I'm gonna try

Not much going on here , same old thing.. I'm going to start exercising when Jeff leaves for work. That will be at 5:30. I don't like exercising in the evening , but its the only time I can.. I will begin tomorrow because Jeff is off today.. Hopefully my body can take it.. I really hate the night shift.. I feel so trapped.. I can't go in my room, I can't vacuum, I can't get dressed and go anywhere.. Not like I did, but you know how it is when you can't do something thats when you want to do it.. Well thats how I feel right now..I know boo hoo hoo.. Okay I'm shuting up.. I'm thankful he has a job..

I get my haircut today and thankfully Jeff is off so I told him I will be coming into our room at 2 to shower and get ready... See the night shift sucks even though he was off yesterday he slept until 3:30. Okay moving on

Well I really don't have anything else to bitch about.. yes I am pmsing

Hope everyone has a great day.

Not true

Well I was wrong about the whole 10 hour break between shifts, apperntaly oil field is only an 8 hour break.. Which is Bullshit if you ask me.. All truck drivers need a 10 hour break. He did not like his first night of work.. I think his second night was better , he got home at 6..
Big surprise my dad is taking Jordan and Hayden to breakfast this morning.. This is a first..
Have not exercised in two days.. I really don't know how to work it out.. With Jeff sleeping I can't shower until he gets up and I really don't want to sit around all sweaty and stinky till he's up.. I've been taking my shower before bed. I could use the boys , but then I would have to move all my stuff into there bathroom , then on Jeff's days off move it back.. My mom suggested I exercise at night, but I have always been a morning person exerciser.. I'm at a loss right now, but I will work something out.. I can't not exercise.. I will try to exercise when he leaves for work then shower.. UGH!! I hate the night shift.. All this whinney over no time to exercise really makes me sound like a selfish bitch.. He is the one that is working nights.. Okay now I feel really bad.. I'm a bad bad selfish bitch.

Moving on, Jeff's check was enough to make the house payment . so we don't have to borrow from Cole. He is going to pay the cable bill for us.. He has been such a big help. Once we get back on our feet I need to do something really nice for him..

Okay thats all I got. Hope everyone has a great day..

Oh one more thing I read this really great fanfiction story it had me laughing so hard.. Supper cute , and I'm a sucker for happy endings.  www.  m.fanfiction.net/s/5062719/1/ 

8:14 in the morning and Jeff is still at work.. So this means that he will not be going in at 6 tonight.. They have to have a 10 hour break in between shifts so now for the rest of Jeff's work week he will be going in late and getting home late.. This company is also in Mansfield and Jeff is already talking about talking to them about transfering up there.. I told him he needs to wait and lets see how this pay is going to work for us. Besides we have no money to move on.. Plus I'm so tired of the moving rollar coaster.. I just think we need paychecks rolling in for a while and get back on our feet before he brings up moving to Mansfield.. He didn't like my input, but agreed..
Yesterday I forgot to grab my shoes as I was leaving the bedroom, so I didn't exercise because I didn't want to go back in the room.. Today I will.. Last night I set everything out to grab on my way out of the bedroom.. Looks like for this week that won't be an issue cause he won't be home when I get up..Haa
Well thats it for now.. Hope eveyone has a great day..

IRS

Stupid FUCKING IRS!!!!!!!!!       We won't be getting our $900 they applied it to what we owed.. We kind of thought they would but it just really sucks to have it confirmed.. Okay I'm better now..

Working on the Night Shift

Jeff got home early yesterday like right at 6.. Then he told me he was off Wednesday and begins his own night shift Thursday.. So no more training he is on his own.. Which means he will work his 4 days on and that puts him working through his first weekend in 5 years.. going to be a big adjustment for us.. Also the whole sleeping during the day.. Not only is it going to be hard for him, but really suck for me.. I hate using the boys bathroom and I won't be able to shower until he gets up.. I will not shower in the boys bathroom its going to be rough enough peeing every hour.. yes I pee that much.. I know tmi.. okay moving on.. So today I am going to scrub boys bathroom usualy Jordan does it, but if I'm going to be using it I want it super clean..He does a well enough job , but I just need to do it myself..Next on my list today is to find some kind of window covering to darken our bedroom.. I used tin foil when he worked for Town & Country but our windows were in the back of the house then, now they are up front and I just don't want foil windows up front.. I may have to do that anyway.. I can't go buy any of those black out curtains, not to mention curtains are expensive anyway , but those are really high.. Plus I can't spend any money so I have to be creative with what we have here at home.. Hopefully he will be pulled from the night shift soon.. One driver told him he was only on the night shift for 3 weeks.. So I will keep my fingers crossed..Thats it .. Hope everyone has a great day!

