bad weekend

The weekend really sucked.. I didn't leave the house not one time which is no big deal I often go for days without leaving the house. Jeff cooked again on his homemade smoker. It works really good. He cooked a pork butt. It was his first time and we didn't realize that it would take 12 hours for it to be ready. But now we know. It was really good , we ate it on Sunday and will be eating on it today too. I read most of the weekend and he was on the computer. then Sunday morning the guys went to the gun range. It was nice to have the house all to myself. Jeff wanted me to go , but I really feel its good for the guys to have guy time, they really don't get enough of that. Plus I was still hurt from the rejection from Jeff. I know he loves me I don't know why I let my emotions get the better of me.. We talked about it last night , we will see what happens..  Its really my problem not his and its not fair that keep making him a part of it.. I have started exercising again and it feels good. I didn't drink last night and I'm gonna try not to drink all week since I drank so much last week. Just laundry and cleaning today.