Friday, August 5, 2011
wow
After reading Laura's and Tia's blog yesterday it made me realize how very lucky I am.. Sorry no offence to yall, but I am in a great place in my life... I may complain about no romance with my husband , but he is my bestfriend in the whole world. I can count on him for everything.. I don't have any girlfriends to hang out with. Thats why I like blogging so much.. We all have such very busy lives (taking care of our familys) and to me it helps us to stay connected. Even if its just short and boring.. Constant communication grows relationships.. and it takes more than one person to keep that relationship alive..I look back at mine and Temple's friendship and my heart hurts.. I tried so despertaly to hang on to that friendship, but she was letting me go.. It took me sitting on the stand in the court room to realize that she no longer cared for me the way that I cared about her.. Friendships come and go.. Its a fact of life. People grow apart. So I feel very comforted by blogging , It helps me to hang on to our speradic friendship.. I have never been really close to any of you. I always felt like I was the fifth wheel. Don't get me wrong I feel very liked by yall. and I like all of yall. Its just yall have stories and stories about things that yall have shared together. Which is awesome.. but while yall were making all these wonderful memories I was at home.. So thats how I feel like a fifthe wheel... After losing Temple yall have become so important to me.. I never want to lose another friend and I call each and every one of you my friend.. I know I'm being emotional, but thats who I am.. I am alway emotional , I cry at movies, I cry reading books, I cry when I'm mad, Hell I even cry with certain commericials . Maybe thats why I always make all those stupid facial expressions. I am emotional... Love you guys!
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I take no offence but hey we have stories and history together, we have known each other for damn near 19-20 years,survived broke marriages and stupid friends and I consider you one of my closest and best friends. I know we do not talk much like we use to, I think that is on me I never talk on the phone anymore. And yes like you I consider Matt my best friend now(well you don't think Matt is yours hahaha for you its Jeff) so maybe that is why I don't call everyone anymore. I think we all need to get together more often and hang out,even if it is just sitting around a house talking. We all need each other, we are all connected (I think) never feel like the 5th wheel, you are number 1 in my book. Oh wait I was rereading your post, oh you were at home, I am always at home making no memories, waaaaaa. Anyways sorry our blogs were so depressing yesterday, but it helped me a lot to get all that crap out. Thanks for being a good friend :) love ya!
ReplyDeleteI guess since our husbands are our best friends, we don't need each other as much on a daily basis. That is not as sad as growing apart. I love the blogs and feel closer to both of you because of reading them. I'll make more of an effort to keep mine updated.
ReplyDeleteOh I am in a great place in my life too. People around me are falling apart though.
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