oh boy I hurt!!

Two days of exercising and I'm hurting so bad... My legs hurt, inbetween my shoulders hurts, my arms hurt.. You get the picture I'm hurting everywhere.. And to top it off I gained a pound and half since Monday..With all this hurting I'm sure glad I'm easing back into exercising...I will do it again today.. I slept so good last night, that alone gives me motivation..

Accidentaly took those diet pills this morning instead of my thyroid pill. So now we will see if coffee effects the pills.. So far they have done nothing.. Course this is only day 4

Thats all I got, hope everyone has a great day!

Couldn't view Lacys blog this morning, it kept popping up some microsoft hot mail for your phone.. Hers was the only one though.. Weird

I did exercise yesterday.. Yea me!! I turned the sound down on the tonning video and turned on pandora.. Was sooo much better.. Then I walk/run on treadmill for 30 min. Its a start.. Today I plan on doing the eleptical for 30 min.. Two days on diet pills and I haven't noticed any change in the way I feel.. Don't know if that is good or bad..

Thats it. Hope everyone has a great day..

Good Weekend

I had a pretty good weekend.. It was very interesting at the tattoo convintion. I'm a people watcher so it was right up my alley.. I was very pleased that Jeff agreed to stay as long as we did.. He doesn't like people..He really enjoyed talking to Hunter.. That man is a hoot! 

I really enjoyed hanging out with Laura, I wish we could all hang out more.

Sunday Jordan mowed and Jeff worked on his smoker.. We really need to do some yard cleaning.. My husband never throws shit away. My back yard looks like a junk yard.. We have decided that we are getting rid of the pool and trampoline.. I'm waiting on my brother to see if he wants the trampoline and if not, Sams sister is taking it.. The pool were not sure about. We don't even know if once we take it down if won't crumble.. When we replaced the liner last year there were some pretty serious rusty spots..The filter is still good though and that bad boy cost us $350. So I know Jeff wants to sale it. Its already four years old so I don't know how much he wants to get from it. Once the pool is gone we are going to put a washer pitching area in its spot.. If were staying we need to do some serious work on our yard. Jeff needs to finish the dam storage building and we need a cover over our patio, and a new back door..

We ending up buying diet pills. Lipozene.. We started them yesterday.. I will exercise today.. I'm going to do my toning video for sure its only 20 minutes. Then if I feel the need I will do the treadmill. I did not lose the five pounds I wanted to lose for this month.. I'm still bouncing between 158-160  I'm so mad at myself for gaining after I had got down to 150. Dam Baileys and Dr. P

I really want to vent about my sex life, but to embarrassed.. Lets just say I'm really really sexually frustrated and Jeff doesn't get it..

Hope everyone has a great day..

Yesterday sucked!!

Yesterday started out really good, I have a coupon for $10 off plus 20% off at Maurices. Well since I had to get dog food I ran next door to check things out. They were also having a buy one get one half off sale on all there casual wear.. They have a lot of new spring tops and some really cute shorts and capris in. I was just getting my grove going when Jordan calls me and tells me daisy is bledding from her stiches really bad. So I stop shopping and run next door to get dog food then come home. Sure enough she rippied herself open. So I take her back to the vet. They had to put two stapples in her. She is so good she didn't even yelp..I still had Walmart to do so I brought her back home and ran to the store. I wasn't in the mood to finish my shopping so maybe this weekend , my coupon expires Monday so I have to do it soon if I'm gonna use them.

Jeff finially said we could go to the tattoo convintion.. YEA!! I have never been so I'm looking forward to it.

Still no pills I did look while at Walmart. The guy from the biggest loser has his own pills out now. There was only one box left on shelf and I was tempted, but didn't do it. Also Jillian Michaels has some pills too. Some kind of cleanse and fat burner.. Those two always preach no pills so I was kinda of interested in them. At least they would be more natural then some of the other diet pills. I think..

I bought my good hair color, my hair looks dark and dingy right now.. I hate that last color.. I didn't buy the bleach one just an extra light natural blonde. Its only been three weeks since my last color job, but I think I will put my new color on today..

Hope everyone has a great weekend!

No go on my sister-in-laws fat burner pills. She said that some days are good, but most days she feels sick, but my cousin is taking Lypozene and lost 6 pounds his first week. I know thats probably water. Still just thinking about it.. I need some sort of jump start. I think if I could see a 5 pound drop in my weight it might motivate me to exercise again. I have just got the lazys bad. so not like me. I used to love to exercise..in fact I exercised so much I was told I did it too much.. HAA! Maybe thats the problem I used up all my mometuem!!

