weird

So a very strange thing happened to me today. Jeff left this morning at 4 . I could not go back to sleep so I started reading some fanfiction.. I was up when Cole left at 6:15 I should have just got out of bed then , but I was too comfy.. Well I fell back to sleep because the next thing I knew it was 10:20. Yuk I hate wasting my morning like that.. Well when I got up out of bed I saw a boot impression at the foot of my bed. I stepped over it thinking hmm thats weird cause Jeff and Cole both leave there shoes at the front door outside. So while I was peeing I thought maybe it was Jeff with a different shoe on. I came back and looked at the foot print. yes just one foot print. I just blew off thinking nothing more about it. Well through out the morning I eventually walked on the foot print. When Jeff and Cole got home I asked them about there shoes and neither one of them had been the room with boots on.. So now they both think I imagined the whole thing. I know I didn't. I know I saw a boot print in the carpet. So now I'm a little freaked out cause no one believes me. Also if there really was someone in my room why didn't the dogs bark and why only one boot print?

Okay on a plus side I was really starting to think I have a drinking problem. Well I talked to my mom today about it getting her opinion on the matter. I really like drinking now and she said as long as I wasn't waking up wanting to drink all was good. So whew in the clear!

what to do today

Nothing going on just another quiet day around here. Gonna do some laundry and have to go to the pet store to get dog food. I might go next door to Maurice's and check out some jeans.. I looked at Dillards the other day passing through and mostly all the ones I saw had bling on the pockets.. Like I said I was just passing through so hopefully I can find jeans without the stuff on the pockets. I'm 40 not 20 , I don't think bling on my ass would look right.. Speaking of ass the other day Jeff and I were watching some talk show and it was talking about Spanx and how they have a piece with ass pading.. We both laughed at the time , but I looked that shit up on there web site. I need all the help I can get. I'm tired of having a bruised tale bone from sitting.. Anyway $89 was how much that cost.. Sorry , but I don't think I want an ass that bad..What really makes me so made about Spanx is back in the 80's when I wore boot jeans I used to cut the feet out of my panty hose and where them under my jeans for the smooth firm look.. I still wear them under some of my garmets sometimes.. Now Spanx is making a killing off practically the same thing.

I did exercise yesterday on the eleptical. I then watched one of the exercise video's from Netflix to see if I liked it or not. It looked pretty fun. Some of the steps I used to do in Zumba. So today I might give it a try..

Hell Froze Over!

I received a child support check today.. Hopefully they will keep coming..

Ooops !!

No word yet on the previous owners buying the house. My realitor did tell me that they hadn't looked at the house before they offered the $10,000 less. So this was there first time to see what all we had done to the place.. So now they know we will not be coming off our list price.. This is what we have done in the 4 years ;  1 whole side new privacy fence, installed new side gate that didn't exsist before, cut trees down, french drain (because the den flooded the first month we lived here), paint almost whole inside house, remodeled both bathrooms from top to bottom, tore out kitchen cabinets to open it up to dinning room, put in dishwasher, new stainless sink, RO system, 3 new faucets, hot water heater, 3 sets wood blinds, repaired very dangerous electrical issue in kitchen, repaired plumbing , 2 new toilets (golf ball flushers) not cheap, ceiling fans in every room, new kitchen light fixtures, tore out wall in kitchen for bigger fridge to fit, new glass door, dogie door, I think thats it..

Haven't exercised at all this week, but I will start today..Monday we had the people come, then I just read all day. Yesterday I read and got my nails done. I'm so hung up on the fanfiction I'm reading.. Her sex scenes are really really good. Course on the down side of that is Jeff isn't home. Haa. Last night he was home , but he was too tired. I really hate it when he doesn't want me.. Makes me feel very fat and ugly. I have had an epofony , I think one other reason why I drink by myself is because I feel sexy when I drink.. I like the way it makes me feel. I'm not thinking oh I'm fat and ugly. Its like it brings out this skinny , pretty person in my head.. I know I'm weird.. I just let my gaurd down and since I'm usually home by myself (well except Jordan) I really enjoy it.. But I'm starting to see a problem and it scares me a bit..One I can't lose weight if I keep drinking, two I find myself watching the clock for an approiate time to start drinking..Its usually around 6 and not every night just when I'm feeling lonely..And this lonliness happens even when Jeff is home.. Okay enough boohoo  SORRY!

Temple sent me a text last night asking me to go to Spams with her. I told her I couldn't cause Jeff was home. She didn't text me back.. Honestly if I'm going to a bar I want to go to dance not sit in some  slum bar..

