Home

Well were home, back to the same old , same old.. We had a great time with my mom. We really didn't do much but hang out at her house and watch movies. It was still nice though..Not much of nothing to talk about...

Went and walked with Tia this morning . Once I got up out of bed it was really nice to get outside and have an adult to talk to.. I really enjoyed the walk it was nice to change up my routine.. Then I came home and cleaned house. Then took a shower and watched one movie on Netflix. Then fixed nacho's . Then sat and watched the entire Gone with the Wind movie.. I love netflix.. I'm so hooked... Now it is 7 o'clock and I'm just messing around on the computer waiting for Jeff to come home. We leave in the morning for my mom's. I will be gone till Monday.. Hope everyone has a great weekend!

Jordan's day

Today after I exercise and shower , I am taking Jordan out to eat and then to do something fun. He hasn't decided on the fun part yet.. There's just so much to choose from he's at a loss...HAAAA!!!
Since I will be out I will go ahead and get cash and gas for our weekend. We will be leaving friday morning, but I don't know what time yet. When we get back from mom's I will order Jordan's next grade level. Hopefully putting him at a start date of Sep. 19th. That gives him 6 weeks off for summer. A little longer than I planned, but well needed..

I found out Doug got out of jail July 27th, but I still haven't received any child support. I called the att. gen. to find out protocol and they told me if I don't have a payment by Sep. 1st to call them back. Then what , do they arrest him again or do we start all over with fricken late letters. Well you know what they have to send out 3 late letters before they can arrest him again.  The man can play the system so well.

Cole spent the night over at Sam's last night.. Breaks my heart to see him bend to her like this. I mean come on either you love him and what him or let him go!!!

The talk

When Cole got home last night , Jeff and I had a very adult conversation with him. I told him how it stresses me out waiting to see if he was coming home. I can't sleep unless I know he is safe..So we put the ball in his court. We either set a curphew , or he must keep me posted on his activities, or he must find his own place. The reason for keeping us posted is because what if something did happen and we needed him. How would we know where to look. Like I said, when he left saturday morning at 10:30 I had no contact with him until I sent him a text at 2 sunday morning. Thats just rude to me in my eyes anyway. So this weekend we will be out of town so he obviously won't have a curphew and once I talk to him when he gets off work I wont talk to him again till the next night.. We have in the past talked about him getting his own place because when we sell the house he won't be moving with us right away. So I don't know what he will do. I know he's trying to save up his money to buy a new truck, so I don't know if he will move out right now. I never want my boys to feel like they can't live with me. When I went to live with my dad at 16 (first mistake of my life) my mom was so hurt that she said I could never come back. So when living at my dad's was nightmare, I ran away and moved in with Doug. If I could have moved back in with my mom I think I would have been better off. So as long as my boys are working hard or going to school they will always have a home with me. Now if they want to be bumbs they can go live in a tent at the lake. Cause I will not support them. I believe when the time is right they both will want there own space and then move out. Jeff didn't even move out of his mom's house untill we got married. He worked out of town alot and stayed in hotels, but he never had his own place.

Brendy called and said the people from Monday morning really liked the house , but only could go FHA.. Then why the hell did they even bother, cause we are not going FHA. Not only would our house not pass FHA , but we are barely going to walk away with enough money to move on I am sure as heck not paying $1200 towards buyers closings. Brendy was pretty upset that there realitor even bothered with this house. She then told me a man called her friday looking to buy a house for his 3 college girls. He seems interested and when he gets back to town she will show it to him.
Someone buy our house already!!!!!!!

Leah's blog

Leah , I'm so happy you have decided to blog. I feel like I will get to know you better. I am still having trouble with posting a comment on your blog. Also I don't know if its just your setting or mine, but I don't click on your tag name like I do everyone else's I have to click on the link that you sent that invited me to your blog. So weird.. I too enjoy watching all those live web cams. I'm a people watcher. People do odd things and its really funny to watch.

