something to do

I'm looking forward to this weekend.. It will be fun to hang out with everyone..

Nothing has been going on this week... Jeff was off Tues. and Wed. we just hung out around the house.. He has decided that he would like for us to start camping again.. He even bought fishing line to string his fishing poles so they will be ready.. We haven't camped in probably 10 years..I love to camp that was the one thing we did every summer as a kid was going camping.. We had a boat and everything you needed to spend the weekend at the lake.. When Jeff and I got married we only camped a few times he was not a fan of camping.. So I'm a little surprised by the fact that our sons are almost grown and now he wants to camp, but hey I will take it...

Still haven't exercised , but have eaten really healthy.. It helps to have veggies and fruit in the house.. I have been weighing every morning again to keep on track..

Hope everyone has a great day.. See yall Saturday

Better today

I'm in a much better mood today..You know how it is sometimes you just need to vent..I think it was more about him telling me NO then anything.. I wouldn't have went once I came down off my high of thinking about going.. Cole has all his medical stuff coming up this month and I want to be with him..
I didn't exercise like I said I was yesterday I'm going to try today.. I have been eating more but its fruit and veggies.. since last friday I have lost 2 pounds so thats only been 4 days so I'm pleased with that.. I know I need to exercise I know it would help my funk that I'm in. I need to get with it.. I really hope Jeff gets to start at GoPetro soon.. I know I would exercise again if he was at work during the day.. Its the whole not being able to shower after I exercise that makes me not want to do it.. Well not the whole reason , but a big one..I hate sitting in sweaty clothes for hours. and I refuse to shower in the boys bathroom..I would have to move all my stuff, plus gather up clothes to wear after my shower , plus the ones I work out in.. Just a pain .. yes I know its an excuse.. see I'm in a funk..

My baby brother turns 30 on Friday, We were going to go to his house and bbq , but since Jeff is now working a different job we can't go.. bummer.

Okay getting off now. Hope everyone has a great day.

My favorite Aunt & Uncle

Yesterday we went to my cousins house warming BBQ and there I was told that my aunt and uncle ( Cindy & Pete) were moving back to Washington.. They just confirmed the move on Friday. They have been back and forth from Washington to Texas for over 25 years.. If you recall I had there daughter Lacey living with us her freshman year until they got back down here to Texas.. So they have only been back here for 3 years this time.. Lacey will be a senior this year and at first when they were talking about going back to Washington , Lacey was going to stay here and finish school.. Now she has decided to move with them..I am happy for them to move, they loved up in Washington and they have two more daughters and 5 small grandkids that live there so they miss them very much.. We also have more family up there.  so its home to them there as much as it is here in Texas. I am happy for them because I know how much they love it in Washington and want to be with there other children and grandchildren, but I'm also very sad to see them leave..I am very very close to Cindy, she is one of my best friends. I don't talk on the phone much as you all know , but my mom, Jeff, and Cindy and my other cousin Peter are the only ones that call me all the time.. My mom calls me every single day, Jeff calls me from work sometimes and Peter calls me about twice a week , Cindy calls me at least once a week and we used to do lunch about twice a month.. She is also the one that always invites us to all the family get togethers. My dad always forgets and my aunt Jane calls sometimes, but mostly it was always Cindy to let me know and invite us..
She asked me yesterday if I would like to ride up with them to Washington and stay a bit and then fly back home.. Of course it would  be Jordan and I.. which I would absolutely love.. Jordan doesn't remember us living there he was only two.. Jordan was all for it as well.. You should have seen his face light up.. When I talked to Jeff about last night on the phone he told me NO!!!   He said we would just have to save our money and go on vacation to see them.. I understand that he was jealous because he has to work and couldn't go with us, but it hurt my feelings that he just said NO and not even try to discuss the possibility. I know I'm pmsing so it probably isn't that big a deal, but it just went all through me that he has this much power over me.. I'm really starting to second guess our marriage.. He gets mad at me because I don't leave the house and do anything, but when I asked to go to Washington he out right says NO..He didn't mind me going to Vegas why Wahington?  Maybe thats it I have already done something fun this year without him and he is too jealous of the fact that I want to do something else.. I think I need to start looking for a job. I know I said I was going to wait until Jordan turned 16 and was able to work and we are working towards his GED so he would be done with school, but  I don't like being told NO the way he told me.. It was like  I was his child not his wife.. Again I'm probly pmsing . I'm just hurt..Jordan and I sit in this house day in and day out never going anywhere, it would have been nice to go.. Again I do understand Jeff makes the money and he works hard for it so I know he was jealous of us going and not him. He just should have said that and not got manly and say NO.
Okay sorry for my rant.. Hope everyone has a great day..

The weekend

So last night Jordan and I went and saw Men in Black 3.. It was so good.. I laughed so much , it felt so good to laugh that hard.. It was just as good as all the others.. Next Friday we are going to go see Snow White and the Huntsman.. I can't wait.. There is so many movies out or about to come out that I can't wait to see.. A couple are already on DVD .. I want to see the Vow and the one with Daniel Ratcliff where he is in some haunted house. I can't think of the name of it.. I don't usually watch scary movies , but that one caught my eye and I want to watch it. Problem is I won't watch it by myself.
After the movies we went to Wal Mart it wasn't to crazy in there for a Friday night. Must be a lot of Graduations going on. Today I will go to Sam's and get meat. Tomorrow we are going to my cousins house for a house warming BBQ. This is her first home so that will be nice to go and visit the family. Jeff has to work so it will just be me and the boys.
I bought veggies and fruit and I intend to use them.. Monday I will begin my workout's again.. I just get so bored of doing the same thing. Jeff agreed that once he changes jobs again and things get back to normal if we want we can join the YMCA.. I'm 50/50 on this.. I still haven't downloaded that app yet. I don't know why I haven't exactley.. Maybe I will soon... But when I do I will let you all know. Maybe its the accountability you all talk about and I'm just scared of failier. Today I plan on making me a 2 egg omlet with mushrooms,onion, and spiniach.. Yum!!   Then I will eat a cup of strawberries for snack. For lupper(lunch/dinner)  I plan on making me a chef salad with fat free dressing. Then for snack a pear .. We will see how that goes..That will be more food then I normally eat during the day, but its all good for you so hopefully it will kick start my metobilism..
Hope everyone has a great weekend!

