had a great day

My day was so good up until about an hour ago. I went for my walk, went to the beach, weighed and discovered I lost 2.5 pounds from this morning. Like I told Laura, I think from now on I'm weighing after my workout. Then my mom calls and wants me to watch Glenn Beck. Well for those of you that don't know this, I don't want to know when the world is gonna end. I can't stop it from happening so why worry about things that I have no control over. Like our President , we know he needs to go, but we can't do a darn thing about him. So anyway I watch Glenn Beck cause my momma told me to, and yep I'm right we are doomed. I am a Christian, Jesus is my Lord and Savior and I am going to heaven I believe that with all my heart and sole, When the time comes for me to choose God and have my head cut off, or live the way I'm told I will choose God!! I really hope that all of us are raptured out of here first, cause according to Revelations its gonna be a fricken scary movie here on earth, and I don't like scary movie's.

update on Mandy

Great news.. Mandy's diagnoses has changed its not cancer yet. They have found it in the stage before it becomes cancer. So now she will get to carry the baby to term and then the doctor will scrape her out and fix her up. They also found out its a boy..

Not much

Sorry got nothing.. So nice to not have any drama going on.Yesterday my hubby turned 40 , I asked him if he felt 40 he said he actually felt about 46. YUK!!! I don't feel 40 , I feel like I'm 35. I sure hope I don't look 40. I did get a compliment from Sam's (Cole's girlfriend) Dad. When we went to that birthday party on the 7th. Apparently Sam's dad thinks all older women look old and wrinkly. Sam's mom does, but I think its the years of smoking that does that to your face. Any way her dad said I didn't look old and wrinkly. He told her this after we left the party. Still its a compliment. I haven't weighed yet this week, I'm trying to wait until Friday. For the past two days Jeff told me I look skinny thats nice to hear. I'm seriously having a Baileys problem. I am wanting a drink every night instead of drinking my slimfast. Its just so sweet and yummy. I would rather have that then slimfast. Plus it feels me up way better than slim fast or cereal..I know your suppose to stay away from alcohol when your trying to lose weight, but does one drink instead of food really hurt your diet? I didn't have one last night but I did Monday. What do yall think?

What a weekend

After Friday's stressful day I am very pleased to say we had an absolutely relaxing weekend. Jeff cooked steaks for Jordan's bday dinner instead of us going out to eat. Which was way cheaper for us. Actually I asked Jordan to choose. We could all go out to eat , but his gift would be less. Or we could eat here at the house and his gift would be more. He's 14 ofcourse he wanted the bigger gift. Altogether we still spent $100 on his gift and food, but I still think we got out cheaper. We were going to go to the movies too, but Jordan changed his mind. He is so much like his daddy, such a home body. Also very easy to please..We all just laid around and watched rented movies and ate all fricken weekend. I have come to realize that when I give myself a time limit on losing weight I totally fail. I wanted to lose 5 pounds for our swim party that is this weekend and I have not had any dedication what so ever to lose weight. I think there is something mental going on there. I am not going to weigh until Friday this week. I am going to go walk and try to eat healthy. I do not weigh what I want to, but I am starting to like the way I look. I would still like to lose 20 pounds , but I think if I just lost 10 more I would be very pleased. I don't want to be bony , I like a little flesh it makes the body look soft and not like a skeleton. Jeff wants me to stay right where I'm at. He is already complaining about my hip bone sticking out. I told him that only happens when I'm on my back ..HAAA !!!!

Oh , I forgot

I forgot to tell yall one more thing that happened yesterday. Okay so Temple can see her girls as long as someone supervises, well guess what? Bill's fucking lawyer calls me at 6 yesterday and wants to know if I will supervise all the visits. What a terrible spot to put me in. If I say yes that messes with our family time if I say no that means Temple doesn't get to see her kids. I told the ass hole that I had to talk to my husband and call him back. Jeff and I decided that for our best interest they would have to find someone else to supervise. This was really hard for me, but I do feel it was best for my family. Bill did call me today at about 4 , I didn't answer the phone. He left a really nice message telling me he understood why I said all that I said on the stand , and that he wasn't upset with me. For someone who hates drama I sure did get sucked into it.

