what a weekend..

Well I can honestly say, I had a good weekend. We did something every day. It was nice. Jeff spent time with us instead of the computer. Saturday went to the eye doc. good news , my vision is the same. Then we cooked out. Jeff cooked the best leg quarters he has ever cooked. He made a homemade bq sauce, and it was awesome. He wants to open a bq place so bad. I told him he should start with maybe catering first. Any hooo, the food was fantastic. Then Sunday we  had Haydens bday party at Bonzi Garden. I was so proud of myself. I know how fatening the food is so I didn't have any rice. Just chicken and veggies. Of course its still loaded with butter. The cook called it Japineese ice cream. He was so funny. He called the soy sauce Japineese cola. Then my little brother Calob and his wife came over for a bit. Married life is showing on her. She has probably gained about 30 pounds. I am now smaller than her.. I know thats bad, but hey she is 23 and I am 40 it feels gooooood..Course I have been working my ass off. I sent my mom a picture of me to see if she could tell that I am losing , and she said she could. So now thats two people that can see it. Its nice to start seeing the light at this very long tunnel...

Family night..

We went to the carnival last night insteed of today. We went because all of my family was going. There was about 12 of us, so it was a lot of fun. Jordan is such a cheap kid. He didn't want to ride anything or play any games. I told him he better not complain about being bored cause he had his chance to have fun and didn't take it. He had a good time just hanging with us (I think). After wards we went to get ice cream. Big mistake today. My system is pissed at me. The ice cream is the first junk food I have had in a little more than 3 weeks. My brother Calob and his wife are in town his grandmother died so they are here for the funeral on Monday. I am hoping to visit with him before he has to leave, but I know his time is going to be with that side of the family. His wife cracks me up, she is really young and sometimes very stupid. The things young couples fight about is such a waiste of time.  Getting new eye's today Yay!!  Probably gonna make an appointment for Jordan cause last night we discovered he can't see. We were watching the bird show , and Jordan couldn't see the skates that the bird was using. So then we started asking him can you read this, can you read that. Nope! So it looks like he has my bad eye site too.

The Talk..

Jeff got home about 4 yesterday which was nice. We watched tv a bit together which was nice. We rarely do that these days. Then he went and got on the computer. Which I don't have a problem with , cause he wasn't home the night before and I know he wants to mess around a bit on it. The problem I have is he stays on it for hours at a time. Leaving me to be alone. When I say hours I really do mean hours like 6 to 7 with out ever coming out of the computer room. Well last night he was only on the computer for just a couple of hours. Me and Jordan were watching A. I. and he came to join us. I haven't had a beer in a monthe so I was enjoying my second when he sat down next to me(shocker). He begins to tell me that he feels me pulling away from him. Wow! Me pulling away from him? Nope I am not taking the blame for this one. So I lay into him about the time he spends on the computer. I also tell him how Wednesday when he came home after being gone since Monday how he just kisses me then goes straight to the computer. No visiting no hugging just a quick smack. He begins to realize what I am telling him and tells me he is sorry . He just gets so wrapped up in this reloader that he wants so he has been doing research. But now he knows what he wants and he wont be on the computer as much. So we both agree to spend more time together. We shall see!

My body is hurting:(

Okay , I am really hurting. My legs hurt so bad last night I had a tough time falling asleep. I even took pain med. I almost took the hard stuff, but I don't like being knocked out when Jeff isn't home. Today is yoga again, maybe all the stretching will help my legs. Jordan did not go with me to Zumba last night. Jeff said I should make him, but hello if he doesn't want to do it he will just stand there. I'm not waisting my money for him to stand there. Jordan told me he will try the yoga again. Not much going on here. I really don't have an exciting life. Don't get me wrong I love my life, I just need some fun.

Wine?

Well I have ordered my first wine. My cousin sells wine and she recommended two for us to try. I don't know much about wine, but have wanted to try it. So in about 5 to 7 days my wine will be here. I have to go out and buy a cork screw . I hear 1 glass of red wine everyday is good for you. Well we just see how it goes. Zumba was a blast last night, I am really enjoying it and making some friends. There was a 11 year old boy there last night and he did great. I want Jordan to come with me. He really needs the exercise. My aunt Cindy and Lacey came last night. Lacey gave me a compliment. She said I was really moving and shaking it. She said I looked good !!  Hey I will take that from a 16year old any day. I have gotten more comfortable with shaking my fat. I figured the more I shake it maybe I can shake it off...I think its working.. If only my husband would pay as much attention to me as he does the computer he might notice...

