New idea..

We have been wanting to move up to the metro-plex area for over a year now. Jeff has talked to the guy in charge of the yard in New Fairview about transfering up there when they put in the blending plant, cause they will need drivers. Then this week he talked to his boss from Sonora about driving out of New Fairview when the blending plant is up and going. Both guys agreed to keep Jeff in mind, because he is the only one that has offered to transfer. Well they haven't even broken ground yet on the blending plant so it could still be 6 months or more. Well after we were totally dissed on Kaci's graduation , Jeff came up with a plan. I tell you what happened with graduation in a bit.. Jeff wants to go ahead and move up there now. Well not right this second , but within a couple of months. See he thinks he could make it work. They have alot of loads from Sonora to New Fairview, Longview, Oklahoma, Arkansas. Well when he goes to most of those places he only gets back to Weatherford cause he is out of hours. If we lived up there he would be home. Most of the time he is gone from Monday - Thurs. so if he had to stay gone it wouldn't be any different. Also if we were already up there, he thinks his boss would give him all the New Fairview loads. He would talk to him about that.. Then when the blending plant was running Jeff would just drive out of New Fairview instead of Sonora. So all day yesterday we were trying to figure things out. What to do with our house, What to do with Chip, cause my mom said we could stay with her until we found a place, but Chip would have to stay outside. Its too hot for him to be an outside dog. When they weren't home I could let him in the house , but for the 3 days they were home he would be outside, and that just wouldn't work. Its his drull that my mom doesn't like, not him. He is a very sweet dog, but boxers drull(gross).So do we call a realator and see what our house would sell for? Its a fixer upper , there things that we have done, but there are so many things that still need to be done. Or do we try to owner finance? Next month Jeff's truck will be paid off and then we will be debt free( except for the house) I thought that maybe Cole could rent the house from us and let chip stay here till we find a place, then we could put the house up for sale, either through a realator or owner finance. Cause we won't buy a house right away we will just rent up there untill we decide where we want to live. Thats a big place to choose from.. So do yall have any advice? It would greatly be appreciated.. Now on to Kaci's graduation.. Well no one called us , so when we got to the stadium we found us a seat. I ran into my cousin Lacey, we are still really close. She came and lived with us last year for about 6 months while her parents were trying to move back from Seattle.. Anyway I guess she had ran into Mandy, and told Mandy that we were sitting up above them. We really didn't see them. They were like 10 rows down from us.. So then Mandy, Jeff's mom, aunt and uncle all stand up to get our attention to come sit with them. We declined... Jeff said fuck'em The only reason they wanted us to sit with them was because Lacey had spotted us and them. Then Austin came up to talk to us and said that Jeff's mom was staying the night at Mandys. She never called us or came by on Sunday. Jeff is really pissed. When Mandy was fucking up Vonda called him all the time, now its like we don't exsist..

Graduation

Sam's graduation was so long, you would think that for a class of 30 it wouldn't take long. Wrong ! they drug it out for two hours. Tonight we have Kaci's , and it looks like we will be sitting by ourselves no one has called us. That is so weird to me , the night Cole graduated I called everyone to let them Know what time we were meeting , then those that were going to be late I let them know where we were sitting. Maybe I'm making a big deal out of nothing, but I thought family was suppose to sit together to share in the moment. Jeff just doesn't care, it really bothers me that were not being included in anything. Maybe I just miss my momma and that bond.. Oh well, moving on... Our HCG didn't come in so we can't start the diet this weekend as planned. Bummer we really hoping to start it. The lady said she would re - send me some stuff, it must have gotten lost in the mail. My cousin got her's right away , and the lady really seemed upset that it didn't arrive like it was suppose to.. Cole treated us to Olive Gardens today , then we went and saw Pirates of the Caribean.. We wanted to see Hangover 2 , but Jordan was with us, and that wouldn't be fair to him to take him home and us 3 go to the movies. Jeff and I will have to have a date night for that one.Well its time to go get ready .

Sam's graduation

Movie day..

