from my kindle

Sorry I haven't blogged in a while.  Jordan is starting to like his job more. Cole is looking for an apartment. And I'm excited about getting my new tattoo..I'm nervous too because I'm a whimp about the pain but I just keep telling myself it will be worth it. My cousin and her two boys came to town over the weekend. The family had a cook out. It was fun..Cole goes to the cataract doctor this morning for a consultation..I'm going to the mall and get my free panties and buy a bra..then over to Sam's for groceries..My sister-in-law Danielle has been taking this diet pill called Meizatang and in one month she has lost 15 pounds. I ordered Jeff and I some..it was supper cheap, less than $8 a bottle. I hope it works for us.  At least it's cheap if it doesn't. Well that's all I got , hope everyone is doing well.

post vacation

9 loads of laundry, $400 in groceries, and gained 5 pounds...

Today we start that cucumber flush.. I made it last night and it has set out all night long. Jeff took some with him to work and I will begin mine after breakfast.. I really like the honey and cin. I hope I like this water drink as well..I'm not exercising today, but I will start tomorrow..

We need a new computer, well maybe not need but want.. I want either a Kindle Fire HD or a an IPAD. The kindle is cheaper , but its smaller. The ipad can have a keyboard if need be and since I want it to pay bills off of I want a keyboard (I think). I want my own device also so Jeff kinda freaked out about that.. I don't think he will do it that way.. I just hate the computer room so much.. I only come in here to blog and pay bills.. thats why I don't blog that much.. This is Jeff's room and its gross.. He is a pack rat and never puts things in its proper place.. When we first got married I discovered it was best to just let him have his own room for his clutter.. I used to clean up after him and throw shit away.. big big mistake..So now I just try to only come in here once every two weeks..

okay back to my want... I was doing a comparison to the two and the kindle will do almost everything that the ipad does, but its $300 cheaper.its also smaller and it is not the 'everything' tablet..If we go that route with us doing away with a desk top computer we also have to buy a wireless printer for Jeff's work stuff, so thats an added expense..I don't know what to do..

I'm looking forward to the 26th, I can't even remember the last time I saw everyone.. which is so stupid seeing as we live so close and I don't do shit..I miss girl time, the only girl I talk to on a regular basis is my mom..

I'm looking forward to and not about Jordan going to work.. I also have to get him into drivers ed.. When he gets his drivers liscenes and car I will look for a job.. So I have about another year of staying home.. yes he is late on learning to drive , only because he didn't want to learn..I know strange, but  thats Jordan for you.. He is excited about going to work so thats good.. The boy never asks for anythig like ever.. I always always have to drag it out of him.. He hasn't had a new phone in 2 in a half years.. I have been asking him if he wants to upgrade and finially yesterday he decided to get a new phone..I asked about why my phone didn't work on the trip and they just said each phone is made differently blah blah blah.. and I can't get a new phone unless I pay regular price since I just renewed in November...Thats not happening unless I buy one somewhere else and to be honest I would rather get a kindle or ipad..My phone is fine here in Texas and I'm not leaving the state again for a while so I will just hang on to it..

Well thats all I got, time to get out of this room..

We're back

We had an absolute fantastic vacation.. Not one bad thing happened.. Thank you God!!

Well I did discover that my new Evo that I got in November sucks on road trips and I should have went with an iphone, but hey how often do we go 4300 miles..it doesn't make any since.. Jeff , Jordan and I have the exact same plan. Jeff has an iphone, Jordan has a 2 year old Evo and they both had internet access the whole trip, me NO!!!  I only had internet when we hit Washington state line.. I am seriously thinking about giving my phone to Jordan and getting an iphone..

The weather was perfect the whole trip.. it was between 70-80.. we did go through one supper small rain shower, but it was more like it was just spitting on us..

We did something every single day, so even though we didn't eat very healthy we did tons and tons of walking and hiking..

Today I have to go put money that we didn't spend back into the bank and go to the grocery store, then I have about 50 million loads of laundry to do..I am so happy we only spent half of what I had saved for us to take on vacation.. I'm thinking ipad :)

Cole was to look after our garden and he really didn't do it.. He just watered.. I guess thats better than nothing.. I went out there this morning and got 12 huge I mean huge zucchini...and tons of cherry tomatoes..

Jeff and I along with our honey and cinnomon drink are going to do the cucumber water flush that I posted on facebook..plus I found some new exercises for toning that I'm going to start.. They look hard, but I'm going to just do what I can..

Got Jordan an application for Wienerschnitzel. My aunt Jane said he already has the job, but he still has to fill it out..I hope he can start next week.

Well thats all I got for now.. Hope everyone is doing well.

YESSSSSS!!!!!