Good News

Cole good news on Monday and Tuesday.. Monday the doctor told him his eye's were looking good and scheduled Right eye laser on June the 5th. Sorry Laura I told you the 4th..He also told Cole not to wear contacts after everything is done unless its just for a short period of time , no more sleeping in them.. Cole did not like that he hates wearing glasses.. That fact really cracks me up since it took me till his sophmore year to convince him to wear contacts. On Tuesday his blood work came back and his sugar level was normal, so they want to run two more blood test on him. One is a prediabetes test and the other is a hemoglobin test.. On June the 11th.. I still need to google hemoglobin cause I have no idea what that is..I asked Cole why they just didn't do it yesterday and he said they had to send off for the test stuff.. So yep I'm clueless why that is..Anyway his first lab work showed that he does not have diabetes.. So I'm pleased with that.. So if he doesn't have diabetes then what caused his eyes to do what they are doing , I have a theory on that let me explain.. When Cole first started at Thorps he never wore safety glasses. He would come home at night and his eyes would be blood shot from all the dirt and wind, but he would not take out his contacts.. We would hound him and hound him about taking out his contacts.. Sometimes he would go a whole month without taking them out.. He used to have problems putting them in that is why he didn't like taking them out..  months after he started working is when he started seeing things in his eyes.. We told him we thought it was the dirt that scratched eyes, that he needed to wear safety glasses and for God sakes take out his contacts and go see an eye doctor.. Well being the procrasternator that he is he didn't listen to us.. Well after what the doctor told him on Monday how contacts are really bad for your eyes because they don't let your eyes breathe and the fact that now his eyes were growing new blood vessels because the others were bleeding I think Cole damaged his own eyes by not being responsible with his contacts.. And as for the other two symptoms that Cole has that can be explained too.. He said he is always hungry and that he pee's alot.. Well for one he is a 19 year old boy working outside hard labor of course he is hungry.. For the peeing a lot well working outside makes you thirsty so you drink more.. Hell I sit at home and I pee every hour or so just from the water I drink.. Its just with his blood work coming back normal I'm believing that Cole is a healthy 19 yro boy.. His eyes are on there way to getting fixed and he has learned his lesson about his contacts. So in the future this won't happen again..Thank you God !!

Now moving on. I'm in a funk I haven't exercised at all this week and boy can I tell.. I really hate Jeff's hours. I can't wait till he goes to GoPetro so he will be up and out during the day..
He really hurt my feelings yesterday and I want to blog about it so bad but I'm really embarrased so I will just keep it all bottled up inside for now and explode later...Haa

Is that app really helping you guys stay on track?  I am so frustrated with my weight I'm thinking about checking into Weight Watchers.. My cousin's wife is doing the program and she is losing. I want to talk to her first and see if maybe she can just give me all the pointers without me actually joining , but I don't know how that works.. I also need to go buy salad stuff I haven't had a good salad in forever..

Hope everyone has a great day..

I sometimes forget

Its funny how I get so comfortable with the stuff I post on the internet that I forget strangers can access my sites. Like for instance the random comment I get from someone that I don't know, or like this morning on instagram someone liked a picture that I have no clue who she is.. I thought instagram was private amongst who was follow you, but then again I put a lot of my instagram photos on twitter, but it still makes me go hmm when someone I don't follow or is following me comments on those twitter things as well.. Its no big deal, I actually like it . Knowing that random strangers take the time to like or comment on something I have posted makes me feel less invisiable..

Well I did something that I'm not happy about, I weighed myself and I'm just sick.. I haven't weighed in a while so I was really hoping that the scale would be kind.. Nope I still weigh the same.. I only ate carbs once this week and drank 3 beers once this week and it still didn't make a differnce.. I will be checking out that app that Laura and Tia are using.. What is it again?  What really makes me mad is how my body can weigh within a 5 pound see/saw for over a year.. I am so ready to break past this.. I just don't know how.. I thought I could do it on my own , but obviously from weighing the same for over a year I'm not doing something right..I need yall's help, please give me some pointers on what to do..

Cole's eye has finialy cleared up enough he can see out of it.. So the shots and the eye drops seem to be stopping the bleeding.. I really hope he doesn't have diabetes, but the doctor didn't tell him what else could have caused this problem. He is so confident that Cole has diabetes.. Cole thinks so too, by some of the other symptoms he has.. If he does have it , I sure hope they give us a list of foods he is to stay away from, cause I have no clue.. All anyone tells me is no pasta or sugar or bread, but I'm gonna need more info than that.. I told Cole I will get a cook book and we will make it as easy for him as possible.. He is like his momma he loves sweats.. He was telling me what he ate during the day at work and I was blown away.. As much junk and candy and sweats he eats he should weigh a ton..I had no clue the amount of shit he was eating..

Hope everyone has a great day..Thanks for all your support with Cole. Love you guys!!

Got nothing to say today.. Hope eveyone has a great weekend.