Nothing really happpened yesterday, went and ran some errands. Nothing special. Temple finally text me. I guess she was looking for some pity , but I didn't give it to her. She was complaining to me about how hard it is on Cassie not getting to stay with her mom, and how could this have happened. I wanted to tell her how it happened , but I was nice and just let her vent. Then she complained about getting a job. She starts at Stripes the truck stop one. I really see her going back to Bill before school starts. She doesn't like to work. I sent her text that Kirkland's was hiring , but she didn't respond. At least at Kirkland's it would be normal type hours. Today I'm taking Jordan to the movies instead of the lake. Its to hot to go to the beach . No shade .. Lots of graduations this weekend. Sam's is Friday night, Cole said he hopes he gets off in time to shower. I told him he better go shower before he comes up there. That would be gross.. Kaci's graduation is Saturday. We got an invite in the mail, but no one has called us to say what time everyone's meeting to sit together. Also Mandy posted something about getting everything done for graduation. So I don't know if they are throwing her a party no one has called us. Things just haven't been the same between us for a very long time.

oh you know..

Nothing going on today. Jeff came home sick yesterday. He went and got his load from Sonora and then came home. He wasn't sick sick, just extremly tired. I think he just needed a lazy day. Anyway thats what sick days are for right. Last year he didn't even use 4 of his sick days, you lose' em if you don't use' em. If the drops get here by this weekend we are going to start the program, if not then we have to wait till next weekend. Since you have to pig out for two days. I'm so glad that I didn't go buy alot of groceries last Friday, cause I have to go get what we have to eat for the program. It says to clean out all the junk before you begin, luckily we are down to the bare minium so not much to clean out. And really what is left Jeff and I don't eat anyway. I'm just glad Jordan likes fruit and veggies so I don't have to make extra stuff for him. Really the only thing that I have to buy that I just bought is new bath soap and shampoo, you can't use any products with oil or creams while your on the program. And I have to buy water with a ph of 7.5. No sugar is allowed so my creamer has to go, but my cousin had me try what she uses in her coffee and I actually liked it, and it is sugar free. Just gonna have to buy some flavored coffee...Its funny cause now that I have ordered the HCG I'm seeing adds for it all over the web..

HCG

Well I called around today and several places had the stuff , but none were like what my cousin and her husband used. I don't know if there is a difference , but I saw how they looked so I want the exact same stuff. So I ordered ours today, it should be here in 3 to 4 days. On the web site it tells you exactly all about how it works and what to do after you stop taking the drops. I really feel that if this works for me and I  get the weight off, I will be able to maintain my weight after wards, cause thats what I'm basically doing now. I will be posting how it works out for us. Jeff is really excited about the two day gorging that you have to do before you begin the 500 calorie diet. I fall in the scared catorgorie that the web site talks about. I'm scared to pig out for two days straight. I really hope this works for us...

Fast weekend

Boy the weekend went by so fast. I had a really great time at my cousin's  house. It wasn't what I expected, all of her friends really were nice and very welcoming to us. Even the men made it a point to visit with me and make me feel welcome. Jeff had a really great time too. We will diffently go back again.. I did try the crawfish and loved it. There ugly little things, but if you saw them as little lobsters it was easier to eat them than seeing them as bugs. They tasted just like shrimp. A little messy and you really had to work for your food, like crab, but totally worth it. Jordan tried it too , and he loved it also. Jeff wouldn't even try it, but he doesn't like seafood...The trip only took about 3 and half hours so it went by fast. My cousin and her husband were so thin. She has always been skinny, but she was really skinny . Her husband wasn't fat just had some extra weight. So when we saw them we were like Wow, what the hell have yall been doing. So Sunday morning since it was just us , they told us what they were doing to lose weight. Jeff is so pumped up about it, we are going to do it too! He didn't want me to tell anyone about us doing this, just in case it for some reason doesn't work for us, but since we are all trying to lose weight I have to share with yall what I learned..
Have yall ever heard of HCG Weight Loss Program?  I have seen comercials on it , and my neighbor was on it, but I didn't think too much about it. For one my neighbor told me she spent $600 for two shots for a 30 day wieghtloss.  Well I don't shit money so I never gave it another thought. So when my cousin told me thats what they were on, I was like well shit that sucks for us. But they told me that they didn't do the shots they are doing the drops, and the drops are way cheaper. Its $60 for 21 days. Thats still seemed high to me not the money but its only 21 days, but my cousin's husband has already lost 24 pounds and my cousin 17 . You are on a very strict diet, like only 500 calories, but according to them and what my neighbor told me was these HCG drops is a hormone that makes your body use your stored up fat so your not hungry at all. My cousin said she had a hard time even eating cause she never was hungry, but you have to eat and drink 2 quarts of water or it wont work. Here is the web site http://www.homerowen.com/ . I'm going today to the health stores to see if they have it if they don't we are ordering it from that web site. Were doing this!!!

