy. I was really wanting to lose 10 pounds before I went jean shopping , but I think I might go ahead and look for those jeggins..

Okay now on to his Holy Hotness.. I almost pee'd my pants last night.. Jeff and I were watching the xfactor and it was a commerical break and bam there is the Breaking Dawn trailer.. We have a big tv so OMG Rob looked soo good.. I may have to take a change of undies with me when I go see this movie!!!

So Sorry

Reading Tia's blog really got me to thinking.. I really hope everyone knows I would love to talk and text yall.. I just really never have anything going on so I never have anything to share.. And when I do have stuff to share I blog it that way everyone can see and comment.. Its not just yall , I don't even talk on the phone to Jeff much.. I'm just not that way I never have been.. I say what I got to say and then I'm done.. On a daily basis I call Jeff when I get up to tell him good morning, then if there is something that comes up that I need to talk to him about , if not I usually don't talk to him again until late evening before bed. I talk to my mom everyday, she will call me one day then I her the next. We just mostly talk about how things are going and where she is. She is truck driver too but they go to California twice a week... Thats it 5 minutes , unless something has come up then we talk more.. Like right now the new puppy is a hot toppic. Haa Haa Speaking of the puppy we finially named her.. We did a compramise the guys wanted a gun name for her (yuk) and I wanted something cute so her name is Daisey...  Laugh you know you want to.. The poor thing is named after a bb gun.. Okay back to the point my life isn't busy like yall's so please anytime yall want to call or text is great with me.. I'm only busy from 10-1 so if you call or text during that time it will be a bit before I get back to you.. If yall want I will try to text or call more even if its just to say good morning and hello..
Since Jeff and I had that talk he has been so sweet..Life is good!

New baby

Today has been crazy. Jeff and I ran errands all day then we spotted puppies in WalMart parking lot. I just had to check them out they were dacshunds.. Of course there was just one very cute female left.. So we got her.. At first we were looking for my mom , but she never answered her phone and then two mexicans were walking up so we said we want her.. She is so sweet and playful.. She wasn't scared at all.. The girls love her already , sasha is very motherly towards her(shocker) and penny wants to play with her.. It is the cutest thing watching them.. Chip just wanted to check her out and then he was like oh man another one..
Jeff and I bought two new kinds of beer.. He didn't like his , but I liked mine.. I got Heiniken..I still like my Baileys better.. I think I'm just growing out of the beer stage..
Jeff will be cooking chicken on his smoker tomorrow and we already have beans in the crockpot.. And I bought a pumpkin and pecan pie .. Tomorrow is going to be a very good day..yum!!
Well I hope eveyone is having a good weekend..

Nothing happening today.. I think I will stop weighing myself for a week or so. The scale isn't moving and I'm exercising my butt off. So if I don't weigh I will be in a better mood about my exercising..

Yesterday I gave a broke chainsaw to an old high school friend..We are facebook friends , but I haven't seen him since my 9th grade.. It was really strange seeing him again.. He didn't stay long just long enough to get the chainsaw and say thank you.. Its so weird I see some people and they look exactly the same as in school and then you look at some and your like who is this person..

Well I didn't shop for jeans , I just couldn't I want 10 pounds off before I do..The way it looks if I don't quit drinking my dp and baileys I'm not gonna get the weight off.. I have switched back to my tredmill instead of the eleptical because I think it was building up instead of burning down.. So I'm gonna stay on the treadmill for a bit and see if it makes a difference.. I also started the binder ball workout for my fat tummy.. It didn't seem at the time that it was working my abs , but I'm really hurting this morning so I guess it did.
Went over and saw Temple and the girls last night. She she still hasn't looked for a job or followed through with school..They still arn't divorced yet. Bill keeps draging things out.. They go back to court for Arts deal on the 21. DNA proved Art was the biological dad and he gets Jaylee for 1 hour 3 times a week supervised.. That whole thing is still a mess..
Nothing going on today , I might watch my Twilight movies haven't watched them in awhile.

Wow just googled how many calories in Baileys and I'm shocked.. Depending on brand and how many liters in the bottle it can range from 1.3 ounce at 94cal. to 1.5 ounce to 144 cal.  I usually drink way more than 1.5 ounce.. So no wonder I have gained so much weight.. I'm consuming around 1000 cal. in 1 drink.. Yep no more Baileys for me this was a real eye opener..