Jeff has 8 days of vacation he has to take before the first of the year. We were trying to save them for when we move, but he was told he has to put in for the days off now cause only two drivers out at a time. So last night we just picked randome days off. If we sell the house he will just have to go to his boss and explain he needs to switch days off.

Tia I saw on facebook that your worried about Jason's school. Last year when I pulled Jordan out of school we had to test him to see where he needed to be(grade level wise)  there was a free program on the Switched on Schoolhouse web site that we used. You should try it out. He may be above where he is at that is why he is so bored..

Hello there, sorry I haven't been on for a while.. I got caught up reading again.. I have a twitter friend that writes fanfiction and she's pretty good.. Sometimes the words she inserts into her writting are not the correct words, but english is not her first language ( she's from Indonesia) so I'm sure that is pretty difficult for her at times.. You know kinda like how wet backs say ' get off the car'  or my favorite ' I barely got off the car'  when really what is suppose to be said is 'get out of the car' 

Jeff got his smoker finished enough to cook on. So yesterday he cooked us ribs.. They were sooo good.

The people that made an offer on the house last week came to look at it again this morning. It was the ones we bought the house from.. Too funny.. There realitor didn't show up , but I let them come on in since I knew who they were.. While in the house my realitor called and said they needed to reschedule cause the other realitor couldn't make it. I told her they were already in the house, because I knew who they were.. The people really liked all the improvements done to the house.. Her parents live across the street. So maybe they will buy it back...

I got a whole bunch of exercise video's off netflix over the weekend and will begin one of them tomorrow.. I have decided to not go out to the koa for a while. I'm just going to exercise here at the house. Its just easier to stay home..

Cole gave me money to get my nails done so I have an appointment tomorrow for that.. I got new running shoes on Saturday. Nothing else has been going on..

ugh!

So yesterday was a very non-diet day.  I'm about to start and I was craving everything.. First mistake is I went and got donuts after koa. Second mistake was I ate them for breakfast. Third mistake I ate them for supper..

I am exercising here at the house this morning and tomorrow.. Trying to change things up a bit..I wish my body would hurry up and catch up cause I feel so exhausted. I slept till 9 this morning. Jeff and I were joking about how our mornings have changed. He used to be the one to sleep in and now its me. I really don't like sleeping that late. My body must be really tired.. Getting old Sucks!

My step-sister is so jealous of my little brother and his wife staying at my mom's house that she is trying to start a family feud. So we will all get pissed and Tony(my stepdad) will make them move out. But her plan isn't working. We aren't fighting about what she is saying.. We are just ignoring it.. Besides they will be moving out soon. They put an offer on a house and it was excepted so now they are just waiting on inspections. My step-sis. name is Kristy she has a son Kamen he is 14 and has lots of medical problems of the head.. Not to sound mean, but that boy aint right. He is mean with no consious.. He is autism, add, adhd. I'm not sure what all is wrong with him.. He got kicked out of public school last year thats why he has to be homeschooled now. He is part black so Tony has never acknowledge him as a grandson. So many problems with that family.. any way what started all this mess with Kristy was when we were there for the weekend. On Saturday we went to eat at El Chicos. Mom and Tony invited Anthony (my step bro.)  to go eat with us because apparently he is always at work and never gets to go when everyone goes to eat. He said yes. This is my second time to meet him. He was very nice . Well Kristy found out that we all went and didn't ask her to go so thats why she is pissed at everyone. They didn't ask her to go because they were buying and they just took her out to eat the weekend before.  But she doesn't count that.. She is such a mooch. She doesn't work she lives off of disability and Kamens  SS.  and food stamps and mom and Tony pay the part of the house payment that hud doesn't pay. Her car is paid for . (they bought it for her) So all she has is electric,water  and car ins. Mom and Tony pay for her cable and phone, but she doesn't see that as help she just expects that. My sister in law Danile she is married to Calob called me yesterday to let me know what Kristy is saying about me. I guess since my other brother Lawrence never goes to my mom's she's got nothing to say about him. Anyway , Danile said that me and mom talk all the time about everyone. That I'm a motor mouth to be careful of me.. Haaa. I told Danile yep Kristy is right me and mom do talk everyday. Thank God , because there was a time when I was married to Doug that we didn't talk for months. and yes we do talk about everyone, how else am I to know how everyone is doing. Also that I would never say anything about anybody that I wouldn't say to there face. So Kristys plan failed again...I feel kinda sorry for people that are so unhappy with themselves that they have to make trouble for happy ones.