I'm so excited and I just can't hide it!!!!   We leave for vacation tomorrow... Today will be about packing and getting everything ready for our trip... I will post pictures on instagram of our trip maybe facebook, but I don't know how to post them from my phone to my blog.. Were heading up to Mount Rushmore then over to Seattle..We have so much planned I hope we get to do it all..We will be gone for 10 days, but some of those days will be driving time.. I love road trips plus we will be in my new car.. The weather in Seattle is in the low 80's with no rain, so it will be perfect...
I only lost 5 pounds in the whole 3 months that I have been super good at my exercise and watching what I ate..I think this is just where my body wants me to be..
Well I got to get going and run all these arrands for today.. Hope everyone has a great week!!

Almost vacation time

I'm counting down the days.. Vacation time is almost here.. 

Cole's eyes are healing well. He went back to regular duty on Monday.. Doctors still don't know what caused it..

Jeff and I started a new diet.. Well kinda.. Jeff still eats what he wants, just not as much.. Its hard for him.. Like the other day he grabbed 3 packages of cookie snack packs that are 140 each and 16 ounce's of chocolate milk... I took the cookies away and told him only one, he said two.. So I gave in.. That was still a really big calorie snack...but hey its a start.. We are also drinking this cinnamon and honey drink first thing in the morning and right before bed.. Its suppose to break down the fat.. Its says you will notice inches off before the weight..At least it taste alright...

I had a surprise visitor Saturday night... Temple and Aaron and his girlfriend and Temple's little girl Jaylee.. Aaron is here visiting from college , he visited us last year too..He turned out to be such a great kid...He just got a job working at a coffee shop across the street from Sony studios so he is pretty excited about that.. He was told Will Smith comes in a lot...I of course asked him to keep his eye out for my crush..Of course he is about to go make a movie, but it could still happen..Temple was Temple still the same... I feel sad for her...

Well thats really all I got, not much goes on around this house...Oh except our garden has grown so much we have a hard time getting into it..

Hope everyone has a great week.

Its been forever

I know , I know its been a while..Lots of medical stuff going on with the family.. Jeff's grandmother had to have three stints put in her heart, one stint in left leg, one balloon in right leg.. Two of my aunts had to have surgery due to breast cancer.. And then Cole had to go in for emergency surgery for his right eye... He hasn't had in problems with that eye in a year and then bam.. The doctor has sent out an email to the doctors in Boston and Pennyslvania about Cole's condition.. Maybe one of them know whats going on.. All the doctors in Texas do not..I'm really worried about him..Oh and now he will have to have catorack surgery on left eye in July.. He is actually looking forward to that one.. Perfect vision in one eye..
We are getting ready for our vacation.. We leave at the end of June.. I'm so ready..
Still exercising and dieting of course.. Only lost 5 pounds in two months, but I have lost inches. I can see the difference in my clothes..
Really nothing fun has been going on.. Just hanging around the house, saving money for our trip..
Today Jordan and I are going to the movies. Tonight I'm going to my baby brothers sister's graduation at the Junell center.. Thats it.. My life is pretty boring right now.. I know boring is good, but sometimes I feel like life is passing me by..

Oh great news my crush and that cheater finially called it quits!!!!  

Hope everyone has a great weekend.

Been a While

Things are going well here.. Not much to write about.  Cole's eyes are healing, but he will have to have the catorack surgery later this year..Jordan is now 16.. Cole will be 21 in June.. My babies are growing up.  Jordan is now taller than me and finially weighs more than me..He is pretty proud of that fact..
I have been eating okay , but I exercise 6 days a week.. I'm only weighing myself once a month..I don't think I'm losing much weight, but I can tell that I'm toning up..
We hung out at the river yesterday with Mandy and the kids.. I got a little sun.. I felt drained when we got home and went to bed at like 9.. I don't know why I didn't drink any alcahol at all.. I guess my body isn't use to be outside for hours in the hot sun.. Odd , I use to always be outside, now not so much.. Jordan and I do plan on hanging out with Mandy and the kids more at the river this summer though..
Jeff was approved for the vacation we requested.. I'm so excited.. We will be gone 10 days..
Well thats all I got.. Hope everyone is good..

Nothing Going On

My life right now has been pretty calm..We did go out to Mandy and Cory's on Saturday.. Jeff was off and we ate and drank and played washers.. It was fun.. Honestly I can only handle Mandy for so long when she is drunk, especialy if I'm not drunk.. I have been trying to watch my beer intake, because vodka has less calories I try to drink it instead.. I had a bout 4 and half beers and then I was done so I could drive us home..
Cole's eye is healing well he goes back to the doctor on the 9th.. He will have to have catorack surgery when his eye is healed..
I have been exercising and using my toning video for three weeks strait..I have not gotten on a scale in those three weeks.. While we were at Mandys she told us about going to see a doctor in Ozona that perscribed her some diet pills.. I thought about it, but I just want to do it the right way.. The last pills I took was a waste of money, so I'm just going to keep doing what I'm doing..
Jeff has been working in our garden on his days off.. We have onions , but nothing else is ready yet..
Jeff and I have been getting along great and everything is going really good..
Hope everyone is doing good.. Have a great week...

