early call

Early this morning I received a phone call from Jeff's aunt Lynn.. My first thought was she suddenly realized how they treated me yesterday and was calling to apoligize.. I almost didn't answer the phone, but I did.. and she was freakin out . She was trying to get a hold of Jeff, because Vonda's boyfriend (Jeffs mom) died last night and Vonda wasn't answering her phone. So she wanted Jeff to call her to check on her. We only found out she had a boyfriend last week through facebook.. But evidentally Vonda was in love with this guy..So he did call to check on her.. Yesterday I was so upset with him, after telling him what happened he just said he was sorry that his family did that to me, but just to Fuck em that its. When I told my mom what happened she got so upset and wanted to call Vonda and find out why she treated me like she did.. I had to convince my mom not to call her.. I guess no matter how old you are your mom still wants to protect you.. but what hurt me was that Jeff didn't want to call and talk to his mom about it.. I wouldn't have let him because I don't want there to be problems that I have caused between him and his family, but it would have been nice for him to defend me. Not just to tell me to Fuck em and act like nothing happened...So now that Vonda's boyfriend died I'm feeling very stupid about how hurt I got yesterday..This is what happened.... Got to the baby shower and everyone hugged my neck (there huggers)  and were real nice and normal.. I sat with Jeff's cousins who came in from Saginaw.. we visited pretty much the whole time.. what turned was after all the gifts were opened group pictures began.. Family groups, his and hers different groups , all together groups, but not once was I included in the pictures.. I just sat there stairing at them.. While everyone else was asked to have a picture... People that I didn't even know were asked to be in pictures.. It really hurt. At one point I was the only one sitting... I know you might think no big deal, but to me it was just one more slap in the face that I'm not wanted...and then after all the pictures were done I was leaving so said my goodbyes and Mandy had the gawl to tell me' good luck on selling the house, but of course I don't mean it I don't want yall to move'  I had to bite my tongue to keep from saying something I knew would not be right.. I just smiled and left... Okay don't judge me it is that time of the month  so I'm extra emotional.. next week all this might not even matter...Now on to other news I was so disapointed last night I sat and watched the stupid TCA for one reason and one reason only and he didn't even show up till like the last 20 minutes .. he did win two awards though so he got to go on stage and speak in that most gloriouse voice.. Now he will probably head to London...sigh...oh and we have to be out of the house by 9:45 this morning because we have some more lookers... so I guess I better get off here...