Wow that weekend flew bye for me.. I knew the time would fly bye before Vegas because I'm not done with everything I wanted to do before the trip.. Like lose 10 pounds.. HA!   On that note Jeff has challenged me to not weigh myself and throw out the scales... So far it has been a week since my last weigh in.. this is a very hard challenge, but like he told me if I'm starting to like the way I look then why dose a number on the scale have to define my mood.. He can be so wise *sometimes* 

We have a second showing this morning at 10 and they have requested that we be gone.. Such a pain in the ass to load up 4 dogs , but it is a second showing and they know conventional loan only, so we will be outa here..

I put a different color on my hair yesterday.. Its a natural blonde instead of the bleach blonde.. I like it.. I get my haircut today..

Nothing else going on.. Our weekend was pretty calm just left the house to go to grocery store.. Jeff is really starting to get pissy with me.. We were making beef stew for lupper (lunch/supper)  and Jeff wanted an onion in it and we didn't have an onion so he said lets run up to the store and get one.. I told him you just run up to the store I'm gonna put a color on my hair.. He through a big fit about not going to the store with him.. I don't know why he doesn't like going to the store by himself.. I assured him that lots of men go to the store without there spouses.. He got all pissy and stormed out of the house.. Later that night he was in one of his moods where I don't do anything right.. so I called him out on it , and he just said it seems like all the little pet peves that used to not bother him are starting to.. GREAT!!    

Well I better get off here people are coming in 45min.

long day

Even though its Friday , Jeff won't be in till very late or early in the morning.. Its okay though its not like were doing anything.. I have to go to the store and get milk and cereal and a hair color today.. Whoo Hoo Joy Joy !!  So excitement going on around here..

I have been working out everyday.. 30 minutes on elept. and 30 minutes on treadmill, then I have been doing sit ups and push ups every other day.. I'm sore..  I talked to one of my old cleaning clients yesterday.. We became friends while I cleaned for her.. We never did anything but talk, but we did some serious talking.. She is 20 years older than me and her kids were my age, but we got along really well.. Any way she has lost 42 pounds since I quit cleaning for her. That was in May of 2010 . She is my height and was probably about a size 14/16 .. She has one hell of a work out regim, but she uses the bender ball three times a week.. I have one of those, I never really gave it my full attention. I would do it once then not do it for months.. So I'm thinking I might start it up again along with my tone and sweet dvd.. Once we get back from Vegas ofcourse. No need in causing serious muscle spasims right now.. But I was thinking even if I don't lose anymore weight at least my tummy would be firmer.. I'm fine with that..I think! 

My realitor called me last night and said that those people that liked it offered full price for the house , but have to go FHA.. So we had to turn it down.. We just can't go FHA right now.. Not only will we have to do all the required fixes, but we can't afford to walk away with less money.. Paying $1200 towards buyers closing would highly suck.. We just don't have enough equity in our home to do it..But I really feel okay about us not moving right now.. I need to look into some kind of volinteer work that Jordan and I can do together to get us out of this house.. I just don't know where to look. Any ideas would greatly be apprecitiated...

I hope everyone has a great weekend...

Ramblings

I got nothing new to say..

Jeff and I talked more about the house last night and have decided that when our contract ends Feb. 2 we will take the house off the market.. we will just stay put for a while longer.. He will just have to go into his employers and tell them that the house didn't sell and he can't move right now.. Its not like they were forcing the issue on him , it was all us wanting to move. So it shouldn't be a problem..

Our first project to be done will be the half built storage building. It has been waiting to be finished now for two years.. My husband likes to start a project but rarley finishes it.. It took him a year to do our master bathroom.. The guy never gets in a hurry.. That was one thing that I had to really come to terms with. Cause I'm the kind of person that wants it done now..He has made me lazy..

Next will be new sliding back doors.. Then we will be at a stand still till we have the money to move the washer and dryer out of the kitchen..

Maybe our house not selling is a blessing.. Cole really needs to stay at home to get his truck paid off.. Which I'm very proud of him.. He has been paying so much on it , it should be paid off in 5 months..
Plus right now my mom and her husband are fighting and she is thinking about leaving his sorry ass..  Why she has put up with this man for 18years is such a puzzle to me.. The woman has been married 8 times and has left all of them except my dad (he cheated both times they were married)  for way less than the way Tony treats her.. I think he has just wore her self esteem down, and the fact that she is sooo very over weight and the money they make together has kept her hanging in there.. but these last few months has really been getting to her and she is really tired of his crap.. So us moving in with them probably wouldn't be good..

I've done pretty good on my diet and exercise, except for yesterday.. I did good up untill about 6:30 when I was so hungry and the offer for cheeseburger was just too much to turn down.. then since my mind is so weak it sujested that since I already blew it with the burger I should just eat those oreo cookies (4) to be exact..Stupid Stupid Head!!  But today is a new day and the fact that I'm really liking my curves is helping a lot..course I don't go out in public so my self esteem is good..LoL

This weekend or maybe today I plan on draining my pool.. Over Thanksgiving break I ran out of clorine and the pool turned green.. It is really nasty.. I don't know if I want to fill it again or just tear it down... It was so rusted at the bottom last summer I really don't think it will last much longer, but we also just bought a new liner for last summer , so I'm really torn on what to do.. I'm kinda of tired of messing with it, but there was a few days when I really enjoyed just hanging out there all by myself soaking up the sun.. Blahhh!!