Nothing going on! Have to go get dog food and coffee so I will be leaving the house today..I might go into Maurice's and look at jeans.. Not sure cause I don't weigh what I wanted to weigh before I bought new jeans, but I need jeans so bad.. I let ya know

great weekend

I had the best weekend and we didn't even do anything.. Friday Jeff got home about 6 and we ate La Esperanza. take out of course.. It was good we haven't ate there in a while.. Then later that night I had a really long and heart felt talk with Jeff about how he is making me feel and what I was needing from him..I'm so glad I finially opened up to him.. He didn't realize that what he was doing was pushing me away. He promised to try harder and give me the things that I need from him.. He started with my needs being met two times Friday night *wink*  He hasn't gone two times since before we got married. So I was very very pleased... Then Saturday morning started out great as well.. Then we left the house to run errands and he was so loving and actually made me feel like his wife. Except for one time when we ran into an old friend of his , he didn't introduce me to his friend so I just stood there like an idoit.. But I decided not to let that one thing ruin our day.. We finially bought our anniversary gift , its a new blue ray player.. Then when we got home he hooked it up and we watched movies and just enjoyed the rain.. He would flirt with me and say sweet things to me all weekend.. Sunday morning was fricken awesome !  As for the rest of the day we just watched movies and he began a book.. I really hope this new side of him continues.
Its going to be a long week , he had to go to West Virginia

Well the water pills are helping I lost two pounds since yesterday. I still feel really bloated , but hopefully it will all be gone soon.. I think I need to find another type of drink. Bailey's is just too fattening.. I drank last night , so I will try not to drink tonight.. HAA

Last night about 11:30 I got up to get a drink of water and Jordan's light was on and his door was closed.. When I opened the door he had his lap top out . I was like what are you doing? He said next weeks school.. I said no way. He turned the computer around and it was his school.. I almost cried.. I have been trying to get him to do more school so he could get caught up grade level wise.. Maybe he will really start doing more. Hopefully this wasn't a fluke.. I told him how proud I was of him and then left him alone... He doesn't have school on Friday's so for him to be doing school on Thursday night was really a good site to see !  So far his school is going very well he seems to be catching on to the work alot faster than he did last lesson.. Maybe his age and maturity are finially kicking in.. Who know's I think I better stop talking about it before I jinks it..

I am retaining water for some reason.. Maybe I have started drinking too much water again and just didn't realize it. Today I will cut back my intake..I'm very proud of myself. Yesterday I ate really healty and exercised and didn't drink.. I wanted too really bad , but every time I went to the bathroom or walked in front of a mirror I would pull my shirt up over my fat belly and squeze it and say to myself look at your fat self you don't need a drink.. It worked I was sad and miserable all night ..HAAA So I weighed this morning all excited to see a few less pounds due to my hard work yesterday and I  almost cried I gained two pounds. WTF !!   So it must be water or maybe sodium from the soy sauce yesterday. So this morning I dug around in my kitchen to find my water pills. Hopefully it won't take long to get the water weight off..I know its water cause I can feel it even in my feet..

Nothing else is going on I live such a boring life.. Of course I would rather have boring over drama..

Oh one thing I'm so glad we didn't buy Adele tickets because she has had to canceal her whole American tour.. That would have been a pain in the ass to get refunds..

I suck

Well yesterday started out great. I walked at the koa, even had a very nutritous and low fat lunch. Then boredom snuck in about 4 and I ate two slices of pizza and some peanut brittle.. Then at 7 I wanted something sweet so I made me 1 drink. Then I wanted something salty so I made me a small plate of cheese nacho's.. Then I was so upset with my weakness I got sad and went to bed..Of course I couldn't sleep so I stayed up and read till about 1... Then what I read really made me want my husband  * wink wink*  which sucked cause he wasn't home..
 I weighed myself this morning and I'm not pleased at all.. So today is a new day I will be stronger with my decisions about what goes into my mouth..

I need to clean house today , but at the moment I don't want to.. I want to go shopping.. I won't though.. I'm getting another child support check this week it was mailed out yesterday.. Yea!! Not much of nothing happening.. I'm hungry , but don't know what I want.. I need more coffee, later..

bad weekend

The weekend really sucked.. I didn't leave the house not one time which is no big deal I often go for days without leaving the house. Jeff cooked again on his homemade smoker. It works really good. He cooked a pork butt. It was his first time and we didn't realize that it would take 12 hours for it to be ready. But now we know. It was really good , we ate it on Sunday and will be eating on it today too. I read most of the weekend and he was on the computer. then Sunday morning the guys went to the gun range. It was nice to have the house all to myself. Jeff wanted me to go , but I really feel its good for the guys to have guy time, they really don't get enough of that. Plus I was still hurt from the rejection from Jeff. I know he loves me I don't know why I let my emotions get the better of me.. We talked about it last night , we will see what happens..  Its really my problem not his and its not fair that keep making him a part of it.. I have started exercising again and it feels good. I didn't drink last night and I'm gonna try not to drink all week since I drank so much last week. Just laundry and cleaning today.

weird

So a very strange thing happened to me today. Jeff left this morning at 4 . I could not go back to sleep so I started reading some fanfiction.. I was up when Cole left at 6:15 I should have just got out of bed then , but I was too comfy.. Well I fell back to sleep because the next thing I knew it was 10:20. Yuk I hate wasting my morning like that.. Well when I got up out of bed I saw a boot impression at the foot of my bed. I stepped over it thinking hmm thats weird cause Jeff and Cole both leave there shoes at the front door outside. So while I was peeing I thought maybe it was Jeff with a different shoe on. I came back and looked at the foot print. yes just one foot print. I just blew off thinking nothing more about it. Well through out the morning I eventually walked on the foot print. When Jeff and Cole got home I asked them about there shoes and neither one of them had been the room with boots on.. So now they both think I imagined the whole thing. I know I didn't. I know I saw a boot print in the carpet. So now I'm a little freaked out cause no one believes me. Also if there really was someone in my room why didn't the dogs bark and why only one boot print?