Very nice time

Jeff was off Thursday and Friday and we had a great time.. Thursday we just ran our errands and chilled with a few drinks at home.. Friday we went grill shopping... I have been wanting a new grill for a  couple of years now.. Our last one caught on fire way too many times so now it has been used as Jeff's storage room for his smoker utinsels...I have been using are George Forman grill and it was just so hard to clean that Jeff finially told me to throw it away and we would get a new one.. So Friday we went looking and found one at Lowes that was Jeff approved...It took him and Jordan all day to put it together , but its done and I can't wait to cook on it..He bought me a inside cast iron griddle that use on the stove also... that will be great for veggies , and for when the weather is too crappy to use the outside one.. I used it yesterday to make bugers and I really loved it...

The dealership didn't call me in to take my car back to get the seat repaired so if they don't call Monday I have to.. I hope they call , so far they have been fantastic about all the repairs..

I have been using my toning video and exercising regularly and watching what I eat.. except on Jeff's days off I splurged.. My body is spazing out I started my monthly a whole 4 days early.. Normaly I would not exercise during this time , but I'm going to push through it and do it.. I want this weight off.. I'm so mad at myself for gaining weight.. I had maintain the same weight for years well within 5 pounds and I want this extra 8 pounds off.. I'm trying super hard because I want to be skinnier when we go to Washington..

My dad came by to visit yesterday while we sat outside and Jeff and Jordan put together my grill and he had so bad news..My Aunt Betty which is my Dads older sister that lives in Washington has been diagnosed with breast cancer in both breast..They need to be removed , she is also having trouble breathing so they checked her heart, we have bad hearts in this family, but her heart is fine the doctors want to check her lungs to see if the cancer has spread to her lungs and she is too scared to have them do it.. She is also not sure if she wants her breast removed or just see if they can treat her tumors.. The good news is my Aunt Cindy that has had breast cancer and had one removed and has been healthy for 7 years now is living in Washington now and can talk to Betty.. They are sister-in-laws... Betty is 70 years old and very active , her and my uncle are always traveling and just living life...Please pray for her..

Hope everyone has a great weekend..

Semi good news

Cole's doctor appointment went well.. His eye is healing and he gets to go back to light duty work on Monday.. Only daytime driving and no driving company vehicles.. He only can see out of one eye that is why..He goes back in for another check up in two weeks..

Those diet pills were a waste of my money as far as losing weight goes , but I have noticed I have lost inches around my belly and hips.. I wish I would  have measured to begin with so I would know how many.. Its not much but I would think at least 2 inches.. I only got to exercise 3 times last week..

As for my car I got it back on Monday and my driver seat was ripped, so now they have ordered me a new one.. It should be here on the 12th then I can get it fixed...The dealership has been really really nice and helpful with this so hopefully it will get done quickly..I have gotten three calls from Chrysler (the big dogs) first about the recall repair that was done and now about my seat..Boy buying a brand new car makes people kiss your ass..I kinda like it :) 

Jeff put in his vacation time request yesterday. I really hope its approved.. I can't wait to go to Washington.. We have decided to drive instead of fly.. We are going to take the northern route which I have never done before.. We have always went the California route, so I'm excited about seeing other states..

Well thats all I got.. Hope everyone is doing good and has a great weekend..

still problems

Cole's doctors appointment went fine.. He got the stitches out of his eye and doc. says its healing well , but now there is a catorack forming on his eye..So he will have to have catorack surgery.. We go back next week and then we will discuss when he will have to have that surgery.. Hopefully Cole will be able to go back to work for a while..

Those diet pills were a waste of money in the two weeks I have been on them I have felt no different and only lost one pound..I am still going to finish the bottle because I am hoping they will magically kick in now that I'm off my period and the weight will start to melt away..LOL!!!    Hey I can dream!!