Love the rain!

Yes it is raining here. It woke me up about 6 this morning and I didn't even mind. I am glad its raining we need it so much. I do however wished it would have rained Monday - Thursday and leave the weekend sunny , but I guess beggers shouldn't be choosy. I have so much I have to do today. I have to get an oil change at Walmart and buy some groceries. I was thinking about getting my nails done again. I miss having my nails. My hands look so old now and with nails I think they looked better. Still thinking about it. I have never had them done at Walmart before, but since I will be there waiting on the oil change I thought now would be a good time. I'll let you know what I decide. I also have to go back to Sears and exchange a shirt for Jeff that I bought him for his bday. He likes his shirts so fricken big to cover his handgun. I hate that he wears a size to big it makes him look like he's hee-man.. Then I have to pay bills and do up all the laundry for our short trip. I really hope the weather is great tomorrow in Waco. I'm soo ready to get away even though its just for one day. I'm really excited to try crawfish, I've never had it before...Hope everyone has a great weekend!!!

had a great day

My day was so good up until about an hour ago. I went for my walk, went to the beach, weighed and discovered I lost 2.5 pounds from this morning. Like I told Laura, I think from now on I'm weighing after my workout. Then my mom calls and wants me to watch Glenn Beck. Well for those of you that don't know this, I don't want to know when the world is gonna end. I can't stop it from happening so why worry about things that I have no control over. Like our President , we know he needs to go, but we can't do a darn thing about him. So anyway I watch Glenn Beck cause my momma told me to, and yep I'm right we are doomed. I am a Christian, Jesus is my Lord and Savior and I am going to heaven I believe that with all my heart and sole, When the time comes for me to choose God and have my head cut off, or live the way I'm told I will choose God!! I really hope that all of us are raptured out of here first, cause according to Revelations its gonna be a fricken scary movie here on earth, and I don't like scary movie's.

update on Mandy

Great news.. Mandy's diagnoses has changed its not cancer yet. They have found it in the stage before it becomes cancer. So now she will get to carry the baby to term and then the doctor will scrape her out and fix her up. They also found out its a boy..

Not much

Sorry got nothing.. So nice to not have any drama going on.Yesterday my hubby turned 40 , I asked him if he felt 40 he said he actually felt about 46. YUK!!! I don't feel 40 , I feel like I'm 35. I sure hope I don't look 40. I did get a compliment from Sam's (Cole's girlfriend) Dad. When we went to that birthday party on the 7th. Apparently Sam's dad thinks all older women look old and wrinkly. Sam's mom does, but I think its the years of smoking that does that to your face. Any way her dad said I didn't look old and wrinkly. He told her this after we left the party. Still its a compliment. I haven't weighed yet this week, I'm trying to wait until Friday. For the past two days Jeff told me I look skinny thats nice to hear. I'm seriously having a Baileys problem. I am wanting a drink every night instead of drinking my slimfast. Its just so sweet and yummy. I would rather have that then slimfast. Plus it feels me up way better than slim fast or cereal..I know your suppose to stay away from alcohol when your trying to lose weight, but does one drink instead of food really hurt your diet? I didn't have one last night but I did Monday. What do yall think?