Okay on a plus side I was really starting to think I have a drinking problem. Well I talked to my mom today about it getting her opinion on the matter. I really like drinking now and she said as long as I wasn't waking up wanting to drink all was good. So whew in the clear!

what to do today

Nothing going on just another quiet day around here. Gonna do some laundry and have to go to the pet store to get dog food. I might go next door to Maurice's and check out some jeans.. I looked at Dillards the other day passing through and mostly all the ones I saw had bling on the pockets.. Like I said I was just passing through so hopefully I can find jeans without the stuff on the pockets. I'm 40 not 20 , I don't think bling on my ass would look right.. Speaking of ass the other day Jeff and I were watching some talk show and it was talking about Spanx and how they have a piece with ass pading.. We both laughed at the time , but I looked that shit up on there web site. I need all the help I can get. I'm tired of having a bruised tale bone from sitting.. Anyway $89 was how much that cost.. Sorry , but I don't think I want an ass that bad..What really makes me so made about Spanx is back in the 80's when I wore boot jeans I used to cut the feet out of my panty hose and where them under my jeans for the smooth firm look.. I still wear them under some of my garmets sometimes.. Now Spanx is making a killing off practically the same thing.

I did exercise yesterday on the eleptical. I then watched one of the exercise video's from Netflix to see if I liked it or not. It looked pretty fun. Some of the steps I used to do in Zumba. So today I might give it a try..

Hell Froze Over!

I received a child support check today.. Hopefully they will keep coming..

Ooops !!

No word yet on the previous owners buying the house. My realitor did tell me that they hadn't looked at the house before they offered the $10,000 less. So this was there first time to see what all we had done to the place.. So now they know we will not be coming off our list price.. This is what we have done in the 4 years ;  1 whole side new privacy fence, installed new side gate that didn't exsist before, cut trees down, french drain (because the den flooded the first month we lived here), paint almost whole inside house, remodeled both bathrooms from top to bottom, tore out kitchen cabinets to open it up to dinning room, put in dishwasher, new stainless sink, RO system, 3 new faucets, hot water heater, 3 sets wood blinds, repaired very dangerous electrical issue in kitchen, repaired plumbing , 2 new toilets (golf ball flushers) not cheap, ceiling fans in every room, new kitchen light fixtures, tore out wall in kitchen for bigger fridge to fit, new glass door, dogie door, I think thats it..

Haven't exercised at all this week, but I will start today..Monday we had the people come, then I just read all day. Yesterday I read and got my nails done. I'm so hung up on the fanfiction I'm reading.. Her sex scenes are really really good. Course on the down side of that is Jeff isn't home. Haa. Last night he was home , but he was too tired. I really hate it when he doesn't want me.. Makes me feel very fat and ugly. I have had an epofony , I think one other reason why I drink by myself is because I feel sexy when I drink.. I like the way it makes me feel. I'm not thinking oh I'm fat and ugly. Its like it brings out this skinny , pretty person in my head.. I know I'm weird.. I just let my gaurd down and since I'm usually home by myself (well except Jordan) I really enjoy it.. But I'm starting to see a problem and it scares me a bit..One I can't lose weight if I keep drinking, two I find myself watching the clock for an approiate time to start drinking..Its usually around 6 and not every night just when I'm feeling lonely..And this lonliness happens even when Jeff is home.. Okay enough boohoo  SORRY!

Temple sent me a text last night asking me to go to Spams with her. I told her I couldn't cause Jeff was home. She didn't text me back.. Honestly if I'm going to a bar I want to go to dance not sit in some  slum bar..

Jeff has 8 days of vacation he has to take before the first of the year. We were trying to save them for when we move, but he was told he has to put in for the days off now cause only two drivers out at a time. So last night we just picked randome days off. If we sell the house he will just have to go to his boss and explain he needs to switch days off.

Tia I saw on facebook that your worried about Jason's school. Last year when I pulled Jordan out of school we had to test him to see where he needed to be(grade level wise)  there was a free program on the Switched on Schoolhouse web site that we used. You should try it out. He may be above where he is at that is why he is so bored..

Hello there, sorry I haven't been on for a while.. I got caught up reading again.. I have a twitter friend that writes fanfiction and she's pretty good.. Sometimes the words she inserts into her writting are not the correct words, but english is not her first language ( she's from Indonesia) so I'm sure that is pretty difficult for her at times.. You know kinda like how wet backs say ' get off the car'  or my favorite ' I barely got off the car'  when really what is suppose to be said is 'get out of the car' 

Jeff got his smoker finished enough to cook on. So yesterday he cooked us ribs.. They were sooo good.