I once again stressed how much I want to go to the tattoo convention to Jeff.. I told him when Matt was going to be there and he perked up on the idea. I told him to let me know by Friday night if were going or not..

I have to leave the house today.. The dogs need food.. I think I will also run into Maurices since I will be right there and see if anything catches my eye.. I also really want chineese food, but not sure if that will happen..

Hope everyone has a great day!

diet pills

I have not exercised at all this week, I have done really good on my eating and have lost what I gained over the weekend. My sister-in-law is taking some kind of diet pills called fat burner and I'm seriously thinking about taking pills again just to jump start my motivation. I haven't taken pills in years , and I'm not really sure if I'm going to , but the thought is there..
Hope everyone has a great day.

fun weekend

Our Saturday night turned out to be a blast.. Jeff even said that is the best time he has had since Laura's house.. Course we haven't done anything since Laura's house..
To start the night off we ate and then played pictionary, but instead of drawing we chose to draw or act it out.. Jeff really got into it surprised me. He doesn't normally play those kinds of games. Then they pulled out this really nice karoke machine.. Everyone was made to sing.. Well you know me I don't even like to sing in front of my kids, so I put up a fight and lost..So I sang so low they couldn't hear me.. Haa
Jeff did really good, he was either to wasted to realize what he was doing or just really having so much fun that it didn't matter. But what shocked the shit out of all of us was when Jordan took the mic.. OMG ! I have got to find out how to get this boy into acting classes.. He came alive , I mean like a totally different person. He wasn't shy , he was really good and intertaining.. He enjoyed it so much he sang more than the rest of us.. We might be buying him a machine for his birthday..But the good ones are really expensive and we don't know if we want to spend the money on a maybe sometimes gift..
Jordan and Noah got along really good, they have the same taste in music and stuff. So we might see if Noah can come and stay the night some time.

On Monday I had to take daisy into get fixed. Poor baby she was so scared. I hate leaving them so I was sick at my stomach all day. When we got her home she was so doped up she slept until about midnight then her pain meds wore off and she became really restless. We had a rough night. I gave her a dose of her pain meds this morning and she is a ball of fire, so I have to make sure she doesn't hurt herself.

With all the drinking and eating over the weekend I gained one pound, but flo has left so I am going to try and get back on the treadmill. I don't want to do Laura and Tia's challenge cause I didn't do well when Sam and I tried a challenge. So I'm just going to try harder , but not officialy do the challenge.Hope everyone has a great day.

ink master

we watched a show last night called ink master. I don't know much about all the different styles of tattooing so I was hooked from the start .The one that wins gets $100,000
Anyway , I have been wanting another tattoo so with mine and Jeff's anniversary coming up I suggested to him that we get tattoo's for our anniversary. Just something that compliments each others not the same one. He has been talking about getting one since I got my first one. So we will see.
Don't really have anything else to talk about. Were going to my cousins tonight, so I will let you know how that goes.
Hope everyone has a great weekend.

I just wanted to apoligize for my pitty blog the other day.. I am grateful that he thought about us enough to buy a gift for valentines. I was just more confused to the gift its self..

Really haven't done anything this week. You know just the usual. It looks like were still going over my cousins Saturday night for dinner. He is going to cook us steaks , and I'm bringing mac and cheese. When we went out with them that night we got to talking about food, and mac &cheese came up. They have never had it unless from a box. I haven't made it from a box in 12 years. So they want my mac&cheese. I don't do anything special , so I really don't understand the big fuss over it, but oh well I'm bringing mac&cheese.

I only exercised once this week.. flo has been here since tues. and I don't like to exercise while flo is here. Never have. I know thats an excuse, but I have always been like that..

Yesterday marked our 5 year anniversary for living in this house.. I can't believe its been that long already..

