still nothing

I still haven't found my umph to exercise.. I have cut back on my eating, but my body needs to exercise to lose weight and I still don't feel like it.. I hope my umph comes back quick cause summer will be here soon..

Tonight we are going to the ASU Planetaruem.. I have never been, and the boys went in elementry.. Tomorrow we are going to the exibits, not the carnival.. My kids never liked to ride rides so we only go walk the grounds.. Well I take that back Cole liked the little kiddie rides , but once he was too big for them he didn't want to ride anything.. And I don't think Jordan has rode but maybe one or two rides at the carnival.. Yep thats it, nothing else going on..

Hope everyone is doing well.

Just same old thing

Nothing new going on here.. My Dad is doing well ,  a little winded but healing well.. Jeff is off Thursday and Friday.. no plans.. He got the garden going and a compost.. onions planted for right now.. I don't know when anything else can be planted.. The garden so far looks good..I just wish he would clean up the rest of the back yard so it would be nice to sit outside.. I hate our yard right now..I haven't put a color on my hair yet and my natural color is dark... Becky (my haircut lady) said its still  a blond just dark blond.. I will be putting a color on my hair today.. I don't like it dark.. I haven't been in the exercise mood, nor the eating healthy mood so I haven't lost any weight.. I'm the heavist I've been in years at 164.. It's like my mojo ran out or something.. Hopefully I will get it back soon.. I don't like the way I feel..
Well thats all I got.. Hope everyone has a great day..

Jeff and my Daddy

Thursday Jeff went to see Dr. Reel, he was the dentist I took Jordan too when he was younger.. Anyway they got Jeff in and pulled the tooth.. $115  .. So much better than the $700 the other dentist wanted.. I think he was scamming us cause we have no insurance.. Well we have insurance now it goes into effect for major stuff in a year.. YEAH!! (not)  Anyway his tooth is out and thats that..

My Daddy went into the doctor Friday morning.. One of his heart arterys was blocked and his first doctor told him nothing could be done.. Second opinon doctor told him there was a 70% chance that he could get it open.. and he did. he put 3 stints in , but that sucker is open.. Second opinons Rule!!! My Dads in a lot of pain because he hasn't had blood pumping on that side of his heart for a while, but should make a full recovery and go home from the hospital today..

I haven't exercised in two days , or ate healthy.. I begin again today..

Jordan asked to go to a party with Cole sometime.. He will be 16 in 3 months.. The kids that Cole hangs out with are the ones that live down the street from us.. All the boys , even Austin were really close when we first moved into this house.. Anyway the oldest boy has his own house now, he is Coles age.. They pary there..The youngest boy is 16.. anyway last weekend Jordan went to the mall with Cole and they ran into these kis and invited Jordan to come and hang out with them sometime..So Jordan asked us if he could.. We decided he could under some conditions.. 1. No Drinking.. 2. Cole must be responsible for Jordan.. 3. I will come and pick him up at midnight
So he agreed to those rules, then later that day he said 'mom I don't know if I am going to go or not I just wanted to see if I could'   So who knows if he will or not..

Well thats all I got.. Hope everyone has a great weekend.

Just don't got it!

Instead of losing weight this month I gained it.. I now weigh more than I have in two years..Its like all my will power has gone out the window and I can't stop eating junk.. I haven't exercised much this month either.. So today I am going to try try again to begin my diet and exercise and log on to my calorie app..This extra weight really makes me feel yuky so maybe I will be able to get it off..

Nothing else going on. Jeff has begun another project.. I think I will like this one though.. I just wished he finished the others before starting this one.. He is planting a garden now.. Which I'm actually excited about.. I love fresh veggies..I have never had a garden.. In the past we have had tomatoe plants, but they never really produce alot.. This won't be a large garden just tomatoe, squash, cucumbers, peppers, and onions.. I  don't care much for the peppers and onions, but Jeff uses them to cook with..

Well thats all I got.. Hope everyone is doing well..

lazy bday

My bday was spent being lazy on the couch.. I didn't cook, clean, or exercise.. Cole bought me chinease take out and I just did nothing all day long... It was great!!! I think my best part of the day was when Jordan woke up and gave me hug and told me Happy Birthday..Cole was up for about an hour and then saw it on facebook.and said ' hey happy birthday, how old are you 35'   yep I called him a suck ass!!!  He said 'no really you don't look 42' If anyone asks I'm telling them I'm 37.. 42 sounds old..Jeff got me a really sweet card.. All in all it was a good day..

Cole had an eye doctors appointment and his right eye is good.. Completly healed he is going to have to have surgery on his left eye again on Feb. 26th.. The doctor said he has built up fibers and protien on the front of his eye and if its not removed it will get worse and he will lose his sight in that eye.. This is caused from his first surgery...This shouldn't have happened but it did.. All his blood work has come back negative and the doctors are confused as to what caused this to begin with..

