Sorry its been a while

I was going to blog yesterday , but the stupid electricty went out.. Then once it came back on I wasn't in the mood to sit at the computer.. Jeff was off on Monday and Tuesday it was nice. He cooked for us and we just hung out at the house and had a few drinks.. He gets so excited with new cooking equipment. He got a dutch oven for fathers day and couldn't wait to use it.. It will be a great thing to use if we ever go camping.. He says we are, but its too hot right now. Maybe in September..We tore down the pool and hauled it off to the dump.. I'm so glad that I had decided to drain it and not use it anymore. Once we pulled the liner off the whole bottom of the pool metal was rusted threw and there was holes . I don't think it would had held up.. Then that would have been a mess.. Were going to try and make another dump run next month. He keeps so much shit that he never uses are thats broken or its a piece of this or that ...He is a pack rat..We get his first pay check tomorrow , but its training pay and only for one week.. I have to make the house payment out of it and the cable bill.. I hope its going to be enough to cover.. I have been hanging on to all of extra money, so if his check isn't enough I can dip into our savings, but I don't want too..
With my aunt and uncle back in Seattle its really been working on me to move up there.. I need a change I just want to move anywhere.. Its so pretty up there and there is soo much to do.. The rain was a pain , but you get used to it.. I'm just so tired of this place and its so hot.. I know I'm old now when I complain about the heat.. I used to love being outside..Jeff said if I can save up $5000 or more he would seriously look for a job up there.. Then we would move up there and just rent this house out. I know what he's thinking , by the time I have that much saved I will change my mind about moving.. And I might , I am a woman.. I almost have half saved now he just doesn't know it..If we did move up there my mom would freak out..
Jeff told me he thinks I don't love him anymore and that I act different towards him. I feel like such a failure to make him feel that way.. I'm just so tired of the way things are right now.. I feel like my life is on stand by.. Untill I can get Jordan finished with school and he gets his license and a job..
I've done really well with my exercising, but not eating right.. I haven't gained , but I haven't lost. I talked to my cousin last night about Weight Watchers and it reminds me of LA , but you follow a points system instead of coloring in the circles.. She does it all online. She has lost 15 pounds in three months.. She said the key to it is to eat all the veggies and fruit you want and of course limit your carbs. and dairy. You get to have one splurge day a week.. So its a basicly the program we all know we need to do its just makes keep track.. My problem is I don't eat enough.. I did great that one week with the veggies and fruit, but I get tired of veggies and fruit.. Like yesterday I had a lofat Jimmy Dean breakfast sandwhich and then four very thin , very small slices of pinapple & canadian pizza.. Thats it all day..
Well I have run out of things to say.. Hope everyone is doing great and I am excited about our girls bday night..