Still got nothing.. Jeff's job is super easy he is really enjoying it for now.. Yesterday he just sat in the yard and talked to other drivers until 3:30 then took one load of sand to where ever and then came back and came home by 7:30.. He does a lot of sitting and waiting , but at least he is getting paid for it.. I worry that he will get bored of the sitting he is not used to that.. I'm worried that the company will let people go if they have too many sitting around, but Jeff said no they are still hiring.. I don't understand why , but oh well he has a job..I'm going to Sam's today.. yuk!!   I hate going to the store.. I'm really wanting some money to start rolling in I'm in the shopping mood.. I want new summer dresses.. I have a few from last summer , but I want new ones.. I like wearing dresses instead of shorts.. My legs are yuky age has played a nasty on them.. Its sad really I used to have great legs.. Too many years of being over weight I guess.. I did exercise yesterday , but for some reason I was hungry so I ate more yesterday than I normally would.. I will do better today..I still haven't weighed myself its actually not so bad not doing it this go around.. Once I feel like my clothes are fitting me differently I will weigh.. Okay I jibber jabbered enough.. Hope everyone has a great day!

dull weekend

Well I really have nothing to report.. We didn't do anything all weekend long.. The big downer came Saturday night when we went to bed. Jeff looked at his phone and there was a text from Mandy at about 5 that afternoon inviting us over for bbq. That would have been nice to  just go visit other adults. From now on she is to send the text to my phone cause Jeff never has his phone on him while at home..
I ate and drank all weekend long. *sigh*   I don't know what it is about the weekend that my mind thinks its okay to totaly screw up everything I worked so hard for all week long..Any who back to eating right.. Okay thats about it .. I hope everyone has a great day..

Surprise Text

Guess who sent me a text yesterday... Temple, yep thats right.. she wanted to let me know that her divorce finially went through as of yesterday and she took her maiden name back.. That has to be the longest dam divorce I have ever seen.. It took a year and half.. and of course she got nothing, but that really is her fault. We didn't talk much just that she was divorced and that the girls were good.. Today is her baby's death date and usualy in years past I would always talk to her to let her know that I was here for her. However , I'm struggling today because I want to say something to her, but sorry to say I don't want to be here for her.. We just aren't the same anymore. She really is a stranger to me so I don't know if I should text her and say something to the effect that I remember today or not.. She told me last night that she now has anxiety disorder. She has always been on depression medication so this anxiety thing is new..
I was a bad girl didn't exercise yesterday.. I did eat right though.. I'm just in a funk..
My dad called me last night and invited us out to eat for my step moms bday this weekend and we had to turn him down.. No money coming in and all that.. Jeff thinks he will get a paycheck on the 27 but it will only be for 4 days.. I really hope the IRS lets us have our $900 so we can make the house payment and pay some bills with it.. If not Cole is going to loan the money to us.. Cole is also stepping up and buying groceries this weekend for us.. At first I felt kinda of ashamed to have my son buy us food, but he told me 'mom I don't pay rent and I make good money with little bills let me do this' . He is turning out to be quite the man..
Hope everyone has a great weekend.. Jeff will be off Saturday and Sunday and starts back Monday at 6 am driving with trainer for 4 days then off two and then I think he will be on his own..

I have only execised Sunday and Monday.. I have the blahs for some reason.. I am really going to force myself to exercise today.. I don't know why I do this . I can go for weeks exercising and it feels great then I get into a funk and don't want to do it.. Jeff worked late yesterday , he didn't get in until 10:15.. He worked 15 hours..Long ass day.. A lot of sittting and waiting, but at least he gets paid for it. Not much else going on... Oh one biggie is I have cooked 4 days in a row.. I hate fricken cooking!!!! 
Hope everyone has a great day!

Lazy

I was a bad girl yesterday.. All I did was lay around and read.. no exercise.. I did eat right though..Jeff got home around 6:30 and so far day one was good.. He said for the most part its pretty boring, a lot of sitting and waiting.. Sorry got nothing else. Hope everyone has a great day!

New job

Jeff passed his physical yesterday.. The doc. said his blood pressure was a little high , but passed YEA!!Jeff went to work this morning.. He is just in training right now.. I really hope he doesn't have to train for long.. less pay.. Multi-chem did send us a check for Jeff's unused vacation time. They prorated it from the first of the year so it was only $500 , but hey its better than nothing..He decided not to cash in his 401k cause it can be rolled over to his new job in 90 days
Well thats it for now, hope everyone has a great day!

