ugh!

So yesterday was a very non-diet day.  I'm about to start and I was craving everything.. First mistake is I went and got donuts after koa. Second mistake was I ate them for breakfast. Third mistake I ate them for supper..

I am exercising here at the house this morning and tomorrow.. Trying to change things up a bit..I wish my body would hurry up and catch up cause I feel so exhausted. I slept till 9 this morning. Jeff and I were joking about how our mornings have changed. He used to be the one to sleep in and now its me. I really don't like sleeping that late. My body must be really tired.. Getting old Sucks!

My step-sister is so jealous of my little brother and his wife staying at my mom's house that she is trying to start a family feud. So we will all get pissed and Tony(my stepdad) will make them move out. But her plan isn't working. We aren't fighting about what she is saying.. We are just ignoring it.. Besides they will be moving out soon. They put an offer on a house and it was excepted so now they are just waiting on inspections. My step-sis. name is Kristy she has a son Kamen he is 14 and has lots of medical problems of the head.. Not to sound mean, but that boy aint right. He is mean with no consious.. He is autism, add, adhd. I'm not sure what all is wrong with him.. He got kicked out of public school last year thats why he has to be homeschooled now. He is part black so Tony has never acknowledge him as a grandson. So many problems with that family.. any way what started all this mess with Kristy was when we were there for the weekend. On Saturday we went to eat at El Chicos. Mom and Tony invited Anthony (my step bro.)  to go eat with us because apparently he is always at work and never gets to go when everyone goes to eat. He said yes. This is my second time to meet him. He was very nice . Well Kristy found out that we all went and didn't ask her to go so thats why she is pissed at everyone. They didn't ask her to go because they were buying and they just took her out to eat the weekend before.  But she doesn't count that.. She is such a mooch. She doesn't work she lives off of disability and Kamens  SS.  and food stamps and mom and Tony pay the part of the house payment that hud doesn't pay. Her car is paid for . (they bought it for her) So all she has is electric,water  and car ins. Mom and Tony pay for her cable and phone, but she doesn't see that as help she just expects that. My sister in law Danile she is married to Calob called me yesterday to let me know what Kristy is saying about me. I guess since my other brother Lawrence never goes to my mom's she's got nothing to say about him. Anyway , Danile said that me and mom talk all the time about everyone. That I'm a motor mouth to be careful of me.. Haaa. I told Danile yep Kristy is right me and mom do talk everyday. Thank God , because there was a time when I was married to Doug that we didn't talk for months. and yes we do talk about everyone, how else am I to know how everyone is doing. Also that I would never say anything about anybody that I wouldn't say to there face. So Kristys plan failed again...I feel kinda sorry for people that are so unhappy with themselves that they have to make trouble for happy ones.

I'm thinking about going on slimfast again. I really want this 20  pounds off by Christmas.. I would love for it to be off sooner cause its going to be jean shopping time very soon. And I don't have any that fit. But I don't want to buy any till I'm the size I want to be..UGH!!!!  I curse you FOOD

I did it , I got up and went to walk this morning. I did it 3 times . Then went over to Walmart to pick up a few things. Now I'm finially home enjoying my coffee.. Ahhh. Going to make lowfat hot dogs for lupper. We call it lupper because its halfway between lunch and supper.. Airgo lupper!  I did buy some really juicy looking sausage style for Jeff and boys. They don't like my 40cal weiners.. Not much of nothing going on today, might do some laundry and clean a bit since all I did was lay around and watch netflix yesterday. Jordan did his school yesterday and it only took him maybe an hour. I tried to talk him into doing more , but he said it was just the first day of school and he needed to ease back into it.. HAAA !   He did tell me that he does plan on working more at a time just probably not this week..

So happy that all the fall shows started up this week. Last night two and half men was pretty good. Looking forward to seeing how the whole Ashton thing is going to work out. Tonight its Glee and a couple of others that I will have to dvr. Its pretty sad when your life revolves around the tv shows.

Don't know whats wrong

Saturday I woke up early and felt great. I went to the koa and walked/run 3 times. Other than the bottoms of my feet hurting I felt good. Then at about 4  we went to Mandy's house to see the baby. Jeff was so rude he embarassed me. First off he didn't want to hold his nephew. Okay fine he's little and yes that can be scary. But then he kicked back the recliner and put a movie on his phone and sat there and watched netflix on his phone while the rest of us talked and held little Ryh. I was suprised his mom didn't comment on his behavior. I sure did when we got in the car. Then we came home and boom it just hit me. My whole body hurt and my ears feel stopped up. I have no energy. I went to bed. Then Sunday I still didn't feel right, but I had to get the laundry done and get Jordan's school downloaded so he could start today. It was a bad day. This morning I feel a bit better , but still don't feel a hundred percent. I need to go to the store , but I don't see that happening. I'm going to take a shower and lay around . I hope!

Alot happened yesterday

Mandy's water broke about 7:15 last night. We headed up to the hospital. She was at a 5 but not considered in labor. The doctors didn't want to give her anything to start labor since she looked like it was going to happen on her own. We stayed till 10:30 . Jeff needed to get to bed. Vonda called me at 11:50 to let me know Mandy was at a 9 (I asked her to call )  So I huried up and got back up to the hospital. He was born at 12:21am , Sept.16th, 6lbs-3, 18 and three quarters long. He has so much hair that at bath time the nurse  had to use a comb. Its long and curly when wet. I didn't get to see all that bath stuff with Jordan so I stayed and watched everything. I got home about 2:30. Mandy was getting her tubes tied at 6 this morning. We will go back up there after lunch.
Austin is in love. To see a child so in love with there new baby brother almost made me feel guilty that we didn't have another child. Austin amazed me, he is going to be such a great big brother to that little guy. Oh I guess I forgot to tell you his name. Its John Ryan. He will be called Ryan. We will call him Ryh because I already have a niece named Ryann. Corey's mom came up with that nick name. She is going to call him that too.