Well thats all I got, hope everyone has a great weekend..

poor Cole

It has been a rough couple of days here.. Cole went in for his two week check up on Friday morning.. I didn't go because it was just a check up and he has been driving and back at work for a week.. He calls me from the doctors office and tells me he has to go in for emergency eye surgery right then.. His retna was detaching its self from his eye.. If he didn't go into surgery he would lose all sight in that eye.. So I jump in the shower and head to the hopital..This surgery took a while and it really kicked Cole's ass.. We didn't get home till almost 7 that night.. He had to sleep in the reclyner chair and I had to make sure he didn't have any eye brow pain or nausia.. If he didn I had to call the doctor immediatly.. Cole slept all night, I woke up every hour all night to check on him..Then we had to be at doctors by 8 Saturday morning.. We got home and Cole slept all day and I just laid around trying to nap.. We go back in on Thursday so he can get the stitchs out of his eye.. No driving or work for two weeks to start with...My poor baby, I just want all this eye stuff to be done.. Now the doctor tells us since this happened which was a 1 percent chance that Cole will probably need catarack surgery as well, and his retna could start to detach later in life again.. Kinda like when you break or sprain something it weakens it to happen again..Thank God for insurance or he would be screwed and his boss has been very kind...

Now onto Jeff , we have been discussing with him going to the night shift at work.. right now he doesn't have a partner so he could go in at noon if he wanted to, but if he got a partner it would be 3.. then he would just work like he does now, he gets off when he is done..He would make about $10,000 more a year working the night shift.. So unfair to the day time drivers, but for some reason the night drivers make more money..With Jordan being homeschooled he would still get to see Jeff and his days off would be longer, so that would be nice, plus he wouldn't have to get up at 2 in the morning..

I have exercised this week except for friday and saturday.. I have discovered I can read my kindle while on the treadmill, that hour went by fast..I will begin exercising again today..

Well thats all I got , hope everyone is well.

diet pills

My pills came in the mail on Thursday so I started them Friday.. One pill twice a day with meals..So that works really well for me cause I only eat breakfast and lupper..I also did the eleptical for 30 minutes..I didn't feel any different all day yesterday which is good , I hated those diet pills that made my head feel like bugs were crawling through my hair..I was pretty active yesterday.. It was house cleaning day and I shampood the living room carpet..So I didn't sit down until around 3:30.. I was not sleepy like I have been in the past few weeks.. I did go to bed about 10:30 and slept all night till 7:30 this morning.. I don't know if it was because of the pills or not... We will see how today goes.. Jordan and I may go shopping , he needs new shoes..I plan to walk on the treadmill .. I need to do a toning exercise, but its just so boring...I still need to buy a new scale by this Friday so I will know if any weight is coming off.. I really hope this product works I'm up to 166.. I'm so mad at myself for getting this heavy again..

Well thats all I got , hope everyone has a great day..

Pinterest

Okay , I'm finially on pinterest.. I'm still not so sure about it. to me its a lot like tumblr.. I did get me some fantastic pictures of Rob , and some tats I like, but other than that I'm not getting the whole hoopla about it.. Maybe its because I still don't know how to work the app..

In other news my scale died.. its probably the battery it says Errr... my pills haven't come in yet.. I did get a confromation that they were shipped on the 7th, so hopefully today they will arrive..

I've been downloading free or super cheap books on amazon for my kindle.. two of my favorite fanfiction writers had books published.. Another author will have one out in June.. I have read all these stories already on fanfiction, but I bought them anyway they were cheap and some of my favorite stories..

Not doing much today except going to Walmart...

Hope everyone has a great day..

weekend at moms

We had a nice visit with my mom.. We actually got leave saturday morning, Jeff was out of hours.. It was a tight fit all of us plus the dogs in my new car, but we did it.. The car now needs detailing.. It is gross..Got to visit with my brother and his wife satruday night.. . she is so stupid sometimes.. sorry , but she is.. she came to my moms house with her baby nephew.. he is 8 months.. so fricken cute and such a good baby.. she only brought one diaper and no baby food. she forgot them..Mom and I gave him a bath and wraped him in a towel while she ran to target to get diapers.. then she found baby oatmil in his bag and made that up to feed him.. poor little man..We teased her a lot cause she wants her and Calob to foster children..  that would be a hell NO!!  she is too dingy for that responsibilty.

Sunday we went to some steak house Jeff had heard about it was in Arlington next to six flags.. It was awesome and the service was by far the best service we have ever had in our entire life..

