Very tense

We only had one showing yesterday, but they stayed in my house for 30 minutes.. I was a nervous freak.. litteraly I could not understand what they were doing for 30 minutes in my home.. There were 5 of them altogether all adults, not college kids.. White .. like that makes a difference..I don't know about this , I don't know how much longer I can take of having strangers in my home.. It feels like a violation to me. Like all my personal stuff out for the viewing.. UGH!!!      I have been out of my drink for a week now and just haven't made it out to Sams.. Jordan asked me last night 'mom why haven't you been drinking this week'  Haa I guess he likes me better when I drink even though he teases me about it... Thinking I might go pick up a few groceries at Sams today and pick me up my drink..I am going through some issues with myself right now .. I really need a date night with my husband.. I keep telling him this we will see if it happens this weekend.. It looks like I am going to have to go down to our local IRS cause they haven't called me back yet.. I have got to get this taken care of before the 24th.. I'm gonna go I'm in a grouchy mood.. I just want some attention damit!!!!!