I wanted to clear up some things from my last venting episode.. Jeff and I are fine we worked things out that same night.. We both know we need to do some things different..

Well its time to get off here and pay bills..YUK!!!

What a let down

Jeff was off Monday and Tuesday and had a dentist appointment on Monday morning.. We get over there and they do an exray and tell him either a root canal or pull it. He tells them to just pull it.. They tell him oh we don't do that here you have to go over to this other doctor to do that... $85 later and I'm pissed , because I asked when I made the appointment if they could pull the toothe , cause I know thats what may have to be done.. and she told me yes... I hate fricken liars...If Jeff and I hadn't had the biggest fight of our marriage the night before , (another story) I probably would have told that lady off and not paid the dam bill.. So anyway they sent us over to another dentist on Tuesday.. They have the exray from the other dentist , were thinking its going to get pulled.. NOPE just a consaltation $55 , come back Feb. 6 and they will pull it for $700.. They gave Jeff the choice of being put under or the numbing shots, and he chose put under thats why it cost so much.. Once we got home I asked him to call the dentist to see how much it would cost with the numbing shots and he did.. It would be $340.. Still to high I think just pull a dam tooth.. He decided to talk to some of his truck driving pals and my mom and they all told him dentist stories and said the numbing shots work, hurts but works and they have never paid that much to have tooth pulled... So today he asked me to call Dr. Reel's office which is the dentist I used to take Jordan to and see what they charge and tell them we already have an exray of the tooth, if we can get it.. I would think we could we did pay $85 for it..

Jeff and I had a huge fight Sunday night... He said I don't treat him like I used to, I told him the same.. What he was getting at is that I'm not all lovy dovy towards him like I was a few years back..I told him I love him as much as he loves on me.. It just escalated from there.. He was in my face yelling , and I kept stepping back .. Whats really bad is the whole time he was yelling at me all I could think about is how bad his breath stunk.. The bad tooth has made his breath really bad..I know thats terrible , but its true.. I've even told him , in a nice way about his breath..
We are at a stand off on our fight.. Both of us don't see that we are in the wrong..Were going to work on it together though..I do love him very much , but at times I just don't like him..

I have not dieted or exercised in 4 days.. I will begin again today.. Jeff has finially noticed he has gained a lot of weight and decided to lose also.. We'll see how long that last..

Well thats about it.. Hope everyone is doing good..

must be pms

UGH!!!   I need to vent , so if you don't want to hear don't read this..

My husband is driving me nuts with all his dooms day stuff..and since I don't believe what he does , he is constantly telling me I wish you would do this ... or I wish you liked this... or I wish you wanted to move to Alaska or I wish you baked more or I wish you liked to garden or I wish you cleaned house like you used to.. Oh and the big one is I wish you would stop mothering me.. yes he said I mother him.. So I'm thinking that the next time he tells me that I mother him I'm going to stop doing his laundry,stop waking him up for work, stop making his lunch, stop fixing his plate, stop making doctor appointments for him.. That last one really pisses me off.. He was off all day Monday with a tooth ache I told him he should call a dentist.. You know what he does... he waits till after 5 to tell me to call on Tuesday to find him a detist, but yet he wants me to stop mothering him... UGH!!!!!   He is really on a role to let me tell you about his next request from me... He wants to buy the natural ingredints like lye, and borwax and some ohter shit to make our own laundry soap and dishwashing soap and bath soap.. he said it would save us a lot of money.. I looked at him like he was a crazy man and just said NO!!!   He said o well I guess you don't want to save money then... I save him money everyday.. I don't go out shopping, lights or the tv are hardly on unless he's home.. I never go anywhere so I don't spend gas... That was another of his I wish you were more like....I talked to my mom yesterday about it, because it really is starting to hurt my feelings.. I mean I have low self esteem as it is and for him to not be pleased with who I am and to wish I was someone else hurts.. She told me to throw it back in his face.. Start telling him all the things I wish about him.. So I think I will..Oh and the house cleaning really is only his clutter fuck of a room that I don't clean.. He has all this shit in the computer room.. He is a pack rat so no I don't clean the computer room, hell I try not to stay in here for very long.. I really wish I had my own laptop then I would never have to come in this room..

Okay I'm done..

I've done okay on my diet and exercise and have lost one more pound.. looks like I'm just losing a pound a week.. hopefully when my thyroid pills get here it will boost up by another pound..
My  fitness app stuff is ddhayes30 and my email is ddhayes30@gmail.com

hope everyone has a great day..
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