The people that made an offer on the house last week came to look at it again this morning. It was the ones we bought the house from.. Too funny.. There realitor didn't show up , but I let them come on in since I knew who they were.. While in the house my realitor called and said they needed to reschedule cause the other realitor couldn't make it. I told her they were already in the house, because I knew who they were.. The people really liked all the improvements done to the house.. Her parents live across the street. So maybe they will buy it back...

I got a whole bunch of exercise video's off netflix over the weekend and will begin one of them tomorrow.. I have decided to not go out to the koa for a while. I'm just going to exercise here at the house. Its just easier to stay home..

Cole gave me money to get my nails done so I have an appointment tomorrow for that.. I got new running shoes on Saturday. Nothing else has been going on..

ugh!

So yesterday was a very non-diet day.  I'm about to start and I was craving everything.. First mistake is I went and got donuts after koa. Second mistake was I ate them for breakfast. Third mistake I ate them for supper..

I am exercising here at the house this morning and tomorrow.. Trying to change things up a bit..I wish my body would hurry up and catch up cause I feel so exhausted. I slept till 9 this morning. Jeff and I were joking about how our mornings have changed. He used to be the one to sleep in and now its me. I really don't like sleeping that late. My body must be really tired.. Getting old Sucks!

My step-sister is so jealous of my little brother and his wife staying at my mom's house that she is trying to start a family feud. So we will all get pissed and Tony(my stepdad) will make them move out. But her plan isn't working. We aren't fighting about what she is saying.. We are just ignoring it.. Besides they will be moving out soon. They put an offer on a house and it was excepted so now they are just waiting on inspections. My step-sis. name is Kristy she has a son Kamen he is 14 and has lots of medical problems of the head.. Not to sound mean, but that boy aint right. He is mean with no consious.. He is autism, add, adhd. I'm not sure what all is wrong with him.. He got kicked out of public school last year thats why he has to be homeschooled now. He is part black so Tony has never acknowledge him as a grandson. So many problems with that family.. any way what started all this mess with Kristy was when we were there for the weekend. On Saturday we went to eat at El Chicos. Mom and Tony invited Anthony (my step bro.)  to go eat with us because apparently he is always at work and never gets to go when everyone goes to eat. He said yes. This is my second time to meet him. He was very nice . Well Kristy found out that we all went and didn't ask her to go so thats why she is pissed at everyone. They didn't ask her to go because they were buying and they just took her out to eat the weekend before.  But she doesn't count that.. She is such a mooch. She doesn't work she lives off of disability and Kamens  SS.  and food stamps and mom and Tony pay the part of the house payment that hud doesn't pay. Her car is paid for . (they bought it for her) So all she has is electric,water  and car ins. Mom and Tony pay for her cable and phone, but she doesn't see that as help she just expects that. My sister in law Danile she is married to Calob called me yesterday to let me know what Kristy is saying about me. I guess since my other brother Lawrence never goes to my mom's she's got nothing to say about him. Anyway , Danile said that me and mom talk all the time about everyone. That I'm a motor mouth to be careful of me.. Haaa. I told Danile yep Kristy is right me and mom do talk everyday. Thank God , because there was a time when I was married to Doug that we didn't talk for months. and yes we do talk about everyone, how else am I to know how everyone is doing. Also that I would never say anything about anybody that I wouldn't say to there face. So Kristys plan failed again...I feel kinda sorry for people that are so unhappy with themselves that they have to make trouble for happy ones.

I'm thinking about going on slimfast again. I really want this 20  pounds off by Christmas.. I would love for it to be off sooner cause its going to be jean shopping time very soon. And I don't have any that fit. But I don't want to buy any till I'm the size I want to be..UGH!!!!  I curse you FOOD

I did it , I got up and went to walk this morning. I did it 3 times . Then went over to Walmart to pick up a few things. Now I'm finially home enjoying my coffee.. Ahhh. Going to make lowfat hot dogs for lupper. We call it lupper because its halfway between lunch and supper.. Airgo lupper!  I did buy some really juicy looking sausage style for Jeff and boys. They don't like my 40cal weiners.. Not much of nothing going on today, might do some laundry and clean a bit since all I did was lay around and watch netflix yesterday. Jordan did his school yesterday and it only took him maybe an hour. I tried to talk him into doing more , but he said it was just the first day of school and he needed to ease back into it.. HAAA !   He did tell me that he does plan on working more at a time just probably not this week..

So happy that all the fall shows started up this week. Last night two and half men was pretty good. Looking forward to seeing how the whole Ashton thing is going to work out. Tonight its Glee and a couple of others that I will have to dvr. Its pretty sad when your life revolves around the tv shows.