Friday's court adventure....

So I had to go to court on Friday for Bill and Temple. I had to be there at 9 am. There was a lot of us, CPS, school principle,2cops,babysitter, neighbor of Bills, two friends, and Art and Nikki. We all got sworn in then were told to wait in the hall. The CPS,cops, principle got called in right away. The rest of us sat and waited. Finially at 11:30 we were released for lunch , be back at 1. So at 1 we all sat and waited for ever. Then at 4 I got called in. Yea me !  Not gonna sugar coat it, IT FUCKING SUCKED!!!! Here are two people that I have known for 25 years , that I love very much, that I have to tell all the secrets that they have told me. Both of them got bashed , they both have made stupid mistakes. Temple at least smiled at me and nodded, Bill never looked up at me. And he was the one that had me subpoena. I guess he thought he hasn't done anything wrong, but he was wrong. He is a fricken stalker and I told what he has done to her in the past. My testamony was the only one that was heard, all the other witnesses never got called. Bill won sole custody of the girls. Temple can see them 4 hours on Saturday and 4 hours on Sunday supervised only. I fucking hate Bill for taking the girls away from Temple like this. She is a great mom, and he is so obsessed with her ,he can't stand the fact that she has moved on. So he is trying to take away everyone from her so she would come back to him. He even told her Friday after the ruleing that she could still come home.Temple's dad came in from Houston to be with her in court, I told Temple that she should move to Houston with him. Get a job and then come back and fight for the girls. Now Art and Nikki get to have there say in court. The judge requested DNA testing . Art is wanting full custody of Jaylee. Temple called me last night to apoligize for all that I had to go through on the stand, I have not heard from Bill. Jeff said we are done with him. Any man that takes away children from a great mom is no friend of ours. What hurt Temple's case was she is dating a 23 year old that just got out of jail for punching a cop. He served 2 years. Temple should have kept the boyfriend on the down low. Her mistake. Also she has gone a little wild. But not when she had the kids. So fricken messed up. Its always okay for the guy , but never for the girl. So sad for her...

Shopping

Yesterday was very interesting. I was planning on going swim suit shopping and Temple pulls up. So she came with me. I haven't seen her since August. We have been talking here and there, alot the last few days, but its just not the same with her. I don't think I will ever feel the same way about her again. I still feel like she is not telling me something. She has always been like that with me. Her boyfriend that is the ex-con. That Bill lead me to believe went to jail for drugs. Didn't go to jail for drugs. He past out drunk in a bar and medics and police were called, when he woke up he freaked out having every one all over him , so he hit a cop. He served two years. She is really robbing the craddle with this guy. He is only 23 years old. She is just having fun with him, and needing the moral support. I still am upset with her about not getting a job. She is not going to even have a chance at getting the kids with out a job. I really don't know why she hasn't gotten one. Except for the fact that she is lazy and doesn't want to work..I really hope that she at least gets proper visitation rights. Okay so on to fun stuff. I did finially find a swim suit it kinda looks like the one I wanted from Victoria Secrets , but much much cheaper. It only took me all fricken day to find one. And I found it at Sears. Of all places. The old lady store is really trying to make a come back. There were alot of cute and hip things in the store. I do have to go back and exchange the bottoms today. I didn't try them on yesterday and they are too low cut for me. Today is Jordan's birthday he is 14. I can't believe he is so big. His birthday money is burning a hole in his pocket so he wants to go spend some of it today. So I will be running again today, which I have found keeps me from eating...I haven't weighed yet, really scared to cause this period has been rough on me. I have ate so much junk and really haven't exercised like I should be. So I have a question. I am not very stylest so I need some advice. Have yall seen all the cute bathing suit cover ups? Should I get one to wear over my swim suit even though I always wear shorts for my bottoms. My swim suit is a tankini. I really want to dress cute for the swim party that we are going to. I am probably going to be the fatest one there, so I at least want to look hip.. Thanks!