Yes its a Wednesday (I think) and I'm drunk and alone.. My hubby won't be home tonight so I skipped cooking and Jordan and I just ate soup for lunch so instead of eating tonight I decided to drink.. I'm really lovin my vanilla vodka.. I loved the green apple too, I think I must try all the wonderful flavors of vodka..
Aunt flo was visiting this week so I gained two pounds.. BITCH!!!
I'm so ready for Vegas I just want to skip Christmas.. I know so selfish of me..
I need adult time bad.. Jeff and I watch church together every Sunday morning and this last Sunday the preacher was talking about the things that bug you about your spouse.. Well Jeff and I got to talking about it and why he is married to me I have no idea.. There is a lot of stuff that bugs him about me.. The main thing that he said was how I have to be the one in controle all the time..Like my way is it no other way works.. I have to disagree with him.. Yes I feel that if I'm right then I will fight for it, but he gets his way a lot more than I get mine.. My main thing with him is how he never ever shows me affection out in public.. No one would ever know we were married if they didn't know us.. He never introduces me to people that we may come upon , or ever sits by me if we are at a bar, or holds my hand as we walk into a place.. When I was fat I always felt he was ashamed of me , so now that I'm not so big WTF! He just told me he doesn't like to show affection out in public.. This is so wrong of me what I'm about to say, but I wish just for once while out in public some hot guy would flirt with me cause he thinks I'm single and Jeff be right there, so maybe he would act like we were a couple out in public.
Okay enough of that its killing my buzz!
I was reading a fanfiction and its not done yet and it totaly pissed me off the way the author is leaving us hangin..On the up side of my reading all this smutt I have learned a few sexual things and have showed Jeff , he is very pleased with my reading now!
I am 40 about to be 41 who knew there was so much more to sex than what I have been doing.. I have been in the dark for way way way too long!!
Okay enough of that hubby is away tonigh.
Well my drunk blogging has come to a close its time to get my drink on!! Later guys!!
Haaa. I love drunk blogging and yes I am do ready for Vegas. Me and Matt r the opposite of y'all. He likes to hold hands and hug and crap like that I do not. Especially in public. Ive soften thru the years and let Matt hold my hand now. Lol. I don't know. I just was not made that way. Laura doesn't like huggs. Lol.
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