I'm thinking about going on slimfast again. I really want this 20  pounds off by Christmas.. I would love for it to be off sooner cause its going to be jean shopping time very soon. And I don't have any that fit. But I don't want to buy any till I'm the size I want to be..UGH!!!!  I curse you FOOD

I did it , I got up and went to walk this morning. I did it 3 times . Then went over to Walmart to pick up a few things. Now I'm finially home enjoying my coffee.. Ahhh. Going to make lowfat hot dogs for lupper. We call it lupper because its halfway between lunch and supper.. Airgo lupper!  I did buy some really juicy looking sausage style for Jeff and boys. They don't like my 40cal weiners.. Not much of nothing going on today, might do some laundry and clean a bit since all I did was lay around and watch netflix yesterday. Jordan did his school yesterday and it only took him maybe an hour. I tried to talk him into doing more , but he said it was just the first day of school and he needed to ease back into it.. HAAA !   He did tell me that he does plan on working more at a time just probably not this week..

So happy that all the fall shows started up this week. Last night two and half men was pretty good. Looking forward to seeing how the whole Ashton thing is going to work out. Tonight its Glee and a couple of others that I will have to dvr. Its pretty sad when your life revolves around the tv shows.

Don't know whats wrong

Saturday I woke up early and felt great. I went to the koa and walked/run 3 times. Other than the bottoms of my feet hurting I felt good. Then at about 4  we went to Mandy's house to see the baby. Jeff was so rude he embarassed me. First off he didn't want to hold his nephew. Okay fine he's little and yes that can be scary. But then he kicked back the recliner and put a movie on his phone and sat there and watched netflix on his phone while the rest of us talked and held little Ryh. I was suprised his mom didn't comment on his behavior. I sure did when we got in the car. Then we came home and boom it just hit me. My whole body hurt and my ears feel stopped up. I have no energy. I went to bed. Then Sunday I still didn't feel right, but I had to get the laundry done and get Jordan's school downloaded so he could start today. It was a bad day. This morning I feel a bit better , but still don't feel a hundred percent. I need to go to the store , but I don't see that happening. I'm going to take a shower and lay around . I hope!

Alot happened yesterday

Mandy's water broke about 7:15 last night. We headed up to the hospital. She was at a 5 but not considered in labor. The doctors didn't want to give her anything to start labor since she looked like it was going to happen on her own. We stayed till 10:30 . Jeff needed to get to bed. Vonda called me at 11:50 to let me know Mandy was at a 9 (I asked her to call )  So I huried up and got back up to the hospital. He was born at 12:21am , Sept.16th, 6lbs-3, 18 and three quarters long. He has so much hair that at bath time the nurse  had to use a comb. Its long and curly when wet. I didn't get to see all that bath stuff with Jordan so I stayed and watched everything. I got home about 2:30. Mandy was getting her tubes tied at 6 this morning. We will go back up there after lunch.
Austin is in love. To see a child so in love with there new baby brother almost made me feel guilty that we didn't have another child. Austin amazed me, he is going to be such a great big brother to that little guy. Oh I guess I forgot to tell you his name. Its John Ryan. He will be called Ryan. We will call him Ryh because I already have a niece named Ryann. Corey's mom came up with that nick name. She is going to call him that too.

Onto new stuff.. Yesterday Sept. 15th was Bailey's birthday. Temple's baby that died. Well evey year I have been there for her on his birth and death dates. So yesterday my heart was so heavy with grief for her that I went over to Greg's where she is living. She was shocked to see me. I didn't waste anytime with what I had to say to her about what Misty told Mandy. I was so hurt and angry for her lieing to me. I wanted to know what I did to deserve that. Well come to find out what Misty told Mandy was a complete lie. This is what really happened, Oh and after she told me her side of the story. Brittney , Scotts girlfriend showed up to exercise and told me the same story. So this is what Temple said happened. When she left my house she did go over to Scotts house, but Scott answered the door not Misty. She had a few laughs and beers with him and Brit. and Misty , before they all decided to go to Spams. Then she met Greg and has been with him ever since. He is good to her , she has her own room , but they are messing around. Bill is even letting the girls come over without  supervision. She is goining to go to Cosmo. school to get her nail lisence. She is trying to get back on her feet and Greg is helping her. She said she hasn't done any drugs since she left that abusive guy. She was pretty upset that Misty would lie on her like that. She said it seems like everytime she is on the right pathe that someone tries to knock her back down again. We had a really really good talk. She is so skinny, but she did make the comment that living with Greg she is gaining weight cause he always cooks. So thats good. She needs to get more saline put back in her plug so she can keep more food down. She had her stomach done in Mexico a few years ago. I don't recommend Mexico for this procedure that really screwed her up.