What a weekend

After Friday's stressful day I am very pleased to say we had an absolutely relaxing weekend. Jeff cooked steaks for Jordan's bday dinner instead of us going out to eat. Which was way cheaper for us. Actually I asked Jordan to choose. We could all go out to eat , but his gift would be less. Or we could eat here at the house and his gift would be more. He's 14 ofcourse he wanted the bigger gift. Altogether we still spent $100 on his gift and food, but I still think we got out cheaper. We were going to go to the movies too, but Jordan changed his mind. He is so much like his daddy, such a home body. Also very easy to please..We all just laid around and watched rented movies and ate all fricken weekend. I have come to realize that when I give myself a time limit on losing weight I totally fail. I wanted to lose 5 pounds for our swim party that is this weekend and I have not had any dedication what so ever to lose weight. I think there is something mental going on there. I am not going to weigh until Friday this week. I am going to go walk and try to eat healthy. I do not weigh what I want to, but I am starting to like the way I look. I would still like to lose 20 pounds , but I think if I just lost 10 more I would be very pleased. I don't want to be bony , I like a little flesh it makes the body look soft and not like a skeleton. Jeff wants me to stay right where I'm at. He is already complaining about my hip bone sticking out. I told him that only happens when I'm on my back ..HAAA !!!!

Oh , I forgot

I forgot to tell yall one more thing that happened yesterday. Okay so Temple can see her girls as long as someone supervises, well guess what? Bill's fucking lawyer calls me at 6 yesterday and wants to know if I will supervise all the visits. What a terrible spot to put me in. If I say yes that messes with our family time if I say no that means Temple doesn't get to see her kids. I told the ass hole that I had to talk to my husband and call him back. Jeff and I decided that for our best interest they would have to find someone else to supervise. This was really hard for me, but I do feel it was best for my family. Bill did call me today at about 4 , I didn't answer the phone. He left a really nice message telling me he understood why I said all that I said on the stand , and that he wasn't upset with me. For someone who hates drama I sure did get sucked into it.

Friday's court adventure....

So I had to go to court on Friday for Bill and Temple. I had to be there at 9 am. There was a lot of us, CPS, school principle,2cops,babysitter, neighbor of Bills, two friends, and Art and Nikki. We all got sworn in then were told to wait in the hall. The CPS,cops, principle got called in right away. The rest of us sat and waited. Finially at 11:30 we were released for lunch , be back at 1. So at 1 we all sat and waited for ever. Then at 4 I got called in. Yea me !  Not gonna sugar coat it, IT FUCKING SUCKED!!!! Here are two people that I have known for 25 years , that I love very much, that I have to tell all the secrets that they have told me. Both of them got bashed , they both have made stupid mistakes. Temple at least smiled at me and nodded, Bill never looked up at me. And he was the one that had me subpoena. I guess he thought he hasn't done anything wrong, but he was wrong. He is a fricken stalker and I told what he has done to her in the past. My testamony was the only one that was heard, all the other witnesses never got called. Bill won sole custody of the girls. Temple can see them 4 hours on Saturday and 4 hours on Sunday supervised only. I fucking hate Bill for taking the girls away from Temple like this. She is a great mom, and he is so obsessed with her ,he can't stand the fact that she has moved on. So he is trying to take away everyone from her so she would come back to him. He even told her Friday after the ruleing that she could still come home.Temple's dad came in from Houston to be with her in court, I told Temple that she should move to Houston with him. Get a job and then come back and fight for the girls. Now Art and Nikki get to have there say in court. The judge requested DNA testing . Art is wanting full custody of Jaylee. Temple called me last night to apoligize for all that I had to go through on the stand, I have not heard from Bill. Jeff said we are done with him. Any man that takes away children from a great mom is no friend of ours. What hurt Temple's case was she is dating a 23 year old that just got out of jail for punching a cop. He served 2 years. Temple should have kept the boyfriend on the down low. Her mistake. Also she has gone a little wild. But not when she had the kids. So fricken messed up. Its always okay for the guy , but never for the girl. So sad for her...

