Going to Expload..

I am just so upset at Jeff and then I start to feel guitly for being upset at him. Which then makes me mad at myself. Visious cycle. Don't get me wrong I love him very much and I am greatful for all he does for us, but sometimes he is just clueless when it comes to me. He has great qualities I need to just focus on them and not let the other stuff get to me, but I am a woman of course the other stuff gets to me. I think what makes me so angry at him is we have been married for 16 years now, and he still doesn't get it. Okay I will explain. Our anniversary was friday, I got nothing, no flowers , no card, no hand written letter telling me sweet stuff. NOTHING !!!!!  You know what he told me when I gave him his card, I didn't get you anything cause I didn't have time. Oh hell no.. You just spent the night in Kmart parking lot, just drove home past Albertsons.. I don't know why I do this to myself. He has only given me a gift one time and that was last year on my Birthday. But every fricken event I just get my hopes up for nothing. Thinking maybe this time will be different. There's other stuff that I'm going through right now with him, but it would  be to embarrassing to tell. UGH! so frustrated. And I know this is stupid, cause he is a great man, he's dependable, loyal, trustworthy, honest, great provider, great dad. He is a great husband in all other area's, except for two. So thats why I start feeling guilty for being upset. The funny thing is I just blow it off with him, cause I don't want to hurt his feelings. So happy to be getting this off my chest.