I need to clean house today , but at the moment I don't want to.. I want to go shopping.. I won't though.. I'm getting another child support check this week it was mailed out yesterday.. Yea!! Not much of nothing happening.. I'm hungry , but don't know what I want.. I need more coffee, later..

bad weekend

The weekend really sucked.. I didn't leave the house not one time which is no big deal I often go for days without leaving the house. Jeff cooked again on his homemade smoker. It works really good. He cooked a pork butt. It was his first time and we didn't realize that it would take 12 hours for it to be ready. But now we know. It was really good , we ate it on Sunday and will be eating on it today too. I read most of the weekend and he was on the computer. then Sunday morning the guys went to the gun range. It was nice to have the house all to myself. Jeff wanted me to go , but I really feel its good for the guys to have guy time, they really don't get enough of that. Plus I was still hurt from the rejection from Jeff. I know he loves me I don't know why I let my emotions get the better of me.. We talked about it last night , we will see what happens..  Its really my problem not his and its not fair that keep making him a part of it.. I have started exercising again and it feels good. I didn't drink last night and I'm gonna try not to drink all week since I drank so much last week. Just laundry and cleaning today.

weird

So a very strange thing happened to me today. Jeff left this morning at 4 . I could not go back to sleep so I started reading some fanfiction.. I was up when Cole left at 6:15 I should have just got out of bed then , but I was too comfy.. Well I fell back to sleep because the next thing I knew it was 10:20. Yuk I hate wasting my morning like that.. Well when I got up out of bed I saw a boot impression at the foot of my bed. I stepped over it thinking hmm thats weird cause Jeff and Cole both leave there shoes at the front door outside. So while I was peeing I thought maybe it was Jeff with a different shoe on. I came back and looked at the foot print. yes just one foot print. I just blew off thinking nothing more about it. Well through out the morning I eventually walked on the foot print. When Jeff and Cole got home I asked them about there shoes and neither one of them had been the room with boots on.. So now they both think I imagined the whole thing. I know I didn't. I know I saw a boot print in the carpet. So now I'm a little freaked out cause no one believes me. Also if there really was someone in my room why didn't the dogs bark and why only one boot print?

Okay on a plus side I was really starting to think I have a drinking problem. Well I talked to my mom today about it getting her opinion on the matter. I really like drinking now and she said as long as I wasn't waking up wanting to drink all was good. So whew in the clear!

what to do today

Nothing going on just another quiet day around here. Gonna do some laundry and have to go to the pet store to get dog food. I might go next door to Maurice's and check out some jeans.. I looked at Dillards the other day passing through and mostly all the ones I saw had bling on the pockets.. Like I said I was just passing through so hopefully I can find jeans without the stuff on the pockets. I'm 40 not 20 , I don't think bling on my ass would look right.. Speaking of ass the other day Jeff and I were watching some talk show and it was talking about Spanx and how they have a piece with ass pading.. We both laughed at the time , but I looked that shit up on there web site. I need all the help I can get. I'm tired of having a bruised tale bone from sitting.. Anyway $89 was how much that cost.. Sorry , but I don't think I want an ass that bad..What really makes me so made about Spanx is back in the 80's when I wore boot jeans I used to cut the feet out of my panty hose and where them under my jeans for the smooth firm look.. I still wear them under some of my garmets sometimes.. Now Spanx is making a killing off practically the same thing.

I did exercise yesterday on the eleptical. I then watched one of the exercise video's from Netflix to see if I liked it or not. It looked pretty fun. Some of the steps I used to do in Zumba. So today I might give it a try..

Hell Froze Over!

I received a child support check today.. Hopefully they will keep coming..

Ooops !!

No word yet on the previous owners buying the house. My realitor did tell me that they hadn't looked at the house before they offered the $10,000 less. So this was there first time to see what all we had done to the place.. So now they know we will not be coming off our list price.. This is what we have done in the 4 years ;  1 whole side new privacy fence, installed new side gate that didn't exsist before, cut trees down, french drain (because the den flooded the first month we lived here), paint almost whole inside house, remodeled both bathrooms from top to bottom, tore out kitchen cabinets to open it up to dinning room, put in dishwasher, new stainless sink, RO system, 3 new faucets, hot water heater, 3 sets wood blinds, repaired very dangerous electrical issue in kitchen, repaired plumbing , 2 new toilets (golf ball flushers) not cheap, ceiling fans in every room, new kitchen light fixtures, tore out wall in kitchen for bigger fridge to fit, new glass door, dogie door, I think thats it..

Haven't exercised at all this week, but I will start today..Monday we had the people come, then I just read all day. Yesterday I read and got my nails done. I'm so hung up on the fanfiction I'm reading.. Her sex scenes are really really good. Course on the down side of that is Jeff isn't home. Haa. Last night he was home , but he was too tired. I really hate it when he doesn't want me.. Makes me feel very fat and ugly. I have had an epofony , I think one other reason why I drink by myself is because I feel sexy when I drink.. I like the way it makes me feel. I'm not thinking oh I'm fat and ugly. Its like it brings out this skinny , pretty person in my head.. I know I'm weird.. I just let my gaurd down and since I'm usually home by myself (well except Jordan) I really enjoy it.. But I'm starting to see a problem and it scares me a bit..One I can't lose weight if I keep drinking, two I find myself watching the clock for an approiate time to start drinking..Its usually around 6 and not every night just when I'm feeling lonely..And this lonliness happens even when Jeff is home.. Okay enough boohoo  SORRY!

Temple sent me a text last night asking me to go to Spams with her. I told her I couldn't cause Jeff was home. She didn't text me back.. Honestly if I'm going to a bar I want to go to dance not sit in some  slum bar..

Jeff has 8 days of vacation he has to take before the first of the year. We were trying to save them for when we move, but he was told he has to put in for the days off now cause only two drivers out at a time. So last night we just picked randome days off. If we sell the house he will just have to go to his boss and explain he needs to switch days off.

Tia I saw on facebook that your worried about Jason's school. Last year when I pulled Jordan out of school we had to test him to see where he needed to be(grade level wise)  there was a free program on the Switched on Schoolhouse web site that we used. You should try it out. He may be above where he is at that is why he is so bored..

Hello there, sorry I haven't been on for a while.. I got caught up reading again.. I have a twitter friend that writes fanfiction and she's pretty good.. Sometimes the words she inserts into her writting are not the correct words, but english is not her first language ( she's from Indonesia) so I'm sure that is pretty difficult for her at times.. You know kinda like how wet backs say ' get off the car'  or my favorite ' I barely got off the car'  when really what is suppose to be said is 'get out of the car' 

Jeff got his smoker finished enough to cook on. So yesterday he cooked us ribs.. They were sooo good.

The people that made an offer on the house last week came to look at it again this morning. It was the ones we bought the house from.. Too funny.. There realitor didn't show up , but I let them come on in since I knew who they were.. While in the house my realitor called and said they needed to reschedule cause the other realitor couldn't make it. I told her they were already in the house, because I knew who they were.. The people really liked all the improvements done to the house.. Her parents live across the street. So maybe they will buy it back...

I got a whole bunch of exercise video's off netflix over the weekend and will begin one of them tomorrow.. I have decided to not go out to the koa for a while. I'm just going to exercise here at the house. Its just easier to stay home..

Cole gave me money to get my nails done so I have an appointment tomorrow for that.. I got new running shoes on Saturday. Nothing else has been going on..