Monday was terrible.. It started out about 8 in the morning.. I took my three girls outside to potty.. It was icy and sasha wouldn't go down the deck steps, so I picked her up to carry her down.. then when I put her on the ground I looked up to see daisy foaming at the mouth and shaking her head like crazy.. she was right at the bottom of the steps with me so I didn't know what was wrong with her.. I thought maybe she got something off the ground and was choking.. I picked her up to try and open her mouth but it was locked shut.. I put her down and ran into the house to get Jeff.. By the time I got back outside daisy was fine.. we just thought she was able to pass it.. then about an hour later we all went outside again.. this time mom and her 5 went with us.. as soon as we were out on the deck daisy started foaming at the mouth again.. I picked her up and took her in the house.. she stopped  foaming and was fine.. Mom thought maybe she saw a coyote earlier and it scared her then going back out reminded her of it.. I wasn't buying it , but by now daisy if fine.. We go to leave about 10 and we are out front and I set daisy down to potty in the front yard before we load up in the car and she starts shaking and foaming at the mouth again.. Cole is closer so he grabs her and carrys her into the house. I trying to get to her.. I get her from Cole and hold her close she is shaking and foaming really bad.. I just pet her and talk real soft and loving to her.. she finially calms down.. we load up and come home.. I call my vet on the way home , they tell me to bring her in as soon as we get to town.. She did fine the whole trip and we got home to let everyone else out of the car and she was happy to be home.. she went outside to potty and got a drink and some food.. Then we went to the vet.. They did blood work on her to find out why she was having sezures, the blood work came back good.. No problems showed up.. The vet was clueless to why she had the sezures.. He felt if it was epeliphsy she would sez anywhere not just at moms outside, plus all her blood work came back normal..So now we just watch her and hopefully it will never happen again..

Today I have tones of laundry to do.. I hope my diet pills come in today.. Hope everyone has a great week..

another check up

we go in for another check up for Cole today.. I hope it's good news, to me his eye is still really bloody looking..We are going to moms tomorrow as soon as Jeff gets off work.. It will be a short visit, but I'm looking forward to it.. It will be a crazy trip we are taking are dogs and my mom has 5 of her own, so 8 weiner dogs in a house.. yep good times!!!

Well I ordered me diet pills.. I saw them on a Dr. Oz add.. I was logging onto my homepage, which is suddenlink and this add pops up that caught my eye..They are called Garcinia Cambogia Premium.. The reviews were great and the whole article I read was great so I'm going to try them.. I haven't taken diet pills in years so I'm a little nervous, but I just need a boost or a swift kick in the ass.. So I will let you know how it goes.. I only bought one bottle , cause it isn't cheap.. If works like its suppose to I will just buy a nother bottle.. One bottle is only for 10 pounds.. I want to lose 20.. Anyway I will keep yall posted..

Hope everyone has a great weekend..

what a week

Last week was busy for me.. I'm not used to leaving the house except once or twice a week.  I went somewhere everyday excpet yesterday..The laundry suffered this and punished me with 9 loads..
Tomorrow Jordan goes into get his eyes checked.. yep it looks like Jeff's perfects eye sight did not pass down to Jordan.. He is the same age that I was when I first had to get glasses..
Cole's doctors visit on friday went well, we go back this friday for another check up..
Today is our anniversary..18 years.. It really doesn't seem like its been 18 years..and I can happily say that out of all those years the first and 2012 was the hardest for us so far..2013 so far so good..
Well thats all I got.. Hope everyone is doing well..

Cole eye surgery again

Well Cole had eye surgery again on the same eye as before , this time it was to remove the protein and fibers that settled on his membrain on the eye.. The doctor said he had to remove two layers of his membrain and then put something over it , I forgot what it is, but its like a see through band aid that will dissolve with in 6-8 months... Other than that his eye looked good.. All blood work has come back negative.. His eye's are a mystery.. Dr. Angle told me he has been researching and talking to other doctors to see if he can find out what caused his eyes to do this..No one knows.. We go in today for his after surgery care at 2..

I still haven't got into the exercise mood.. And I still haven't started dieting.. I really need to, hopefully my mojo will kick in soon.. I'm thinking just thinking about getting some over the counter diet supplements to help get me back in to the groove of diet and exercise..

Well thats all I got.. Hope everyone is doing well..

nice surprise

okay so yall have seen my great surprise, now I will tell you all about it..