Shopping

Yesterday was very interesting. I was planning on going swim suit shopping and Temple pulls up. So she came with me. I haven't seen her since August. We have been talking here and there, alot the last few days, but its just not the same with her. I don't think I will ever feel the same way about her again. I still feel like she is not telling me something. She has always been like that with me. Her boyfriend that is the ex-con. That Bill lead me to believe went to jail for drugs. Didn't go to jail for drugs. He past out drunk in a bar and medics and police were called, when he woke up he freaked out having every one all over him , so he hit a cop. He served two years. She is really robbing the craddle with this guy. He is only 23 years old. She is just having fun with him, and needing the moral support. I still am upset with her about not getting a job. She is not going to even have a chance at getting the kids with out a job. I really don't know why she hasn't gotten one. Except for the fact that she is lazy and doesn't want to work..I really hope that she at least gets proper visitation rights. Okay so on to fun stuff. I did finially find a swim suit it kinda looks like the one I wanted from Victoria Secrets , but much much cheaper. It only took me all fricken day to find one. And I found it at Sears. Of all places. The old lady store is really trying to make a come back. There were alot of cute and hip things in the store. I do have to go back and exchange the bottoms today. I didn't try them on yesterday and they are too low cut for me. Today is Jordan's birthday he is 14. I can't believe he is so big. His birthday money is burning a hole in his pocket so he wants to go spend some of it today. So I will be running again today, which I have found keeps me from eating...I haven't weighed yet, really scared to cause this period has been rough on me. I have ate so much junk and really haven't exercised like I should be. So I have a question. I am not very stylest so I need some advice. Have yall seen all the cute bathing suit cover ups? Should I get one to wear over my swim suit even though I always wear shorts for my bottoms. My swim suit is a tankini. I really want to dress cute for the swim party that we are going to. I am probably going to be the fatest one there, so I at least want to look hip.. Thanks!

new update

Every thing went well with cps. They have determined there is no child abuse. Cassie learned it from tv. Bill just needs to be more careful of what he is watching when he thinks she is asleep. So that is great news. Bad news is I may have to go to court on Friday as a witness. I haven't received the court order yet, so I'm hoping Bill's lawyer has decided not to use me. The only thing that I can really witness to is Temple's suicide comments. And I don't see how that will help Bill, cause the only time Temple has contemplated suicide was at the death of her baby Bailey and when she found out that Bill had an affair with his niece (by marriage) . So really those are more of nervous breakdowns than real depression. So I guess we will see if Bill's lawyer wants to put me on the stand or not. I have not done well on my eating or exercising like I had planned. Its that time of the month and I have the blahs and the munchies...Jordan turns 14 on Thursday, I can't believe he is so big. We will probably go out to eat on Saturday. He did tell me that he doesn't want to just sit at home on his birthday so we may go to the movies or something. The clouds really depress me. Either rain or let the sun shine. I hate cloudy days. I'm so ready for our girls get away. I have been dreaming about it. Of course in my dreams I'm a perfect size 6 with cash to burn... two months , can't wait!!!

Here's what I know..

Sorry I haven't got back to all yall's questions. Tia , Cassie is 6 years old. Lacey , Art and Nikkie were life long friends of Bill and Temple. Bill and Art had been friends since they were 11 yrs old, now both 40. So Saturday morning I called Temple to find out what she decided to do about cps. She said that Julie called them. Since it was her daughter that Cassie was messing with and telling the stories too. Julie thought it would be best coming from her not Temple. Which is true. The cops and cps came to Julies house Friday night and Julie made a statement to them. Temple said that cps was going to get both girls Monday to talk to them. I am assuming at school, but don't know. Bill was never notified of anything. We got Cassie about 2 yesterday and she spent the whole day with us.She didn't act or say anything strange. I think its all bullshit that Julie is feeding Temple. Drama , Drama. Julie loves Drama just like Temple does. I hope its bullshit. But at least the proper people will question Cassie just to be sure. Thats all I know. Happy Mothers Day ! I hope yall's is great. Mine has been supper.. Jeff gave me a full body massage and cooked breakfast. He also put in my new dishwasher. Cole and Jeff both gave me a Kinect and the Zumba for it. Jordan did the dishes. We are about to cook bugers on the grill and lay out by the pool. Great Day!!