Not much went on yesterday. Those people came in the morning to look, but thats it.. I'm really started to get discouraged. I know I said no big deal if the house sells or not, but deep down inside I want this fricken house to sale!!!!!  I know its the kitchen that keeps it from selling, but hey that would be about $5000 to fix it up isn't gonna happen unless we are staying put. The kitchen really isn't all that bad its just lack of cabinets and the washer and dryer are in the kitchen. We didn't like the kitchen either when we bought the house, but it has so much potential and the rest of the house is fine. Especially now that the bathrooms have been remodeled. Oh well it is what it is..

I think its time for Cole to move out. I don't want him too, but I know it would be for the best. I am too much of a mother hen and maybe if he had his own place I would be able to let go of some of the anxiety I feel. I told yall about him leaving saturday morning , right.. well I sent him a text at 2 in the morning checking on him, cause we hadn't heard anything from him since 10:30 that morning. He said he was fine and that he was hanging with friends and be home later. Then at 4:30 he sent me a text telling me he wasn't coming home he was staying the night with friends. Then Sunday at noon I sent him a text letting him know the lookers were gone he could come home. No response , so I called him. I woke him up , but he said he would be home shortly. Never came home. At 2 I called him cause by now I'm thinking he's staying away because of our fight yesterday. He said no he's fine just hanging with friends be home later. He finially came home about 4:30. Told me about his day/night. He was with Sam and some other friends. Then he took a shower and left again by 5:15 to go swimming. At midnight last night he still wasn't home. So me being the mother hen that I am sent him a text that said this. Son I know your having fun with your friends , but you have work in the morning. Be responsible and come home. He sent back Mom I'm aware. I sent back , your still my baby and I worry about you. He never replied. I don't know what time he got in, but when Jeff left this morning at 4 Cole was home. And he must have got up in time because he was gone this morning..
I know I need to let him be an adult, but its hard he is still my baby... so thats why I think maybe he needs to find his own place. So we both could have peace.. What do yall think?

blog is strange

okay so what is going on with blogger today. I tried to leave a comment on Leah's blog and I don't know if it went through or not. It wasn't like the rest of ours. Then I tried to comment on Tia's blog and it wouldn't let me either. It keep asking how I wanted to log in, under what name..Weird..

Pancake Syrupe

We had a stupid family argument over pancake syrupe yesterday morning.. I don't know whats going on with this family. Lots of stress maybe. Saturday morning started off really really good if you know what I mean.. Then I got up and started a big breakfast ; smothered potatoes, bacon, eggs, toast, and pancakes. Well I didn't notice that almost all the syrupe was gone so I asked Cole if he would run up to the store and pick us up a bottle. He had only been out of bed for maybe 20 minutes and he was just laying on the couch doing nothing. He told me no , he didn't want to go. So this upsets me because here I am making this big breakfast out of love for my family and he tells me no. So then I go and ask Jeff , he is on the computer and has already showered and dressed. He tells me no he doesn't want to go to ask Cole. So now I'm heart sick cause I do everything for everybody and no one wants to do this for me. It really makes me feel like I'm nothing..So Jeff and Cole get into a heated argument about Cole going to the store. Cole's excuse for not going is he's not hungry so he won't be eating. That still upsets me cause why does that matter if your eating or not I asked you to do something for me. It upsets me more that Jeff is all up in Cole's face about how disrespectful he is to me, but hey didn't he just tell me no too.. Anyway Jeff and Jordan in up going. Jordan went so Jeff wouldn't have to get out of the car. So when they get back Jeff tells Cole he can't have any of the syrupe. So then that was the last straw I blew up at everyone.. So fricken childish. So needless to say Cole didn't eat pancakes and we all ate in silence. Then Cole and I cleaned the kitchen. He took a shower and left and hasn't been home since. I cleaned the carpets, Jeff got on the computer, and Jordan played xbox. Then Jeff and I went to the movies. I'm still pretty heart sick about him telling me no. So it was not a very fun date!