My body is so old

I had a real good time Friday night.. Its nice to get away and just laugh.. However, I did not realize I had drank as much as I did and by not getting the sleep this old lady needed I was a fricken zombie Saturday.. I ended up laying down for a nap around 1 and slept for about an hour.. Still felt like a freight train ran over me...

Sam broke up with Cole Saturday night... This is the third time now.. I really hope he keeps his word and doesn't take her back..Cole seems to be okay.. well better than last time anyway..

Jeff went in for his physical this morning.. He has been going without caffiene and salt all weekend long and his blood pressure has been on the slight normal high side.. This morning he took it right before he left to go to the doctors and its high.. So funny how some people have the white coat syndrome.. I told him maybe it will be a really hot nurse and he can focus on her boobs.. He said that would make it worse. oops my bad!!

I have to run some errands today.. Hope everyone has a great day..

sick

I felt like crap yesterday.. my head hurt so bad and that made me sick at my stomach. It was a rough day.. I do feel much better today. I'm looking forward to Friday. It will be nice to hang out with everyone.. Hopefully Jeff will have a job by then.. Chalk Mountain seems promising..
Did not exercise yesterday and probably won't the rest of the week.. Flo is visiting.. I can't stand to exercise during the visits.. So come Sunday I will be hurting when I exrcise..

Not much else going on here..

Hope everyone has a great day!

UGH !

In spite of Jeff getting fired friday we had a nice weekend.. This is the first time he has ever been fired , so by Saturday night Jeff was a mess.. I have never ever seen him this way.. He has always been so calm.. It really bothered him that they fired him for standing up for us.. Granted he did lose his temper so the way he went about it was wrong.. Like I told him though, he never loses his temper so there must be a reason.. I have faith that God will lead him into the right direction..He goes in this morning to drop off his shirts and to find out about his last pay check and 401k money..There isn't but $500 in it so we will be taking that now..
The job hunting begins today..
If I come Friday I will tell everyone what happened.. Its too much to write, but Jeff was in the right, except for his temper..
I ate way too much candy and ate way too much junk food over the weekend.. I did exercise yesterday and plan on doing it all week.. Jeff said he can see a difference in my body, so I know I'm losing inches. Oh one big thing that made my day saturday was , a couple of weeks ago I gave Sam a pair of shorts that were too small for me , I told her if they didn't fit her I wanted them back because they would be a goal pair.. I haven't seen her wear them . So I asked her if they fit and she hadn't even tried them on.. So she went to try them on and they didn't fit her.. I thought  I'm gonna try them on to see how much more I need to lose.. Guess what ... THEY FIT!!!   They were a little tight in my ass thats it.. I just need to lose about 5 more pounds and they would be perfect.. I am very pleased about this.. Of course after all the shit I ate this weekend I am increasing my workout by 10 more minutes..

Hope everyone has a great day..

Got nothing to say..

Looking forward to our girls sleepover

Sometime today I will mess with the instagram Laura had me download, but right now I need to pay bills.. YUK!!

Hope everyone has a great weekend.. Happy Easter!

New Book

I actualy bought a book for my kindle fire.. Since I have had it I have only been ready fanfiction off of it, but I heard through my wonderful Rob blog that one of the fanfiction authors has had 3 books published. so I went to amazon and found the first book and bought it.. I'm almost done with it so I will be getting the next one soon.. Its a very good book ;)
Nothing going on here. Back to exercising and my body is hurting.. 3 day break not good. I need to go to Sams and Walmart , but I hate spending the money..I like to keep it in the bank.
Hope everyone has a great day..

Our weekend visit

I had so much fun this past weekend.. I really like my new aunt.. She is only 28 , but she is great and can handle my uncle David really well.. He is a 52 year old kid.. This was Gemma's first time to shoot a gun. It is illegal to own guns in Australia.. My mother is the heavy set woman.. The two men together are my uncles.. The one in the cap is the one who was strung out on drugs at my grandmothers funeral and jumped in the whole.. After a day shooting guns we all went to this BBQ place that has a live band and it BYOB. It was a blast  , at one point a few of us women were dragged off the dance floor to sing on stage.. Gemma and I were the first ones chosen.. It was fun. We sang Mustang Salley..Today I have to run some errands and get my hair cut.. I am not exercising today , but will start back up tomorrow.. I did really good on my eating over the weekend, but drank way to much beer..
Jordan is a natural with a gun.. He looks so good in this picture. He is finially getting taller so his baby fat is almost gone.. He is about 5'5 and loving that he is almost as tall as me..
Hope everyone has a great day..