I have been in love with the challingers since they came out, but I knew we couldn't affford one.. So I was just like all the rest and dreamed from afar.. Well our durango has become non dependable.. Its old and things were starting to go wrong with it.. I wanted to just fix it and still not have a payment.. I like having that extra money from not having a car payment..Jeff has been on me about getting a new car for a few months now , and I just keep putting him off..Its not like I go anywhere except the store, so the durango was fine for me.. When we go out of town we take the truck so all is good.. Well Friday we went to get Jeff a satalite radio for the big truck.. He hates not having a radio. Then we went out to the exibits and looked around. We were in the durango and it was making a noise that it has been for a while , that I didn't tell Jeff about..(i forgot)Anyway Jeff said thats it were going to look at cars now..Of course I pouted and told him we couldn't afford one(lie)..but he didn't care he said we needed a new car.. When he pulled into the car lot and started looking at the challengers I was on board about getting a new car..Right off the bat I fell in love with this silver one in the very back of the lot.. the salesman said they have missed placed the keys to it so we could test drive a different color but same car.. We did and it was great.. Not much room for a person in the back seat but loved everything else. Then the salesman talked us into driving a charger because it has more room but still a sporty car.. so we did.. and it did have more room, drove just like the challinger , but had lots of back seat room.. Jeff said it will be my car so its my call which ever one I wanted.. So I had a battle with myself.. I have always been the responsible one and done what was right for everyone else and so I said you know Jordan will be 16 soon and get his own car and besides its not that often we 3 go anywhere together and when we do go Jordan can sit behind me like he always does and I can pull the seat up.. We have done the mini vans and suv because of car seats and strollers and more room for two kids. Now I want what I want. So I said I want the challinger , but I want that silver one in the back..We took Jordan home so we could do the paper work. by the time we got back they had found the keys to the silver one(very suspisious).  Jeff did all the hagling.. I just knew we weren't going to get it, but we did.. I was so surprised.. Also the finance guy told me after 6 payments I can call back up there and he get our interest rate lower and payments lower.. very pleased about that.. Now today I have to call the insurance people and get that all set up.. This is Jeffs first brand new car and he is really excited about it.. Doug and I had got a brand new once , but of course I only got to enjoy it for about 6 months before I left him.. Also that was what he wanted not me.. This is for me.. My husband sure does love me..  Well that is it.. I love it!!!

still nothing

I still haven't found my umph to exercise.. I have cut back on my eating, but my body needs to exercise to lose weight and I still don't feel like it.. I hope my umph comes back quick cause summer will be here soon..

Tonight we are going to the ASU Planetaruem.. I have never been, and the boys went in elementry.. Tomorrow we are going to the exibits, not the carnival.. My kids never liked to ride rides so we only go walk the grounds.. Well I take that back Cole liked the little kiddie rides , but once he was too big for them he didn't want to ride anything.. And I don't think Jordan has rode but maybe one or two rides at the carnival.. Yep thats it, nothing else going on..

Hope everyone is doing well.

Just same old thing

Nothing new going on here.. My Dad is doing well ,  a little winded but healing well.. Jeff is off Thursday and Friday.. no plans.. He got the garden going and a compost.. onions planted for right now.. I don't know when anything else can be planted.. The garden so far looks good..I just wish he would clean up the rest of the back yard so it would be nice to sit outside.. I hate our yard right now..I haven't put a color on my hair yet and my natural color is dark... Becky (my haircut lady) said its still  a blond just dark blond.. I will be putting a color on my hair today.. I don't like it dark.. I haven't been in the exercise mood, nor the eating healthy mood so I haven't lost any weight.. I'm the heavist I've been in years at 164.. It's like my mojo ran out or something.. Hopefully I will get it back soon.. I don't like the way I feel..
Well thats all I got.. Hope everyone has a great day..

Jeff and my Daddy

Thursday Jeff went to see Dr. Reel, he was the dentist I took Jordan too when he was younger.. Anyway they got Jeff in and pulled the tooth.. $115  .. So much better than the $700 the other dentist wanted.. I think he was scamming us cause we have no insurance.. Well we have insurance now it goes into effect for major stuff in a year.. YEAH!! (not)  Anyway his tooth is out and thats that..

My Daddy went into the doctor Friday morning.. One of his heart arterys was blocked and his first doctor told him nothing could be done.. Second opinon doctor told him there was a 70% chance that he could get it open.. and he did. he put 3 stints in , but that sucker is open.. Second opinons Rule!!! My Dads in a lot of pain because he hasn't had blood pumping on that side of his heart for a while, but should make a full recovery and go home from the hospital today..

I haven't exercised in two days , or ate healthy.. I begin again today..

Jordan asked to go to a party with Cole sometime.. He will be 16 in 3 months.. The kids that Cole hangs out with are the ones that live down the street from us.. All the boys , even Austin were really close when we first moved into this house.. Anyway the oldest boy has his own house now, he is Coles age.. They pary there..The youngest boy is 16.. anyway last weekend Jordan went to the mall with Cole and they ran into these kis and invited Jordan to come and hang out with them sometime..So Jordan asked us if he could.. We decided he could under some conditions.. 1. No Drinking.. 2. Cole must be responsible for Jordan.. 3. I will come and pick him up at midnight
So he agreed to those rules, then later that day he said 'mom I don't know if I am going to go or not I just wanted to see if I could'   So who knows if he will or not..

Well thats all I got.. Hope everyone has a great weekend.

Just don't got it!

Instead of losing weight this month I gained it.. I now weigh more than I have in two years..Its like all my will power has gone out the window and I can't stop eating junk.. I haven't exercised much this month either.. So today I am going to try try again to begin my diet and exercise and log on to my calorie app..This extra weight really makes me feel yuky so maybe I will be able to get it off..

