wow

After reading Laura's and Tia's blog yesterday it made me realize how very lucky I am.. Sorry no offence to yall, but I am in a great place in my life... I may complain about no romance with my husband , but he is my bestfriend in the whole world. I can count on him for everything.. I don't have any girlfriends to hang out with. Thats why I like blogging so much.. We all have such very busy lives (taking care of our familys) and to me it helps us to stay connected. Even if its just short and boring.. Constant communication grows relationships.. and it takes more than one person to keep that relationship alive..I look back at mine and Temple's friendship and my heart hurts.. I tried so despertaly to hang on to that friendship, but she was letting me go.. It took me sitting on the stand in the court room to realize that she no longer cared for me the way that I cared about her.. Friendships come and go.. Its a fact of life. People grow apart. So I feel very comforted by blogging , It helps me to hang on to our speradic friendship.. I have never been really close to any of you. I always felt like I was the fifth wheel. Don't get me wrong I feel very liked by yall. and I like all of yall. Its just yall have stories and stories about things that yall have shared together. Which is awesome.. but while yall were making all these wonderful memories I was at home.. So thats how I feel like a fifthe wheel... After losing Temple yall have become so important to me.. I never want to lose another friend and I call each and every one of you my friend.. I know I'm being emotional, but thats who I am.. I am alway emotional , I cry at movies, I cry reading books, I cry when I'm mad, Hell I even cry with certain commericials .  Maybe thats why I always make all those stupid facial expressions. I am emotional... Love you guys!

Here we go

Tomorrow between 6-7 strangers will be in my home... I feel kinda of shocked that people are wanting to come look at my house.. I mean I know its up for sale, but you never really think someone will come and look.. I'm having a really hard time with strangers in my home.. I have to have the dogs out of the house, so I think we will just load up in the car and park across the street and down a bit so I can keep an eye out.. I know dumb right.

yea ! school is done

Jordan is just now starting his summer break.. He was suppose to be finished with school July 28th, but we had a few set backs.. Not too bad Aug 3rd isn't too far away from original end date.. The only thing that confused us was when he finished his last test and past it the whole program started all over again from the very first days work... It really confused us.. It was like oh no he didn't pass and its making him start all over, but that wasn't the case.. Were only giving him this month off unless were moving then he will start school when were settled.. The beauty of homeschooling we set our own schedule... Mandy's baby shower is this Sunday talk about feeling like an outsider... Here I am the sister-in-law that was part host in all the other baby showers and I'm excluded this time... In fact other than her mom and aunt I don't know the other people hosting the shower.. We are so not close anymore..I went on the Target registry this morning and saw what she named the baby.. I didn't even know that..The confusing thing on our part is she is naming her baby boy Ryan.. That means my boys will have two first cousins with the name Ryan.. One a boy and one a girl.. Were going to have to come up with a nick name for Mandy's Ryan cause Lawrence's Ryann has been here already for 4 years..Kinda funny though if you think about it  Jeff's sister names baby Ryan and my brother named his daughter Ryann.. Oh and my first cousin Crystal the one that we went to the crawfish boil her oldest boy is named Ryan , so we will have 3 Ryan's in the family... I have the blahs really bad.. I know I need to exercise, but I think I need a change of scenery... Tired of my tredmil and eleptical.. But its too hot to go outside .. I need to just push through and do it.. I know once I start back it will make me feel better.

I'm in a mood

I'm sure the mood I'm in is because its close to the monthly visitor, but man I can't shake it... I need some lovin.. After reading The Hunger Games and now back on Twilight I'm feeling a bit lonely... Jeff says I'm always like this when I read those kind of books.. I can't help it , I feel cheated sometimes... Don't get me wrong you have heard me say this before . My husband is awesome.. I love him very much , but there's just no romance in him at all.. The last time he held my hand was in Vegas, and that was the first time he held my hand... I know I'm being stupid.. I used to think he didn't want to hold my hand because I was fat and ugly and he didn't want anyone to know we were together.. Well 16 years later I still feel like that...again I know I'm being stupid.. like I said I'm in a mood... Cole and Sam are having some problems .. She is bored with there relationship.. She told him they are in a rutt... I tried to explain to him that her watching him play x-box is not fun.. It reminds me of way back in the day how I would sit on the curb and watch you know who work on his car with another you know who... It really sucked! I told Cole what he needed to do to spice things back up and rekindle what they have.. Hopefully this relationship can be saved.. I really love this girl... Well pictures are posted for the house . They should be on Realitor.com by tomorrow.. They look really funny.. I don't think the pictures are very good at all.. But at the moment I really don't care if it draws people in or not... Right now I don't care if we move...I need a drink!!!!

House for Sale

Well its a done deal.. Pictures taken , paper work done, sign in the yard...So now we will see if it sale's. If not no biggy we just stay put...

clean house

OMG!!   Finialy done cleaning this house.. I clean the bathrooms once a week, but I vacuum, sweep, mop, and dust twice a week. because of the dogs. But today I scrubbed base boards, door jams literally every square inch of this house.. It took me 5 hours to clean it, but man does it smell and look awesome... Brendy is coming over tomorrow to take pictures and us do the paper work.. So by Wednesday it should be listed to sale.. Now I think I will go sit in my chair and relax...

weekend

We are finished.. we worked so hard Saturday to get everything done and we did... the only thing I need to do is clean which I will do today..We decided not to spend the $65 to fix that little spot in the carpet.. we will wait to see if its requested to be fixed.. you never know who ever buys the house may know how to repair carpet.. Were selling conventional anyway so it doesn't have to be perfect..The house really looks great.. I told Jeff I was having second thoughts about moving cause now we have a new house without all the moving part... He didn't find it funny.. when I told my mom the same thing she just said NOOOOOO  don't think that way...I really do dreed the moving part.. Laura who did you say you used to move.. Jeff thought it was a great idea to get some quates....  In my spare time this weekend I finished all three books from The Hunger Games .. I really liked book one and two, but third book really broke my heart, I'm still thinking about it...I should have stopped reading it and made up my own ending..My ending would have been better... Speaking about the end of the book I felt like the author lost her edge or something it just felt like it was rushed to be done... Now on to re-reading Twilight.. Well after I clean...