Onto new stuff.. Yesterday Sept. 15th was Bailey's birthday. Temple's baby that died. Well evey year I have been there for her on his birth and death dates. So yesterday my heart was so heavy with grief for her that I went over to Greg's where she is living. She was shocked to see me. I didn't waste anytime with what I had to say to her about what Misty told Mandy. I was so hurt and angry for her lieing to me. I wanted to know what I did to deserve that. Well come to find out what Misty told Mandy was a complete lie. This is what really happened, Oh and after she told me her side of the story. Brittney , Scotts girlfriend showed up to exercise and told me the same story. So this is what Temple said happened. When she left my house she did go over to Scotts house, but Scott answered the door not Misty. She had a few laughs and beers with him and Brit. and Misty , before they all decided to go to Spams. Then she met Greg and has been with him ever since. He is good to her , she has her own room , but they are messing around. Bill is even letting the girls come over without  supervision. She is goining to go to Cosmo. school to get her nail lisence. She is trying to get back on her feet and Greg is helping her. She said she hasn't done any drugs since she left that abusive guy. She was pretty upset that Misty would lie on her like that. She said it seems like everytime she is on the right pathe that someone tries to knock her back down again. We had a really really good talk. She is so skinny, but she did make the comment that living with Greg she is gaining weight cause he always cooks. So thats good. She needs to get more saline put back in her plug so she can keep more food down. She had her stomach done in Mexico a few years ago. I don't recommend Mexico for this procedure that really screwed her up.

Today I will be back up at the hospital. Hope everyone has a great weekend!

sleepy

I bailed on Tia again this morning. I'm very angry at myself. In all the years that I have been exercising by myself I have wanted someone to exercise with. Its no fun alone. There was a time that Mandy walked with me, but even then she was unreliable. I would get so frustrated at her cause I counted on her to exercise with. Then she just stopped completly and I had to make a choice to continue alone. I got used to it and then began to enjoy the alone time as me time.  Now I'm at the stage where I need an exercise buddy again and I'm the one bailing out..Maybe its because I have been on my own schedule for so long , maybe its because my husband alarm went off at 3 this morning and I couldn't fall back to sleep until 4:30,  maybe I have just gotten in a rutt..We start school on Monday so that will put us back on some sort of schedule , maybe then I will be able to get up early and meet Tia at the koa.
When I'm through with my coffee this morning Jordan and I are going to the Koa. It will be good for him to get out of the house.

A young lady came and looked at the house yesterday. The showings are slowing down , maybe 1 a week now. My mom had a dream that we got a contract on the house. I hope her dream comes true.

Okay so this is totally off the wall, but did anyone watch Survivor last night?  I think I'm just becoming a horny old cougar. Well I can't be a cougar cause I'm not having sex with younger guys, but boy I'm a lookin. That Ozzy guy last night was fricken hot!  I don't know what is happening to me, I used to never look at guys, really , honestly because I was always to ashamed by my looks , I just always kept my head down never noticing anything. I know this guy is on tv, but I have noticed I'm even noticing men in real life. What is come over me?  This can't be good !

I want to get out of this town and do something fun. I asked Jeff if he would like to take a day trip somewhere on Saturday, like maybe to Austin to show Jordan the Capitol or San Antonio and go on the river walk. Just to get away for the day. And he said no , he wants to work on his smoker.. POOOOP !!!  I understand he travels all week so I know he wants to just chill at home when he's off. I think Jordan and I are going to have to become more independent and start having day trips during the week.

just another day

Well I drank too much last night so I didn't get up and go to the koa this morning.. MY BAD!!  I'm going to do the elepitical here in a few. I think I'm going to give my zumba kinect another try also to change up things. I'll have to get Jordan to connect it for me I have forgotten how :(  I did pretty good minus the drinking yesterday. I didn't eat anything else after I had lunch. I wish alcahol wasn't so fattening... I have dropped a pound so at least I'm back in the 150's.

I'm really trying to convince Jordan into going to the bday party on Sunday. I haven't had a chance to tell him about Leah's son going. I would really like for them two to meet. They both are the same age and love xbox.. I got side tracked last night or I would have told him then.

I'm so pathetic, the good news is I wasn't the only one..That Breaking Dawn trailer was so close to the book that it gives me great hope that the movie will be fricken awesome.. I know they have to change up parts to make it more exciting , but it only made it better not worse.

I want to get out of this house, I want to go shopping . Of course now that I've gained weight nothing will fit but shoes...I need new shoes!

i'm up

I'm so glad I got up and went and walked this morning. I'm going to try really hard to continue to get up early and go walk. Its just with our lifestyle there is no need to get up early cause we have all day to get done what needs to be done. But I enjoyed the walk this morning so I'm gonna try to continue. I did somewhat okay on my eating yesterday , but I didn't exercise. I didn't feel good, so I mostly laid around and watched Harry Potter movies. Probably do the same today, but at least my exercise is done.