Nothing else going on. Jeff has begun another project.. I think I will like this one though.. I just wished he finished the others before starting this one.. He is planting a garden now.. Which I'm actually excited about.. I love fresh veggies..I have never had a garden.. In the past we have had tomatoe plants, but they never really produce alot.. This won't be a large garden just tomatoe, squash, cucumbers, peppers, and onions.. I  don't care much for the peppers and onions, but Jeff uses them to cook with..

Well thats all I got.. Hope everyone is doing well..

lazy bday

My bday was spent being lazy on the couch.. I didn't cook, clean, or exercise.. Cole bought me chinease take out and I just did nothing all day long... It was great!!! I think my best part of the day was when Jordan woke up and gave me hug and told me Happy Birthday..Cole was up for about an hour and then saw it on facebook.and said ' hey happy birthday, how old are you 35'   yep I called him a suck ass!!!  He said 'no really you don't look 42' If anyone asks I'm telling them I'm 37.. 42 sounds old..Jeff got me a really sweet card.. All in all it was a good day..

Cole had an eye doctors appointment and his right eye is good.. Completly healed he is going to have to have surgery on his left eye again on Feb. 26th.. The doctor said he has built up fibers and protien on the front of his eye and if its not removed it will get worse and he will lose his sight in that eye.. This is caused from his first surgery...This shouldn't have happened but it did.. All his blood work has come back negative and the doctors are confused as to what caused this to begin with..

I wanted to clear up some things from my last venting episode.. Jeff and I are fine we worked things out that same night.. We both know we need to do some things different..

Well its time to get off here and pay bills..YUK!!!

What a let down

Jeff was off Monday and Tuesday and had a dentist appointment on Monday morning.. We get over there and they do an exray and tell him either a root canal or pull it. He tells them to just pull it.. They tell him oh we don't do that here you have to go over to this other doctor to do that... $85 later and I'm pissed , because I asked when I made the appointment if they could pull the toothe , cause I know thats what may have to be done.. and she told me yes... I hate fricken liars...If Jeff and I hadn't had the biggest fight of our marriage the night before , (another story) I probably would have told that lady off and not paid the dam bill.. So anyway they sent us over to another dentist on Tuesday.. They have the exray from the other dentist , were thinking its going to get pulled.. NOPE just a consaltation $55 , come back Feb. 6 and they will pull it for $700.. They gave Jeff the choice of being put under or the numbing shots, and he chose put under thats why it cost so much.. Once we got home I asked him to call the dentist to see how much it would cost with the numbing shots and he did.. It would be $340.. Still to high I think just pull a dam tooth.. He decided to talk to some of his truck driving pals and my mom and they all told him dentist stories and said the numbing shots work, hurts but works and they have never paid that much to have tooth pulled... So today he asked me to call Dr. Reel's office which is the dentist I used to take Jordan to and see what they charge and tell them we already have an exray of the tooth, if we can get it.. I would think we could we did pay $85 for it..

Jeff and I had a huge fight Sunday night... He said I don't treat him like I used to, I told him the same.. What he was getting at is that I'm not all lovy dovy towards him like I was a few years back..I told him I love him as much as he loves on me.. It just escalated from there.. He was in my face yelling , and I kept stepping back .. Whats really bad is the whole time he was yelling at me all I could think about is how bad his breath stunk.. The bad tooth has made his breath really bad..I know thats terrible , but its true.. I've even told him , in a nice way about his breath..
We are at a stand off on our fight.. Both of us don't see that we are in the wrong..Were going to work on it together though..I do love him very much , but at times I just don't like him..

I have not dieted or exercised in 4 days.. I will begin again today.. Jeff has finially noticed he has gained a lot of weight and decided to lose also.. We'll see how long that last..

Well thats about it.. Hope everyone is doing good..

must be pms

UGH!!!   I need to vent , so if you don't want to hear don't read this..