So messed up

Today is going to be busy for us. we are not used to having plans and we actually have something to do every single weekend for the next 4 weeks. Jeff's mom called him yesterday wanting to get together today for lunch. He really hurt her feelings when he told her no we couldn't make it. And that next time give us some notice, cause we have stuff to do. We have not seen her since January. Very sad seeing how she just lives in Ballinger. Jeff is really upset with her. Now that she is single she hardly calls or even bothers to come over. She will come into town and do stuff with Mandy, but doesn't come here. Anyways, I told Jeff that if he wanted to eat with his mom that it was fine with me. His call not mine. So he had a change of heart and we are going to lunch with her. We are also suppose to be getting Cassie for the day today, she will be going to the birthday party with us. I haven't seen her since I babysat that one time. I tell you Bill and Temple's divorce is really getting messy. I don't know if what either one of them are telling me is the truth. Bill called me Wed. night and told me a bunch of stuff about Temple and that he got a restraining order against her. So now she can only see Cassie at lunch during school, or supervised. She hasn't seen the baby at all. She is suppose to get them for a little while on Mothers day, supervised. Then Thurs. morning Temple calls me. I have not talked to her in 6 weeks. I find it very ironic how he calls after 4 weeks and she calls after 6. Any way she is telling me about how awful her life is not seeing the kids. She still hasn't gotten a job or dumped the ex-con boyfriend. That tells me she really isn't trying to get her kids. So last night she calls me freaking out about how she has heard from a neighbor (Julie) That while Cassie was over playing with her little girl that Cassie started playing with herself and Julie's daughter. Then Julie proceeds to tell Temple that Cassie told her daughter that her daddy taught her. So now Temple wants to call CPS on Bill. So I'm going to get her today and just see what is going on. I honestly don't believe its Bill. If its true that Cassie is getting messed with I think its from Julie's teenage son or one of her daughters. The reason I think this is because when Bill and Temple first met Julie her 15 year old son was sent away because he got caught messing with his younger sister. Either the son is back or the sister that got messed with is messing with Cassie. This is no game to be played, if something is going on with Cassie then justice needs to be done, but if this is just some pimped up drama that Julie and Temple have conjured up to get Cassie away from Bill that is just sick and wrong. Also , yes there is more.. Now Art and Nikki have gotten there own lawyer and they are trying to get full custody of the baby. They are doing this because Bill won't let Art see the baby. What a mess. Jeff is worried that Temple is sucking me in to all her drama. I do not want any part of it. I do want to make sure Cassie is ok though. After my visit with Cassie today maybe I will no something.

Yuk Bills

Yesterday's park visit didn't last very long. We stayed about an hour. The bigger boys had a whip and were learning how to use it. Jordan just didn't fit in. I felt very sad for him so I made up an excuse and we left. After I cheated with my nacho's I went and walked at the koa. I felt too guilty . I measured and weighed this morning. I have lost another 6 inches across my whole body, but still weigh the same. I have weighed the same now for 2 weeks. Not what I was hoping for. I'm thinking about reducing my calorie intake again, but I know I would be hungry, cause I'm fricken hungry now. So I probably wouldn't stick to it. I'm about to start and I am craving all kinds of food. I won't tell you cause I don't want you to suffer. Today is payday so I have to pay bills and buy groceries. Yuk! I also have to buy to birthday gifts for tomorrows party. Plus next week Jordan's bday and Sam's bday(both on same day) Not to mention Sunday is Mothers day so I am off to get my gift today as well. I'm thinking perfume. I am being bad this year, I didn't send Vonda(Jeff's mom) a card for Mothers day. I am just tired of doing all the gift giving in this relationship. Its his mother not mine. I love her , but I guess I just feel so frustrated that Jeff never gives me gifts, so why should I go out of my way to get gifts from him to others. Yep the pms again.