Don't know whats wrong

Saturday I woke up early and felt great. I went to the koa and walked/run 3 times. Other than the bottoms of my feet hurting I felt good. Then at about 4  we went to Mandy's house to see the baby. Jeff was so rude he embarassed me. First off he didn't want to hold his nephew. Okay fine he's little and yes that can be scary. But then he kicked back the recliner and put a movie on his phone and sat there and watched netflix on his phone while the rest of us talked and held little Ryh. I was suprised his mom didn't comment on his behavior. I sure did when we got in the car. Then we came home and boom it just hit me. My whole body hurt and my ears feel stopped up. I have no energy. I went to bed. Then Sunday I still didn't feel right, but I had to get the laundry done and get Jordan's school downloaded so he could start today. It was a bad day. This morning I feel a bit better , but still don't feel a hundred percent. I need to go to the store , but I don't see that happening. I'm going to take a shower and lay around . I hope!

Alot happened yesterday

Mandy's water broke about 7:15 last night. We headed up to the hospital. She was at a 5 but not considered in labor. The doctors didn't want to give her anything to start labor since she looked like it was going to happen on her own. We stayed till 10:30 . Jeff needed to get to bed. Vonda called me at 11:50 to let me know Mandy was at a 9 (I asked her to call )  So I huried up and got back up to the hospital. He was born at 12:21am , Sept.16th, 6lbs-3, 18 and three quarters long. He has so much hair that at bath time the nurse  had to use a comb. Its long and curly when wet. I didn't get to see all that bath stuff with Jordan so I stayed and watched everything. I got home about 2:30. Mandy was getting her tubes tied at 6 this morning. We will go back up there after lunch.
Austin is in love. To see a child so in love with there new baby brother almost made me feel guilty that we didn't have another child. Austin amazed me, he is going to be such a great big brother to that little guy. Oh I guess I forgot to tell you his name. Its John Ryan. He will be called Ryan. We will call him Ryh because I already have a niece named Ryann. Corey's mom came up with that nick name. She is going to call him that too.

Onto new stuff.. Yesterday Sept. 15th was Bailey's birthday. Temple's baby that died. Well evey year I have been there for her on his birth and death dates. So yesterday my heart was so heavy with grief for her that I went over to Greg's where she is living. She was shocked to see me. I didn't waste anytime with what I had to say to her about what Misty told Mandy. I was so hurt and angry for her lieing to me. I wanted to know what I did to deserve that. Well come to find out what Misty told Mandy was a complete lie. This is what really happened, Oh and after she told me her side of the story. Brittney , Scotts girlfriend showed up to exercise and told me the same story. So this is what Temple said happened. When she left my house she did go over to Scotts house, but Scott answered the door not Misty. She had a few laughs and beers with him and Brit. and Misty , before they all decided to go to Spams. Then she met Greg and has been with him ever since. He is good to her , she has her own room , but they are messing around. Bill is even letting the girls come over without  supervision. She is goining to go to Cosmo. school to get her nail lisence. She is trying to get back on her feet and Greg is helping her. She said she hasn't done any drugs since she left that abusive guy. She was pretty upset that Misty would lie on her like that. She said it seems like everytime she is on the right pathe that someone tries to knock her back down again. We had a really really good talk. She is so skinny, but she did make the comment that living with Greg she is gaining weight cause he always cooks. So thats good. She needs to get more saline put back in her plug so she can keep more food down. She had her stomach done in Mexico a few years ago. I don't recommend Mexico for this procedure that really screwed her up.

Today I will be back up at the hospital. Hope everyone has a great weekend!

sleepy

I bailed on Tia again this morning. I'm very angry at myself. In all the years that I have been exercising by myself I have wanted someone to exercise with. Its no fun alone. There was a time that Mandy walked with me, but even then she was unreliable. I would get so frustrated at her cause I counted on her to exercise with. Then she just stopped completly and I had to make a choice to continue alone. I got used to it and then began to enjoy the alone time as me time.  Now I'm at the stage where I need an exercise buddy again and I'm the one bailing out..Maybe its because I have been on my own schedule for so long , maybe its because my husband alarm went off at 3 this morning and I couldn't fall back to sleep until 4:30,  maybe I have just gotten in a rutt..We start school on Monday so that will put us back on some sort of schedule , maybe then I will be able to get up early and meet Tia at the koa.
When I'm through with my coffee this morning Jordan and I are going to the Koa. It will be good for him to get out of the house.

A young lady came and looked at the house yesterday. The showings are slowing down , maybe 1 a week now. My mom had a dream that we got a contract on the house. I hope her dream comes true.

Okay so this is totally off the wall, but did anyone watch Survivor last night?  I think I'm just becoming a horny old cougar. Well I can't be a cougar cause I'm not having sex with younger guys, but boy I'm a lookin. That Ozzy guy last night was fricken hot!  I don't know what is happening to me, I used to never look at guys, really , honestly because I was always to ashamed by my looks , I just always kept my head down never noticing anything. I know this guy is on tv, but I have noticed I'm even noticing men in real life. What is come over me?  This can't be good !