I've been reading some really sweet fanfiction.. I love the way the men in the stories always make the women feel so bueatiful , and adored.  But honestly if a man ever treated me like that I probly would be thinking okay whats the catch..

Okay so enough rambling... oh Austin turns 15 today he will be working on getting his drivers permit soon.. Lord help us!!

What a let down.. well the buyers from last week came back and they really like the house, in fact they want to buy it, but there stupid realitor didn't see that our house is selling convintional not fha.. they are approved fha.. we can not go fha right now.. too many things to fix, they are picky.. Our realitor said right now its easier to get approved fha then convintional thats why were not having any luck.. so our contract ends feb. 2 we will take it off the market then.. we need to live in the house longer in order for us to walk away with any money selling it fha, because when you sale fha your required to pay $1200 of buyers closing cost. We have only been here 5 years we were only going to walk away with $5000 selling it convintional. Well if we have to get it ready for fha and pay towards buyers we need to stay put for a while longer..Really sucks, but oh well it is what it is..
I told my realitor that from now on when realitors call for a showing to remind them its convintional only so it doesn't waiste anybodys time..

Not much going on.. I got sick at my stomach yesterday afternoon, so I kinda just laid around after my workout.. Then my realitor called and said those people from last week wanted to take a second look. I had to turn it down , because I really didn't feel like jumping up and cleaning house.. I know I should have, but my belly has been messed up for a few days.. Probably lack of FOOD!!!!    Today we have a showing at 1. I asked if it was those people and my realitor said no, she hasn't heard back from them since I cancealed..*shit* 

I have no idea what a weigh this week, but I am starting to like my curves again so I don't think I will get on the scale for a while..

aunt flow is suppose to come for a visit this weekend, but she stayed way past her welcome last month so I don't know for sure if she will show up at all this month.. Knowing my like she will come visit when I'm in Vegas.. *bitch*

Yes I'm a little grumpy this morning..

Well Happy New Year to everyone!!!   I truely hope this year is a great one for everyone..

We had a very nice and relaxing weekend.. Didn't even leave the house except for Monday to buy Jeff food for the week..

I'm really getting excited about Vegas.. I did have a slight scare when I heard about the c-4 scare at Midland airport. But then felt really good at how well they handled the situation.. So it seems that a west Texas airport can handle the big stuff after all , and now that it happened they will even be on gaurd more..

I want to go shopping for the trip so bad, but I also want to do some shopping in Vegas so I don't want to spend alot of money here.. I would like to just find some really cool Vegas type tops.. I think paired with my jeans and black boots will work.

I'm really excited about my tattoo, but still undicited on where to put it.. I think I'm still to fat to lift my shirt up to have it on my side. I know they have seen it all , but I'm just not comfortable with my body to do it.. Maybe if I was drunk :)   My mom suggested I put it on my hip and I about flipped.. No way am I dropping my pants.. and yes I where the type of jeans that I would have to lower them for that..

Well gonna get off here and get my grove on!

We had another showing yesterday, and again they asked me questions.. Also the ones that looked at it Wed. really liked it, my realitor told me that they had to go back to the bank and see if they could get an extra $5000 if they can they are going to put a bid in on the house... So we will see..

I have been doing really really good on diet and exercise, but I think my scale is broken cause I don't think it is possible for me to lose 4 pounds in one day not to mention the 2 pounds the day before.. Thats a total of 6 pounds in one week... Hmm wait a minute maybe its water weight then the 6 pounds could be true.. Aunt Flow stayed way longer than normal this month and all the salt in the Christmas food, well maybe I did lose 6 pounds.. I will weigh again in the morning to see. I really hope the weight is true!!

Today I am taking Jordan to spend some of his Christmas money and to go to grocery stores.. Yes stores cause you can't get everything at Sams so I have to go to Walmart too. I really hate that I wish Sams would just carry everything I need..

I tried this face primer stuff that Sam gave me and I really like it, It keeps my makeup on so much better. The problem is I don't wash my face at night cause I have never really wore that much makeup and by night time it was usually off, but with this primer it stayed on and I didn't wash it off so now my face is broke out like a dam teenager... I saw Selma Hyacke on Rachel show a while back and she has come out with some face stuff that suppose to be pretty good.. She claims all her products are less than $20 and sold at Walgreens.. I'm thinking about trying some of it.. I really like my Dr. Brandt , but that shit is high.. Oh how I miss the good old days when noxima was my face wash.. Stupid hormones had to go and f**k that cheap face wash up...

Jeff will be off Monday so I probably won't be back on here till Tuesday.. Hope everyone has a Happy New Year.. Be safe