Stupid electricity outing..

Such a rough night, I woke up at 2:45 cause the electricity went out. I woke Jeff up cause I was worried we blew a breaker or something.. Our A/C never shuts off.. Well it was the whole block so we knew it wasn't our fault. Trying to go back to sleep was pretty hard. I love the a/c and my fan . Its hot even at 3 in the morning..Finially the electricity came back on at about 3:20. Then at 4 Jeff's alarm went off. After Jeff left I went back to sleep and had a horrible nightmare. I haven't had a bad dream in a very long time and I know why I did. First off while laying waiting for the electric to come back on we were talking about hand guns. Lawrence had a little bitty gun that I actually liked and would like to shoot it. Jeff has been hounding me about getting my conseal handgun liscence since he has his.. Well I'm scared of guns , but this one that lawrence had was small and I thought maybe I could handle it better. So I was asking Jeff all kinds of questions about the gun. Second reason for the nightmare is because of my weightloss. I'm starting to like the way I look so I feel more confident. Well Friday at the grocery store I (for the first time ever) noticed two very cute younger men checking me out. The fear of being noticed has brought up all the bad things from my past... I will not let the fear of being looked at sabatage my weightloss . Not this time!!! Here was my dream;  For some reason I was at someone's house in a small town that I had never been to before. I kinda think I was cleaning this house for this person. Well a man came into the house and started screaming at this lady and told me I had to leave. I was staying the night so I didn't have a car. The man became very violent with his words and the lady told me it would be best for me to go. She paid me what I earned and I left. As I'm walking down a deserted dark street I'm trying to get a signal from my cell phone. Nothing! Then I see a store light up ahead and I'm thinking to myself I will go there and use the phone and call someone to come and get me. Just before I get to the store I see a group of men across the street they start yelling stupid shit and walking towards me. I take off running for the store.. I'm not a fast runner in my dreams so they catch up to me.. At first they were acting like they didn't mean to scare me and were trying to help me.. Then one of them got mean and pushed me down.. I was trying to fight them and get away, but they got me. They took all my money which wasn't much and my phone. I thought they were going to let me go then, but one of them put something on his hand and covered my face. Then I woke up.. Such a stupid dream , like no way in hell would I be at someone's house I don't know without my car or staying the night.. And like where was my husband and my kids.. So stupid, but felt so real..... This week Jordan and I might go to the Abilene zoo or go to my mom's house even though she won't be there till Wednesday.. Jeff had to go to West Virginia so he won't be home till Thursday night . I really want to get away and do something and Jordan is really bored too. If we were to go to Abilene we would have to leave supper early cause the zoo would be so fricken hot..I don't know. I need to exercise really hard this week I ate a lot of junk this past weekend. We made new stuff so I had to eat it. We made white chocolate popcorn (yum) chocolate frozen banana's (yum) and lowfat cupcakes. they were so good and easy to make..You take one box of devils food cake mix and 1 can of 100 percent pure pumpkin and mix the two together . thats it , don't follow the box instructions. Then fill your little muffin pan and poof  a moist chocolate brownie like cupcake in 20 minutes... So yummy and only 180 calories..