I want to get out of this town and do something fun. I asked Jeff if he would like to take a day trip somewhere on Saturday, like maybe to Austin to show Jordan the Capitol or San Antonio and go on the river walk. Just to get away for the day. And he said no , he wants to work on his smoker.. POOOOP !!!  I understand he travels all week so I know he wants to just chill at home when he's off. I think Jordan and I are going to have to become more independent and start having day trips during the week.

just another day

Well I drank too much last night so I didn't get up and go to the koa this morning.. MY BAD!!  I'm going to do the elepitical here in a few. I think I'm going to give my zumba kinect another try also to change up things. I'll have to get Jordan to connect it for me I have forgotten how :(  I did pretty good minus the drinking yesterday. I didn't eat anything else after I had lunch. I wish alcahol wasn't so fattening... I have dropped a pound so at least I'm back in the 150's.

I'm really trying to convince Jordan into going to the bday party on Sunday. I haven't had a chance to tell him about Leah's son going. I would really like for them two to meet. They both are the same age and love xbox.. I got side tracked last night or I would have told him then.

I'm so pathetic, the good news is I wasn't the only one..That Breaking Dawn trailer was so close to the book that it gives me great hope that the movie will be fricken awesome.. I know they have to change up parts to make it more exciting , but it only made it better not worse.

I want to get out of this house, I want to go shopping . Of course now that I've gained weight nothing will fit but shoes...I need new shoes!

i'm up

I'm so glad I got up and went and walked this morning. I'm going to try really hard to continue to get up early and go walk. Its just with our lifestyle there is no need to get up early cause we have all day to get done what needs to be done. But I enjoyed the walk this morning so I'm gonna try to continue. I did somewhat okay on my eating yesterday , but I didn't exercise. I didn't feel good, so I mostly laid around and watched Harry Potter movies. Probably do the same today, but at least my exercise is done.

Darn chocolate cake

I am way up in my weight. 160.2 .... I know big bummer.. I really only have myself to blame. I haven't exercised or ate right in two weeks. Then Friday I bought a chocolate cake from Sam's.. need I say more.. I am really disapointed in myself. I feel lazy and slugish, I am sleeping way to late. I used to get up between 7-8 now its more like 9-10.. I had two chances to get up early this morning and fell back to sleep. I will start exercising today and I  dug out a notebook to keep a food journal. I will get back down in my weight!!!

Bored

Hello , sorry its been a while .. The leak got fixed , the wall fixed, carpet cleaned, house back in order.. Jeff is gone to work on his work truck that is the only way I was able to get on here. He has been on the computer ALOT !!!!  I have been watching Netflix and drinking. Starting Monday I am going to get back to the koa . I haven't exercised and boy can I feel it.. I got Jordans school ordered yesterday and it should be here Wednesday. So he will begin again on Monday the 19th.

Got some gossip on Temple. She is living with Greg. Lindie's ex-husband. Well I don't think there divorced yet, but she left him and is living in Burleson. So she's out of the picture. Lindie was the lead singer for Blue Mass Appeal (Scotts band) Greg did all the sound set up. Any way the day Temple came over here she went to Spams and went home with Greg and hasn't left. Heard through Misty , Scotts sister. Temple and Brittney (Scotts gf) hang out now.. Well at least Greg isn't a beater. And she is safe.. She is trading sex for a place to live is what I heard. She told Misty she isn't attracted to Greg , but she has to do what she has to do to have a place to live.. So SAD!!!

Well I got nothing else, thank I'm gonna go make me a drink!

leak

We have a leak, thank God it is in the wall and Jeff is at Home Depote getting parts to fix it. My kitchen is a mess because we had to remove a wall to get to the leak. Thank God again for panaling. My kitchen has it and the wall that shares the hall bathroom is where we had to remove the wall. Hopefully it will be an easy fix since the find was easy..

I'm a fatty again

I broke down and weighed , I really shouldn't have cause the number I got was way larger than what I had in my head. I knew I had gained some from all the eating out . I can feel it. Plus flow is here and won't leave. been here since friday, never stays this long so it must be my nerves keeping it here. I'm at 158.4 YIKES!!!!!  I have to get a handle on it fast I will not go back up only down...It really is amazing how fast you gain weight , but it takes forever to lose it..

We had an old couple come and look at the house yesterday. I was making taco soup so I just locked the dogs outside and me and Jordan just stayed in the livingroom. I told them when they want to go out back I would get the dogs, but they didn't want to go outside. I really liked staying at home. The only thing was the man asked me all kinds of questions. A good sign, but I didn't like it..

I'm really loving the cooler weather. I can't wait for window weather so our electric will go down. It was $365 this month. I know alot of it is because of the pool pump cause I have to run that thing for four hours everyday. When it cools off I only have to run it once a week..