My husband is driving me nuts with all his dooms day stuff..and since I don't believe what he does , he is constantly telling me I wish you would do this ... or I wish you liked this... or I wish you wanted to move to Alaska or I wish you baked more or I wish you liked to garden or I wish you cleaned house like you used to.. Oh and the big one is I wish you would stop mothering me.. yes he said I mother him.. So I'm thinking that the next time he tells me that I mother him I'm going to stop doing his laundry,stop waking him up for work, stop making his lunch, stop fixing his plate, stop making doctor appointments for him.. That last one really pisses me off.. He was off all day Monday with a tooth ache I told him he should call a dentist.. You know what he does... he waits till after 5 to tell me to call on Tuesday to find him a detist, but yet he wants me to stop mothering him... UGH!!!!!   He is really on a role to let me tell you about his next request from me... He wants to buy the natural ingredints like lye, and borwax and some ohter shit to make our own laundry soap and dishwashing soap and bath soap.. he said it would save us a lot of money.. I looked at him like he was a crazy man and just said NO!!!   He said o well I guess you don't want to save money then... I save him money everyday.. I don't go out shopping, lights or the tv are hardly on unless he's home.. I never go anywhere so I don't spend gas... That was another of his I wish you were more like....I talked to my mom yesterday about it, because it really is starting to hurt my feelings.. I mean I have low self esteem as it is and for him to not be pleased with who I am and to wish I was someone else hurts.. She told me to throw it back in his face.. Start telling him all the things I wish about him.. So I think I will..Oh and the house cleaning really is only his clutter fuck of a room that I don't clean.. He has all this shit in the computer room.. He is a pack rat so no I don't clean the computer room, hell I try not to stay in here for very long.. I really wish I had my own laptop then I would never have to come in this room..

Okay I'm done..

I've done okay on my diet and exercise and have lost one more pound.. looks like I'm just losing a pound a week.. hopefully when my thyroid pills get here it will boost up by another pound..
My  fitness app stuff is ddhayes30 and my email is ddhayes30@gmail.com

hope everyone has a great day..
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Last night

Of course plans never go as you want them to.. We didn't get to meet up with my mom till 9:30.. By the time she got the dog and we went into the restraunt to visit a bit it was 11 before we headed home.. We did have a nice short visit.. The dog is really sweet.. She never made one sound the entire time we had her.. or when we gave her to my mom with all the other dogs barking at her, she kept quiet..Poor thing she is so sad.. Her original owner died , then the husband couldn't take care of her so she was shoveled to the grandparents house for a week, then with us on the drive to meet mom.. At least now she will be loved and never alone.. My mom spoils her dogs worse than I spoil mine..

On the way home Jeff didn't flash off his brights to one car.. he didn't mean to not do it , it just was an honest mistake, of not realizing it until too late.. well that car was a cop and pulled us over.. The cop was real nice and didn't give us a ticket, but man thats pretty bad to pull someone over for that..

My Birthday is coming up and I still haven't decided if want to get my nose pierced or not.. Part of me really wants to , but then part of me thinks I'm too old.. Its sad really cause I don't feel as old as I am.. I wonder if I look as old as I am..

Well thats all I got.. hope everyone has a great day..

just the same

Not much has been going on here.. Jeff has been home for the past 4 days and then his schedule days off are sunday and monday.. the trucks trailer has been in the shop and they didn't have an extra one for him to use.. so no work for him..

My mom is getting another dog and we are meeting her to take it to her.. She wants to breed it with her male.. this means she will have 5 winnie dogs on the truck with her.. crazy I say crazy woman!!!!
We are suppose to meet her in Sweetwater tonight around 7.. If and thats a big IF  the plans work out I will call you Laura and maybe we could swing by for a bit to say hi...

I have exercised 4 times this week and done okay on my diet.. as of Wednesday I had lost 1 pound.. I have been out of my pills and ordered them yesterday so hopefully getting back on my thyroid pills will kick my metabolizim back into gear..

Well thats all I got.. Hope everyone has a great day..

great weekend

We had a really good weekend..Jeff has been really sweet to me.. He had a bad dream about me cheating on him and it must have done something to him, because he kept telling me how pretty I was and always loving on me..I hope he keeps it up..

We went and saw The Hobbit and  it was good.. Can't wait for the next one to come out..

I bought my new Rob movie.. I haven't got to watch it yet, but maybe today..

I failed last week to keep up with my diet and exercise, but I'm going for it again today..I hate being so weak when it comes to sweets..

Well thats all I got.. Hope everyone is doing well..

New Year

I'm old... I couldn't even stay awake until midnight... Cole went out with friends , Jeff was snoring, Jordan was playing xbox and I was watching the time square count down, and just got to sleepy so I said to heck with it and went to bed around 11.. Cole still not home, he must of had a good time last night..
Cole is facebook friends with his step-sister and yesterday she posted a picture of her and Doug.. OMG!!!!   I am so glad I'm not still married to that man.. He was never goodlooking to me , he got me by being very charming.. Hey I was 15 give me a break.. Anyway back to the picture.. He looks like a dirty old man.. I didn't recognize him.. Go see for yourself.. Cole's facebook , her name is Saria Hasty. He is one creepy looking man!!
I really hope this New Year is better than last year.. I really want us to leave this house more.. I really want me and my husband to like each other like we used to.. I really want to lose 20 pounds.. I really want to like my body.. I really want Cole's eyes to be healed.. I really want to know what caused his eyes to bleed..I really want to move somewhere fun...
Yep thats a long list of wants..
Hope everyone has an awesome New Year!!!