Boring day..

Yesterday was such a boring day. I exercised and sat on the couch and read. I had cooked enough on Sunday that we just ate leftovers for Monday. Today I have to cook. I am thinking grilled chicken.. Jordan is no longer doing the yoga with me. He really had a hard time with all the stretching and standing still. So I am going to get him to do my toning video with me. As soon as I get him a toning cord. Finially made an eye appointment for Saturday. I am on my last pair of contacts and I need new eyes again. I am tilting things again to see small print. I haven't heard of any drama from Bill and Temple since he told me he put camera's in her apartment and I told him that was stalking and illegal. How the hell did he get camera's in her home is my question. What a freak. He is an obsessed freak. I called Temple to tell her so she could look for them and call police. Haven't heard anything since. Don't really want to. I put the scales away. I am not going to weigh myself until the pants I am wearing are to big. I am focusing on toning and reshaping. I saw an infomercial on a new work out video I want to try. Its called Brazil Butt Lift. He works with the super models for there butts. Lord know I need a butt lift. I wonder if they have a boob lift?

In a mood !!!

I am so grouchy.. I know this because Jeff and Jordan both told me so... I think it is lack of sleep. For some reason I haven't been sleeping all night and I am tired. I was sleeping so good and then all this week notta. Maybe its all the extra exercising I am doing. But you would think that would make me sleep. I am going to dig out my themometor and put it by my bedside so starting tomorrow I will take my temp. before getting out of bed for a week. This is to check my thyroid. Instead of going to the carnival we went to see a movie. 'Just Go With It'  such a funny movie. Jordan and I laughed so hard. Jeff is not much of a laugher..blahh !!!  My heart got to racing during the opening when they show other movies coming soon. There he was on big screen , looking so fricken beautiful. Wow just remembering it makes my heart beat faster. Sorry I got it really bad. I am such a dork to have a crush on an actor. I can't wait to see his movie. He is so HOT! Not sure when its coming out , the word around my favorite stalking site said sometime in April. The theater just said Coming Soon !

Hello weekend...

So glad that its Saturday, not because we have anything exciting to do today, it just means Jeff is home. I like it when he is home. Call me crazy but after 16 years (soon to be) I still like him. (most of the time) For some ungodly reason I want to go out to the fairgrounds today. Maybe because theres nothing ever to do and something has come to town. I just like walking around and looking at everything. My boys never liked riding the rides so we hardly ever go. Just have the usual errands today. I have decided I am not going to weigh myself. I may have to remove the scales from this house to keep from doing it. Its just I am feeling better about my body. I know I am not some thin , skinny girl . I am a 40 year old woman. My body will never look like it did before. So I am trying to be happy with my curves. I do feel toned in some places and I am pinching less fat. So I know there are changes happening in my body. If I weigh myself and I still weigh the same all these good feelings will come crushing down. My favorite male actor is about to come out with a new movie. Already read the book three times , I can't wait to see the movie!!! He is so fricken beautiful!!!

Hmm?

Kinda liking this blog site. It seems to give you more options than tumblr, but I still haven't messed with it to see what all I can do. I get so scared I am gonna mess up the computer. I haven't been sleeping very good. I keep waking up to a dark image of a man in my door way. This always happens when I start to feel good about the way my body is starting to look. I have noticed my legs are really sliming down. Now if my belly would just follow along. I haven't weighed yet this week. I am waiting until my monthly visitor leaves. I have done really good on my calorie intake and all my exercising. I haven't skipped at all. Today Jordan and I will do yoga for the second time. He was already complaining last night. I have to start getting him involved in exercising he has really put on the weight since he is home all day. We still want to see about putting him in martial arts. I really should go down there and check it out. I need to make a mental note to do that next week.

First One..

Well this is my first blog on this site. I will try it out and see which one I like the best. My body hurts from all the added exercising I am doing. It better pay off. Today we are suppose to go to the park to meet with other homeschooled kids. Right now not feeling it..Not really much going on , just the way I like it.