Nothing else going on. Mandy should be having her baby soon. I saw on facebook she is at a 4, so won't be long now.. I wonder if they will even let us know when she goes into the hospital? Something is up with Kaci, but no one will tell us anything. Mandy just makes remarks about how heart broken she is about her daughter, then Cole said him and Sam saw her at Sonic and he didn't even recognize her she was so skinny..but when I saw her at the baby shower last month she looked fine. Who knows?

traveling lag

I got the lazy's bad. After I cancealed on Tia I went back to sleep and slept until 9:45.. I guess I was tired. I'm drinking my coffee now and hope to get energy. I may still go out to the koa its really really nice out. I have to go get pool chemicals today sometime cause we ran out of clorine while we were gone and the pool is green.. yuk!!! I did all of our laundry except our sheets yesterday . So today all the beds will be stripped and washed.

Saturday we went and found the pub that Bobby Long will be at on the 14th. Its a hole in the wall kind of place, but according to Jeff thats how all the clubs are in Dallas. I will not be going by myself. I was hoping it was in a mall or a hotel or something besides just a stand alone pub. Cause if it was in a nice place I would go by myself. Its not, so I won't be going. Oh well maybe some other time..

I have not weighed because I am terrified of what the number will read. I really didn't eat much , but we did eat out every single day so I know thats bad..

HOLY COW!!!!     Jeff just called me and Multi-Chem is being taken over by Haliburton... Jeff said they just all had a confrence call and were told it would take affect sometime between October-December. Now we don't know what will happen. Now all of our plans are out the window. Jeff said that James Archer the owner of Mult-Chem wasn't very clear if it was a merge or a buy out..Now we can't sell our house untill we know what is going to happen with Jeff's job.  Haliburton could come in and change everything or keep it the same.. I'm freaking out!!!

Okay so its late afternoon now and I'm adding to this blog what we found out about Jeff's job. It was a merger not a buy out. So Jeff's boss said the only thing that is going to change is that now Multi-Chem has a lot more money and its gonna be huge.. His boss told him to keep trying to sale our house , nothing is going to change to keep us from moving. Whew!!!!  thats a relief..

Home

Well were home, back to the same old , same old.. We had a great time with my mom. We really didn't do much but hang out at her house and watch movies. It was still nice though..Not much of nothing to talk about...

Went and walked with Tia this morning . Once I got up out of bed it was really nice to get outside and have an adult to talk to.. I really enjoyed the walk it was nice to change up my routine.. Then I came home and cleaned house. Then took a shower and watched one movie on Netflix. Then fixed nacho's . Then sat and watched the entire Gone with the Wind movie.. I love netflix.. I'm so hooked... Now it is 7 o'clock and I'm just messing around on the computer waiting for Jeff to come home. We leave in the morning for my mom's. I will be gone till Monday.. Hope everyone has a great weekend!

Jordan's day

Today after I exercise and shower , I am taking Jordan out to eat and then to do something fun. He hasn't decided on the fun part yet.. There's just so much to choose from he's at a loss...HAAAA!!!
Since I will be out I will go ahead and get cash and gas for our weekend. We will be leaving friday morning, but I don't know what time yet. When we get back from mom's I will order Jordan's next grade level. Hopefully putting him at a start date of Sep. 19th. That gives him 6 weeks off for summer. A little longer than I planned, but well needed..

I found out Doug got out of jail July 27th, but I still haven't received any child support. I called the att. gen. to find out protocol and they told me if I don't have a payment by Sep. 1st to call them back. Then what , do they arrest him again or do we start all over with fricken late letters. Well you know what they have to send out 3 late letters before they can arrest him again.  The man can play the system so well.

Cole spent the night over at Sam's last night.. Breaks my heart to see him bend to her like this. I mean come on either you love him and what him or let him go!!!

The talk

When Cole got home last night , Jeff and I had a very adult conversation with him. I told him how it stresses me out waiting to see if he was coming home. I can't sleep unless I know he is safe..So we put the ball in his court. We either set a curphew , or he must keep me posted on his activities, or he must find his own place. The reason for keeping us posted is because what if something did happen and we needed him. How would we know where to look. Like I said, when he left saturday morning at 10:30 I had no contact with him until I sent him a text at 2 sunday morning. Thats just rude to me in my eyes anyway. So this weekend we will be out of town so he obviously won't have a curphew and once I talk to him when he gets off work I wont talk to him again till the next night.. We have in the past talked about him getting his own place because when we sell the house he won't be moving with us right away. So I don't know what he will do. I know he's trying to save up his money to buy a new truck, so I don't know if he will move out right now. I never want my boys to feel like they can't live with me. When I went to live with my dad at 16 (first mistake of my life) my mom was so hurt that she said I could never come back. So when living at my dad's was nightmare, I ran away and moved in with Doug. If I could have moved back in with my mom I think I would have been better off. So as long as my boys are working hard or going to school they will always have a home with me. Now if they want to be bumbs they can go live in a tent at the lake. Cause I will not support them. I believe when the time is right they both will want there own space and then move out. Jeff didn't even move out of his mom's house untill we got married. He worked out of town alot and stayed in hotels, but he never had his own place.