Hope everyone has a great weekend..

my turn now

With everyone venting I feel the need.. Haa Haa

So my venting is pretty stupid, but I want to vent so here goes.
Jeff and I will be married 17 years March 4. In all those years my husband has probably bought me gifts for holidays maybe 5 times. He just doesn't do gifts. In the beginning of our marriage I would always buy him bday, anniv., valentine, christmas, fathers day. I was always a gift giver. Well since he didn't give gifts he had a hard time receiving gifts. Literally he would get pissed off that I bought him something. So I just quit. I no longer buy him anything. Not even a card.. In the beginning of our marriage it used to hurt really bad when he wouldn't buy me gifts on his own for my bday or anniv. or mothers day. Now I'm just used to it, no big deal I would rather buy what I liked , instead of him wasting money on stupid shit. Which brings me to my venting.. Yesterday being valintines day means nothing here, no cards to get ready for school, no cookies , or cupcakes to make for school. Just another day. So when Jeff got home last night he had one of those pr-made baskets of valentines stuff and a stuffed bear for Jordan. I was completly shocked .. This is so not the norm for him.  okay so now is the part where yall are going to think I'm a bitch... the basket stuff was so cheesy.. it came with a cute white bear and that was the only thing worth keeping. it had a rose shaped pen, a heart pin cushion, grapefruit hand soap, and apple cinnimon lotion.( I hate apple cinn. anything the scent makes me gag),  Of course I didn't dare tell him the truth, I just kissed him and thanked him. but what really gets to me is on Sunday we were all in the living room and I said to everyone if anyone wants to buy me anything for Valintines I would really love some choc. covered strawberries..Jeff got home yesterday about 6:30 so I'm thinking he stopped at Albertsons to buy our gifts. Why would he buy me this crap instead of what I mentioned.. I don't understand him..
I also got a visit from flo.. last visit took 49 days this time 17 , my 28 day  schedule is all jacked up.. I need to find me a gyno. and go. its just our insurance is crap and I hate to spend the money. I used to go to family planning but there gone now..
Okay I'm done.. Hope everyone has a great day

new week

I had a really good weekend..We ended up going out with my cousin and aunt on Saturday night. I didn't like where we went , but it was nice to get out of the house.. Jeff didn't even complain about going. I was so happy.  My cousin and his wife are really vocal about there sex life. A bit awkward at times. He is 34 and she just turned 28.. They invited us over to there house this coming Saturday.. They have 4 kids the oldest is 12 or 13 so hopefully him and Jordan will get along..They just moved here last summer and they still don't have any friends. She is an RN at Shannon and I'm not to sure where Peter works..They both are talkers so there was conversation the whole night.. We stayed out till about midnight..
Sunday we just laid around and I did laundry. The snow was really pretty, but I'm so glad its all melted now.
Of course I gained back the two pounds I lost last week, so here goes the roller coaster again.. I think I'm going to only drink every two weeks and only one day on that weekend. Just like LA recommended untill I can get a handle on my weight loss.. I know it will be hard, but I really want this 20 pounds off more than I want to drink.
I'm in a good mind set today about exercising so hopefully I will follow through today.
Hope everyone has good day.

Not much going here.. as usual.. My cousin called me last night and said they couldn't find a babysitter so we won't be going out after all... I'm hoping they would decide to just have people over. I like hanging out at homes better than bars anyway..So no big plans for the weekend..Oh except to purchase one fabulous Dvd on Saturday....
I only exercised twice so far this week.. I'm gonna try real hard to get on the treadmill today.. I'm just so blah.. Its like I know I need to , but yuk!
Hope everyone has a great weekend..

Well I didn't do the tonning dvd yesterday, but I did eat really smart. Today I will exercise for sure.. I'm trying to motivate myself back into exercising and if maybe I can do at least 3 times a week for now . Maybe by the end of the month I will be back up to 5 times a week..What angers me is I used to exercise 6 times a week and loved it..I just have the blahs so bad.. I never want to leave the house.. I don't even hardly go outside to check the mail.. Maybe its just the winter blues, cause I love being outside when its warm.. Jeff complains that Jordan and I never do anything.. which doesn't make since to me. Like I told him with us being home were not spending any money.. He should be thankful that his wife likes being at home.. Jeff is going to check into 4h club for Jordan.. Something to do with guns. So when and if Jordan joins the 4h I will be running him around for that.. I think it will be good for Jordan to be around kids his own age.

Jeff's mom called him yesterday to let him know that she is moving to Eden to live with her boyfriend.. We just met him at Mandy's wedding so we don't know him... So I guess we will be helping her move at the end of the month..

3 days till Breaking Dawn Dvd... YEA!!

Hope everyone has a great day.