Today I will be back up at the hospital. Hope everyone has a great weekend!

sleepy

I bailed on Tia again this morning. I'm very angry at myself. In all the years that I have been exercising by myself I have wanted someone to exercise with. Its no fun alone. There was a time that Mandy walked with me, but even then she was unreliable. I would get so frustrated at her cause I counted on her to exercise with. Then she just stopped completly and I had to make a choice to continue alone. I got used to it and then began to enjoy the alone time as me time.  Now I'm at the stage where I need an exercise buddy again and I'm the one bailing out..Maybe its because I have been on my own schedule for so long , maybe its because my husband alarm went off at 3 this morning and I couldn't fall back to sleep until 4:30,  maybe I have just gotten in a rutt..We start school on Monday so that will put us back on some sort of schedule , maybe then I will be able to get up early and meet Tia at the koa.
When I'm through with my coffee this morning Jordan and I are going to the Koa. It will be good for him to get out of the house.

A young lady came and looked at the house yesterday. The showings are slowing down , maybe 1 a week now. My mom had a dream that we got a contract on the house. I hope her dream comes true.

Okay so this is totally off the wall, but did anyone watch Survivor last night?  I think I'm just becoming a horny old cougar. Well I can't be a cougar cause I'm not having sex with younger guys, but boy I'm a lookin. That Ozzy guy last night was fricken hot!  I don't know what is happening to me, I used to never look at guys, really , honestly because I was always to ashamed by my looks , I just always kept my head down never noticing anything. I know this guy is on tv, but I have noticed I'm even noticing men in real life. What is come over me?  This can't be good !

I want to get out of this town and do something fun. I asked Jeff if he would like to take a day trip somewhere on Saturday, like maybe to Austin to show Jordan the Capitol or San Antonio and go on the river walk. Just to get away for the day. And he said no , he wants to work on his smoker.. POOOOP !!!  I understand he travels all week so I know he wants to just chill at home when he's off. I think Jordan and I are going to have to become more independent and start having day trips during the week.

just another day

Well I drank too much last night so I didn't get up and go to the koa this morning.. MY BAD!!  I'm going to do the elepitical here in a few. I think I'm going to give my zumba kinect another try also to change up things. I'll have to get Jordan to connect it for me I have forgotten how :(  I did pretty good minus the drinking yesterday. I didn't eat anything else after I had lunch. I wish alcahol wasn't so fattening... I have dropped a pound so at least I'm back in the 150's.

I'm really trying to convince Jordan into going to the bday party on Sunday. I haven't had a chance to tell him about Leah's son going. I would really like for them two to meet. They both are the same age and love xbox.. I got side tracked last night or I would have told him then.

I'm so pathetic, the good news is I wasn't the only one..That Breaking Dawn trailer was so close to the book that it gives me great hope that the movie will be fricken awesome.. I know they have to change up parts to make it more exciting , but it only made it better not worse.

I want to get out of this house, I want to go shopping . Of course now that I've gained weight nothing will fit but shoes...I need new shoes!

i'm up

I'm so glad I got up and went and walked this morning. I'm going to try really hard to continue to get up early and go walk. Its just with our lifestyle there is no need to get up early cause we have all day to get done what needs to be done. But I enjoyed the walk this morning so I'm gonna try to continue. I did somewhat okay on my eating yesterday , but I didn't exercise. I didn't feel good, so I mostly laid around and watched Harry Potter movies. Probably do the same today, but at least my exercise is done.

Darn chocolate cake

I am way up in my weight. 160.2 .... I know big bummer.. I really only have myself to blame. I haven't exercised or ate right in two weeks. Then Friday I bought a chocolate cake from Sam's.. need I say more.. I am really disapointed in myself. I feel lazy and slugish, I am sleeping way to late. I used to get up between 7-8 now its more like 9-10.. I had two chances to get up early this morning and fell back to sleep. I will start exercising today and I  dug out a notebook to keep a food journal. I will get back down in my weight!!!

Bored

Hello , sorry its been a while .. The leak got fixed , the wall fixed, carpet cleaned, house back in order.. Jeff is gone to work on his work truck that is the only way I was able to get on here. He has been on the computer ALOT !!!!  I have been watching Netflix and drinking. Starting Monday I am going to get back to the koa . I haven't exercised and boy can I feel it.. I got Jordans school ordered yesterday and it should be here Wednesday. So he will begin again on Monday the 19th.