Brendy called and said the people from Monday morning really liked the house , but only could go FHA.. Then why the hell did they even bother, cause we are not going FHA. Not only would our house not pass FHA , but we are barely going to walk away with enough money to move on I am sure as heck not paying $1200 towards buyers closings. Brendy was pretty upset that there realitor even bothered with this house. She then told me a man called her friday looking to buy a house for his 3 college girls. He seems interested and when he gets back to town she will show it to him.
Someone buy our house already!!!!!!!

Leah's blog

Leah , I'm so happy you have decided to blog. I feel like I will get to know you better. I am still having trouble with posting a comment on your blog. Also I don't know if its just your setting or mine, but I don't click on your tag name like I do everyone else's I have to click on the link that you sent that invited me to your blog. So weird.. I too enjoy watching all those live web cams. I'm a people watcher. People do odd things and its really funny to watch.

Not much went on yesterday. Those people came in the morning to look, but thats it.. I'm really started to get discouraged. I know I said no big deal if the house sells or not, but deep down inside I want this fricken house to sale!!!!!  I know its the kitchen that keeps it from selling, but hey that would be about $5000 to fix it up isn't gonna happen unless we are staying put. The kitchen really isn't all that bad its just lack of cabinets and the washer and dryer are in the kitchen. We didn't like the kitchen either when we bought the house, but it has so much potential and the rest of the house is fine. Especially now that the bathrooms have been remodeled. Oh well it is what it is..

I think its time for Cole to move out. I don't want him too, but I know it would be for the best. I am too much of a mother hen and maybe if he had his own place I would be able to let go of some of the anxiety I feel. I told yall about him leaving saturday morning , right.. well I sent him a text at 2 in the morning checking on him, cause we hadn't heard anything from him since 10:30 that morning. He said he was fine and that he was hanging with friends and be home later. Then at 4:30 he sent me a text telling me he wasn't coming home he was staying the night with friends. Then Sunday at noon I sent him a text letting him know the lookers were gone he could come home. No response , so I called him. I woke him up , but he said he would be home shortly. Never came home. At 2 I called him cause by now I'm thinking he's staying away because of our fight yesterday. He said no he's fine just hanging with friends be home later. He finially came home about 4:30. Told me about his day/night. He was with Sam and some other friends. Then he took a shower and left again by 5:15 to go swimming. At midnight last night he still wasn't home. So me being the mother hen that I am sent him a text that said this. Son I know your having fun with your friends , but you have work in the morning. Be responsible and come home. He sent back Mom I'm aware. I sent back , your still my baby and I worry about you. He never replied. I don't know what time he got in, but when Jeff left this morning at 4 Cole was home. And he must have got up in time because he was gone this morning..
I know I need to let him be an adult, but its hard he is still my baby... so thats why I think maybe he needs to find his own place. So we both could have peace.. What do yall think?

blog is strange

okay so what is going on with blogger today. I tried to leave a comment on Leah's blog and I don't know if it went through or not. It wasn't like the rest of ours. Then I tried to comment on Tia's blog and it wouldn't let me either. It keep asking how I wanted to log in, under what name..Weird..

Pancake Syrupe

We had a stupid family argument over pancake syrupe yesterday morning.. I don't know whats going on with this family. Lots of stress maybe. Saturday morning started off really really good if you know what I mean.. Then I got up and started a big breakfast ; smothered potatoes, bacon, eggs, toast, and pancakes. Well I didn't notice that almost all the syrupe was gone so I asked Cole if he would run up to the store and pick us up a bottle. He had only been out of bed for maybe 20 minutes and he was just laying on the couch doing nothing. He told me no , he didn't want to go. So this upsets me because here I am making this big breakfast out of love for my family and he tells me no. So then I go and ask Jeff , he is on the computer and has already showered and dressed. He tells me no he doesn't want to go to ask Cole. So now I'm heart sick cause I do everything for everybody and no one wants to do this for me. It really makes me feel like I'm nothing..So Jeff and Cole get into a heated argument about Cole going to the store. Cole's excuse for not going is he's not hungry so he won't be eating. That still upsets me cause why does that matter if your eating or not I asked you to do something for me. It upsets me more that Jeff is all up in Cole's face about how disrespectful he is to me, but hey didn't he just tell me no too.. Anyway Jeff and Jordan in up going. Jordan went so Jeff wouldn't have to get out of the car. So when they get back Jeff tells Cole he can't have any of the syrupe. So then that was the last straw I blew up at everyone.. So fricken childish. So needless to say Cole didn't eat pancakes and we all ate in silence. Then Cole and I cleaned the kitchen. He took a shower and left and hasn't been home since. I cleaned the carpets, Jeff got on the computer, and Jordan played xbox. Then Jeff and I went to the movies. I'm still pretty heart sick about him telling me no. So it was not a very fun date!