Park

Today we are going to meet with the other homeschoolers. Jordan doesn't want to go. The boy hasn't been out of the house since Sunday he is going to the fricken park. I'm kinda looking forward to female adult conversasion too. These mom's are different from me, so its always interesting. They like all have 8 to 11 kids so they grow there own food or buy a whole cow. One mom even has her own walk in fridge. There is one mom that only has 3 kids, but she even makes her own pasta. Sorry I just don't care about making pasta when I can poor it from a box. Buts that me, I have always hated cooking. I blame it on my mom. Every Thanksgiven or Christmas was so huge with lots of food , we had to help cook. Maybe I wouldn't mind cooking if I didn't have to do the clean up. Probably not.. We have to go to the store today. I have put it off long enough. I really hate going to WalMart , I might try Target today. Rondi (my sister-in-law) told me Target carrys alot of cold items now. And since I just want to get enough to get by for a few days Target might work out great. Then again what if I go to Target and they don't have what I need then I still have to go to WalMart. That would suck. Man I'm grouchy, I know why though its almost time. Yep pms...

Nothing Special

I have the blues again. Maybe because we were gone all weekend, I just don't want to do anything, or go any where. I stayed home and exercised yesterday, and didn't go to the store like I needed to. I have to go today, the stupid fish are out of food again. I swear they cost more than the 3 dogs do in the food area.There is something wrong with the filter system and the tank is gross again. Jeff doesn't know what to do. It looks like dust bunnys floating in the water. Big clumps of dust bunnys. Not to mention it stinks. He is gonna mess with it again this weekend and try to figure out whats wrong. Jordan has had a very smart mouth lately. When I tell him to do something like take out the trash , he will respond like " its fine" or just a straight up "no" . He's always laughing saying he's just joking and he does the job, but I'm tired of it. Yesterday was the last straw for me. If he smart mouths me one more time I'm taking away things. We had a long talk and I explained to him that  what he is doing is disrespectful not funny. The homeschool group is meeting tomorrow at the park, and we haven't gone in months. I think we are gonna go. Jordan never wants to go cause there is only one kid close to his age and he is in to sports. Jordan isn't, so unless you want to toss a ball around there isn't much for the big kids to do. Well thats about it.

Not much to say.

Yesterday I was so busy getting this house back in shape and doing up the laundry. It really didn't go as planned. I cleaned house and did all the laundry on Thurs. before we left. That way on Mon. all I would have to do is laundry from our trip and be lazy. Well with the rain and 3 dogs in the house my plan did not work. I had to sweep and mop and vacuum. Then while I was at it I thought what the hell, so I went ahead and dusted. Cause with 3 dogs you do that alot. Then with 4 loads of laundry I was busy all day. I didn't exercise , but I never sat down till 3 when I got my haircut. So I feel pretty sure I got exercise for the day. I weighed in this morning and I didn't gain or lose. I'm still the same. Today I'm going to exercise. I'm really tring to lose 2 pounds a week. I need to go to the store we are out of food, but I hate going. We have something to do for the next four Saturday's. Very different for us to have plans. Part of me wants to be a bitch on Saturday the 28th and not go to a certain graduation. I know thats mean, but why should we go. They didn't come to my son's. Jeff said two wrongs don't make a right, but I say it sure would feel good though.

I'm home..

I had such a great weekend with my mom. Lawrence and Rondi  came for the weekend too. So this was the first time in 3 years that all of us kids were at my mom's together. Lawrence hasn't been there to see mom in 2 years. Calob lives there so he see's mom all the time. Cole and Sam even drove up Saturday morning cause he didn't have to work. His first road trip. He did great.. Jeff's ribs and chicken were fantastic. Even my grumpy step dad ( Tony) liked them. Tony was even nice and socialable the whole weekend. Strange! I ate and drank too much, but so worth it. I haven't seen Rondi since we all went to Vegas and she said Holy Cow you look so skinny. I don't , but hey I  will take the compliment. I can't believe its May. I really need to stop cheating and get back to extreme exercising so I will be ready for summer. Okay I have to get off here I got tons of laundry to do.