Well yesterday was done half right.. I did exercise , but then it  seemed like I was hungry all day long.. I ate more than what I would consider dieting, but not considered pigging out.. I'm going to try my hardest to make myself do a tonning dvd this morning... I'm just so so bored with it..

Got my haircut and ran all my errands yesterday so today I have nothing to do(but read)  HaaHaa

Jeff won't be home tonight so I don't have to cook. Yea me!!

Thats all I got.. hope everyone has a great day.

I did it... I weighed this morning. I did not like what the number said, but its really my own falt so I'm just going to take it in and do something about it.. I wrote it down, cause I really want to lose 5 pounds a month. I would love to lose more, but I drink to much so I don't see it happening. I will not give up alcahol!!!

Not much going on today. I get my haircut, and I need to go get heartworm pills for the dogs.

Jeff touched my face yesterday and said it felt very very soft. Really loving the Meaningful Beauty.

He went varment hunting with my brother and some other guys Friday night. and then cleaned his guns all day saturday. So he was in a real good mood all weekend long. We didn't argue at all..

I put a color on my hair yesterday and I don't like it.. For starters Jeff keeps hasseling me to use coupons (he loves that extreme coupon) so I had a $2.50 off coupon for a haircolor that I never buy. but I thought what the heck I will give it a try.. Then after I checked out from the store I realized coupon was still in my back pocket.. UGH!   The color just isn't blonde enough for me.. Even though I still have the coupon I will not use it again.. I love the brand I always use..Maybe it will look better after haircut today..

Hope everyone has a great day..

Its been a pretty normal weekend not doing anything.. I did finially get off my lazy butt and go to the store . I also ran into Maurices since its right next door to the pet store (dog food). I bought me another pair of jeggings. I love those pants.. They are right up my alley , stretchy and comfy...I also bought me two shirts.. I had a coupon so I got all three items really cheap.. I was pleased.. I love a good bargin..

I didn't do so well on my diet yesterday.. I made waffels for breakfast then we just snacked on cheese dip with hamburger meat in it the rest of the day.. We had left over meat loaf so I didn't want to cook another meal..

Today I will probably make potatoe soup , so thats not really diet friendly either... I really am going to try to start exercising again tomorrow.. I just have no umph.. maybe if I just walk on the treadmill my umph will come back to me..

Its been four days since  I began using Meaningful Beauty and so far I like it.. My face feels really soft.. We shall see.

My cousin Peter and his wife invited us out next Saturday night for her birthday. They like karoke so they want to go to a bar.. Jeff ofcourse doesn't .. So I don't know if we will join them...

Breaking Dawn comes out on the 11th.. So that Monday will be a very good day for me!!!

stupid laws

UGH!!   Stupid Stupid Law Changes.. Last year when Doug went to jail, I asked them what will happen if he doesn't pay when he gets out.. She told me that he would go back to jail for longer time... Well I haven't received any child support payments since Sept. so I have been calling every month to get them sending out the stupid letters.. Well this morning a nice lady told me that since he served time that usually suppends his probation period (which he was on for non-pmt)  so the only other thing they could do would be to suspend his driver liscense.. They already did that.. so now she tells me there is probably nothing they can do to him for non-pmt except keep sending out the stupid pmt lettters...All of this is because Cole is now 19.. if he was still small they could put him back in jail... I new I would never get that money , but I sure wanted to make his life hell by putting him back in jail.. I guess I will be the bigger person and just thank God , Doug was never in Cole's life and pray that he never gets to be..

I've got the exercise blues.. I haven't done it all week.. I'm just burned out of the stuff that I normaly do.. Rondi asked me to join a yoga class with her, but hell no I'm not cordinated enough to do that out in public.. I wish I had money to hire a trainer like the rich people do..I have a goal to lose 5 pounds a month. If I can do that I would lose 20 by June.. That would be perfect..

We have no plans for the weekend.. Hope everyone has a great weekend..

Surprise ..... I got nothing to say

Just another boring , quiet day

totally failed at exercising this week, but I have done really well on my diet

I still haven't left the house to run my arrands, I really need to, maybe tomorrow..

Got nothing!

Didn't exercise, but ate okay..

Just been reading some fanfiction.. Got my sister-in-law Rondi hooked.. There are some really great writers out there..

My Meaningful Beauty came yesterday so I will try it today..

11 days till Breaking Dawn DVD!!!!!!!!

Hope everyone has a great day..