Yea!!

This morning the scale was my friend , I lost two more pounds which puts me 1 pound away from being at my original goal weight.. When I say original I mean way back in July of last year when I began my long weight loss battle...Now that I'm this close I have decided I want to keep going.. I don't really want to set a weight limit for myself cause it took me a year to get where I'm at now.. So I'm just going to keep doing what I'm doing and when I feel good about myself then I will stop dieting and maintain...I wish I wasn't addicted to food.. Like right now all I can think about is I lost two pounds I want chinese food for lunch, and in my head I'm figuring out okay if I eat a late lunch and no rice then don't eat dinner tonight I might be okay... I'm just like that stupid yogurt commercial where the girl wants the cheese cake and is comptemplating on how to go about eating it.. I have got to find peace with food, maybe my new body and cute clothes will help!! Also I think I may have a Bailey's problem too, I haven't had any in 18 days and I FRICKEN want some!!!!!!   Okay I'm better..( not really) anyway moving on. My brother called me to see if I wanted to go in halves with him to take my dad out to eat Saturday for fathers day.. I'm really having issues with this, I love my dad its my step-mom that I don't want to feed.. Also those two never do anything for us or even call us enless he needs Jeff's help..If were having a big family get together my aunt Cindy calls us not my Dad.. He has never been close to us even when we were small.. My brother really laid into him a few weeks ago about not coming and getting his grandkids, so my dad came and took Hayden to play miniture golf he called to get Jordan , but that was the weekend Jordan was at Austins.  I know I'm wrong for feeling this way , but hey you can't help how you feel.. I'm asking God to help me to change my heart..