Nothing going on! Have to go get dog food and coffee so I will be leaving the house today..I might go into Maurice's and look at jeans.. Not sure cause I don't weigh what I wanted to weigh before I bought new jeans, but I need jeans so bad.. I let ya know

great weekend

I had the best weekend and we didn't even do anything.. Friday Jeff got home about 6 and we ate La Esperanza. take out of course.. It was good we haven't ate there in a while.. Then later that night I had a really long and heart felt talk with Jeff about how he is making me feel and what I was needing from him..I'm so glad I finially opened up to him.. He didn't realize that what he was doing was pushing me away. He promised to try harder and give me the things that I need from him.. He started with my needs being met two times Friday night *wink*  He hasn't gone two times since before we got married. So I was very very pleased... Then Saturday morning started out great as well.. Then we left the house to run errands and he was so loving and actually made me feel like his wife. Except for one time when we ran into an old friend of his , he didn't introduce me to his friend so I just stood there like an idoit.. But I decided not to let that one thing ruin our day.. We finially bought our anniversary gift , its a new blue ray player.. Then when we got home he hooked it up and we watched movies and just enjoyed the rain.. He would flirt with me and say sweet things to me all weekend.. Sunday morning was fricken awesome !  As for the rest of the day we just watched movies and he began a book.. I really hope this new side of him continues.
Its going to be a long week , he had to go to West Virginia

Well the water pills are helping I lost two pounds since yesterday. I still feel really bloated , but hopefully it will all be gone soon.. I think I need to find another type of drink. Bailey's is just too fattening.. I drank last night , so I will try not to drink tonight.. HAA

Last night about 11:30 I got up to get a drink of water and Jordan's light was on and his door was closed.. When I opened the door he had his lap top out . I was like what are you doing? He said next weeks school.. I said no way. He turned the computer around and it was his school.. I almost cried.. I have been trying to get him to do more school so he could get caught up grade level wise.. Maybe he will really start doing more. Hopefully this wasn't a fluke.. I told him how proud I was of him and then left him alone... He doesn't have school on Friday's so for him to be doing school on Thursday night was really a good site to see !  So far his school is going very well he seems to be catching on to the work alot faster than he did last lesson.. Maybe his age and maturity are finially kicking in.. Who know's I think I better stop talking about it before I jinks it..

I am retaining water for some reason.. Maybe I have started drinking too much water again and just didn't realize it. Today I will cut back my intake..I'm very proud of myself. Yesterday I ate really healty and exercised and didn't drink.. I wanted too really bad , but every time I went to the bathroom or walked in front of a mirror I would pull my shirt up over my fat belly and squeze it and say to myself look at your fat self you don't need a drink.. It worked I was sad and miserable all night ..HAAA So I weighed this morning all excited to see a few less pounds due to my hard work yesterday and I  almost cried I gained two pounds. WTF !!   So it must be water or maybe sodium from the soy sauce yesterday. So this morning I dug around in my kitchen to find my water pills. Hopefully it won't take long to get the water weight off..I know its water cause I can feel it even in my feet..

Nothing else is going on I live such a boring life.. Of course I would rather have boring over drama..

Oh one thing I'm so glad we didn't buy Adele tickets because she has had to canceal her whole American tour.. That would have been a pain in the ass to get refunds..

I suck

Well yesterday started out great. I walked at the koa, even had a very nutritous and low fat lunch. Then boredom snuck in about 4 and I ate two slices of pizza and some peanut brittle.. Then at 7 I wanted something sweet so I made me 1 drink. Then I wanted something salty so I made me a small plate of cheese nacho's.. Then I was so upset with my weakness I got sad and went to bed..Of course I couldn't sleep so I stayed up and read till about 1... Then what I read really made me want my husband  * wink wink*  which sucked cause he wasn't home..
 I weighed myself this morning and I'm not pleased at all.. So today is a new day I will be stronger with my decisions about what goes into my mouth..

I need to clean house today , but at the moment I don't want to.. I want to go shopping.. I won't though.. I'm getting another child support check this week it was mailed out yesterday.. Yea!! Not much of nothing happening.. I'm hungry , but don't know what I want.. I need more coffee, later..

bad weekend

The weekend really sucked.. I didn't leave the house not one time which is no big deal I often go for days without leaving the house. Jeff cooked again on his homemade smoker. It works really good. He cooked a pork butt. It was his first time and we didn't realize that it would take 12 hours for it to be ready. But now we know. It was really good , we ate it on Sunday and will be eating on it today too. I read most of the weekend and he was on the computer. then Sunday morning the guys went to the gun range. It was nice to have the house all to myself. Jeff wanted me to go , but I really feel its good for the guys to have guy time, they really don't get enough of that. Plus I was still hurt from the rejection from Jeff. I know he loves me I don't know why I let my emotions get the better of me.. We talked about it last night , we will see what happens..  Its really my problem not his and its not fair that keep making him a part of it.. I have started exercising again and it feels good. I didn't drink last night and I'm gonna try not to drink all week since I drank so much last week. Just laundry and cleaning today.