Got some gossip on Temple. She is living with Greg. Lindie's ex-husband. Well I don't think there divorced yet, but she left him and is living in Burleson. So she's out of the picture. Lindie was the lead singer for Blue Mass Appeal (Scotts band) Greg did all the sound set up. Any way the day Temple came over here she went to Spams and went home with Greg and hasn't left. Heard through Misty , Scotts sister. Temple and Brittney (Scotts gf) hang out now.. Well at least Greg isn't a beater. And she is safe.. She is trading sex for a place to live is what I heard. She told Misty she isn't attracted to Greg , but she has to do what she has to do to have a place to live.. So SAD!!!

Well I got nothing else, thank I'm gonna go make me a drink!

leak

We have a leak, thank God it is in the wall and Jeff is at Home Depote getting parts to fix it. My kitchen is a mess because we had to remove a wall to get to the leak. Thank God again for panaling. My kitchen has it and the wall that shares the hall bathroom is where we had to remove the wall. Hopefully it will be an easy fix since the find was easy..

I'm a fatty again

I broke down and weighed , I really shouldn't have cause the number I got was way larger than what I had in my head. I knew I had gained some from all the eating out . I can feel it. Plus flow is here and won't leave. been here since friday, never stays this long so it must be my nerves keeping it here. I'm at 158.4 YIKES!!!!!  I have to get a handle on it fast I will not go back up only down...It really is amazing how fast you gain weight , but it takes forever to lose it..

We had an old couple come and look at the house yesterday. I was making taco soup so I just locked the dogs outside and me and Jordan just stayed in the livingroom. I told them when they want to go out back I would get the dogs, but they didn't want to go outside. I really liked staying at home. The only thing was the man asked me all kinds of questions. A good sign, but I didn't like it..

I'm really loving the cooler weather. I can't wait for window weather so our electric will go down. It was $365 this month. I know alot of it is because of the pool pump cause I have to run that thing for four hours everyday. When it cools off I only have to run it once a week..

Nothing else going on. Mandy should be having her baby soon. I saw on facebook she is at a 4, so won't be long now.. I wonder if they will even let us know when she goes into the hospital? Something is up with Kaci, but no one will tell us anything. Mandy just makes remarks about how heart broken she is about her daughter, then Cole said him and Sam saw her at Sonic and he didn't even recognize her she was so skinny..but when I saw her at the baby shower last month she looked fine. Who knows?

traveling lag

I got the lazy's bad. After I cancealed on Tia I went back to sleep and slept until 9:45.. I guess I was tired. I'm drinking my coffee now and hope to get energy. I may still go out to the koa its really really nice out. I have to go get pool chemicals today sometime cause we ran out of clorine while we were gone and the pool is green.. yuk!!! I did all of our laundry except our sheets yesterday . So today all the beds will be stripped and washed.

Saturday we went and found the pub that Bobby Long will be at on the 14th. Its a hole in the wall kind of place, but according to Jeff thats how all the clubs are in Dallas. I will not be going by myself. I was hoping it was in a mall or a hotel or something besides just a stand alone pub. Cause if it was in a nice place I would go by myself. Its not, so I won't be going. Oh well maybe some other time..

I have not weighed because I am terrified of what the number will read. I really didn't eat much , but we did eat out every single day so I know thats bad..

HOLY COW!!!!     Jeff just called me and Multi-Chem is being taken over by Haliburton... Jeff said they just all had a confrence call and were told it would take affect sometime between October-December. Now we don't know what will happen. Now all of our plans are out the window. Jeff said that James Archer the owner of Mult-Chem wasn't very clear if it was a merge or a buy out..Now we can't sell our house untill we know what is going to happen with Jeff's job.  Haliburton could come in and change everything or keep it the same.. I'm freaking out!!!

Okay so its late afternoon now and I'm adding to this blog what we found out about Jeff's job. It was a merger not a buy out. So Jeff's boss said the only thing that is going to change is that now Multi-Chem has a lot more money and its gonna be huge.. His boss told him to keep trying to sale our house , nothing is going to change to keep us from moving. Whew!!!!  thats a relief..

Home

Well were home, back to the same old , same old.. We had a great time with my mom. We really didn't do much but hang out at her house and watch movies. It was still nice though..Not much of nothing to talk about...

Went and walked with Tia this morning . Once I got up out of bed it was really nice to get outside and have an adult to talk to.. I really enjoyed the walk it was nice to change up my routine.. Then I came home and cleaned house. Then took a shower and watched one movie on Netflix. Then fixed nacho's . Then sat and watched the entire Gone with the Wind movie.. I love netflix.. I'm so hooked... Now it is 7 o'clock and I'm just messing around on the computer waiting for Jeff to come home. We leave in the morning for my mom's. I will be gone till Monday.. Hope everyone has a great weekend!