Strugling

I'm loving all the rain, as long as no bad weather and its slow and easy..Of course I don't have to leave the house so that makes it okay as well..
I have the erge to weigh myself and I'm fighting it. I feel like I have lost , but I know if I get on that scale and it shows that I haven't I will be bumbed. Why do I feel a number defines me? Why can't I ever be happy with the way I look? Sometimes I feel like that is a big reason I never leave the house.. I've been thinking about joining the YMCA . I think it would be good for me and Jordan.. I will have to wait and see how Jeff's paychecks are.. We have no idea what his pay will be from pay day to pay day.. I really hate that..
Jeff's mother is really different towards us. I know I have blogged about how she never comes over or lets us know that she is at Mandy's so we could go over there.. Anyway Jeff was talking to here Tuesday night and she told him that she has been coming over to Mandys during the week to keep Ryan.. She hasn't seen Jordan or Cole since Christmas.. That really pissed Jeff off to know she is always in town , but never comes over.. She wanted to let him know that they are all going to Lowake for Mothers day at 1. Well we won't be going.. for one thing Jeff has to work Sunday night so he will be sleeping until at least 3-4.. Second we hate Lowake, third Jordan's bday is Saturday and we will go out to eat for his bday so we won't be eating out for Mothers Day.. We always just do one dinner for both occasions.. Its just too expensive to feed a family of four at a nice place two days in a row..
What are yalls plans for Mothers Day?
So proud of Cole he only owes $750 on his truck.. He will be paying it off with his Monday paycheck..Speaking of Cole he found this YouTube video of a 6 minute abs workout.. Holy Moly I tried it yesterday.. I could not finish it.. I am going to keep trying it though.. 6 minutes is quick.. I like quick exercise.

Okay moving on to my crush.. His new Movie Bel Ami is out on early release . You can watch it on Suddenlink for $9.99.. It will be at the movies this summer.. I have not watched yet.. I want to really bad, what is stopping me is I have seen so many of the movie clips and read the book that I just want to wait until it comes out to the theaters.. Rob on big screen during a sex scene .. Oh hell yeah!
He will be at the Cannes festival at the end of the month to promote his next movie Cosmopolis. It will be out in theaters this summer also..I have not read that book, but the trailer that hit the web is really hot. It looks like a really good movie.   And really good news for those of us that are Robsessed , he just signed on to do another movie Called Black List.. Its about a military interagator that caught Saddam Hussein.. So that should be really good.. Oh and just in case you didn't know his birthday falls on Mothers Day this year.. Okay I'm done.. Hope everyone has a great day..