Nothing new to blog about

Nothing going on here. Jeff got home Monday morning around 8 and was off Tues. and Wed. we had a nice time together. Went out to eat and saw a movie..

I'm going to my mom's at Thanksgiving. Jeff has to work his days off that week are Sunday and Monday so Jordan and I will leave Tuesday morning and stay the rest of the week. Cole has to work too so he will be with Jeff.. If they get off work early or in Cole's case maybe not have to work they can go to my aunt Jane's house. Cole would go , but Jeff said he probably won't. He is too tired when he gets in from work..Anyway when I first asked Jeff if he cared if I went he said he didn't. Tuesday when I told him I figured out his days off and decided to go ahead and go he was not pleased.. His big complaint is what am I going to eat..Ouch.. I told him I will get food that he can microwave and he can always stop and pick him up something on the way home..He didn't like those choices much, but didn't say anything..I'm going to try not to feel guilty about going and back out.. I want to spend time with my mom , I haven't seen her since March..

A mystery hair found its way onto my clean bath towel..It was blond and very long, like from the crook of your elbo to your hand long..I had just put both of us clean towels out, and took a shower when I dried off there was this hair attached to my arm.. I laid it down and got dressed and took into show Jeff.. All I said was I have a puzzle for you, how did this hair get on my towel. I showed him the hair and his words were I'm not cheating on you.. I looked at him and said I didn't accuse you of cheating on me..I had already figured it must have come off of Cole's bath towel in the wash. I wash all our towels together. and some how this hair didn't get washed away.. I just figured he bumped up against a blond at a party or something.. I never thought about Jeff cheating.. Strange how he jumped to that..

Hope eveyone has a great day

Thank You

Thank you Laura and Tia for your helpful comments..

Don't know what to do

We had a pretty good weekend.. Yes I know it was Monday and Tuesday to the normal folk, but when Jeff is off its our weekend no matter what day of the week it is.. He had an early day on Sunday , he got home about 9. so it was like he was off three days..We got along fine until yesterday.. He was really moppy and whiney telling me that he was so in love with me and that he felt that I wasn't in love with him.. It was really strange to see him like this. Okay I'm fixing to tell yall too much info about my sex life so if yall don't want to read it stop now..

We had sex all three days and he only attempted to get me off once..And then last night he tried to get me to give him a blow job.. I didn't do it, so of course he went to bed mad..
I got to thinking about what he said about me not being in love with him and I think I am starting to pull away from him , because I'm starting to see him in a different light..He say's that I have changed and I tell him the same thing.. Yes I have changed and I think its because I am so sexually frustrated. Him not satisfying me has been going on for a couple of years now.. At first I would just tell him to stop trying cause I wasn't going to cum and I felt bad for taking so long.. So now I regret all those years ago that I told him not to try, but I also see that if he really wanted me to cum then he wouldn't have given up on me so fast.. Now when he makes me cum he acts like its a burden , because I have taken forever.. I tried to explain to him that if he would love on me , and give me a little for play instead of just jumping into it maybe I would get turned on.. I'm not turned on and him sighing while I'm trying to relax doesn't turn me on..

Maybe we need to see some one, because I really do love him and want my marriage to work, but I have tried telling him what he is doing isn't working for me.. Thats when he tells me I am doing the same that I have always done.. And no thats not true he used to make love to me and take his time now he just fucks me.. Seriously two minutes and he's done..

I'm sorry to blog about all this personal crap, but I am at a loss. and writing it down helps..I just want more out of our sex life and he doesn't.. He told me so not by words but by his actions. I have talked to him about trying to do other things with me and he told me he doesn't have the energy.

My mom wants me to come and stay a week at Thanksgiving, I told her that it depends on Jeffs days off, but I really would like to go.. I would just feel guilty if he happens to be off around Thanksgiving.. If thats the case we can go together those two days..

Jeff wants me to get a job because he wants a Harley.. Yes I sure feel the love with those words..

Got Jordan started on school on Monday, he is doing two days work Mon-Fri.. That was Jeff's idea to try and get him done with the year faster.. I think its great as long as Jordan doesn't have a hard time. So far the first week is easy..

The stress of my marriage is causing me to have bad dreams.. I hate bad dreams..

Okay thats it.. Hope eveyone is doing well.

Something in the water...

Laura , when yall come to town make sure Matt doesn't drink anything made with San Angelo water.. Let me explain..

Jeff and I have issues

Tia and David have issues

and now Rondi and my brother are having issues

From what Rondi and I gather we are experiencing the same sex problems in our marriage.. It really sucks!!!

I've talked to my mom about my problems in the bedroom (yes we are that close) and I have tried everything she has suggested except the watching a porn part because my kid is always home..and honstley I have never been into porn, seems to fake to me, haa because it is!!  oh look at me being funny this morning!!!LoL

Okay moving on, I hope everyone has a great day.. Jeff will be home around 10 this morning he only had 5 hours left to work . Then he is off Monday and Tuesday.. I think Cole is taking us out to eat today.. It has been a month yesterday since we have eaten out!!  Saved on the pocket book , but didn't make a dam difference in my weight..

A good night

Jeff was able to fix our a/c last night.. Wednesday he got home at 4:30 amd tore into it, getting all the motor numbers .. Yesterday I called around to locate the motor.. Found one , he got home late , but still fixed the a/c.. Going two nights without a/c was miserable.. I slept so good last night I guess for making up for the loss of sleep those two hot nights.. I sleep for 9 and half hours.. I feel really good this morning..
I haven't exercised since Tuesday because of the a/c.. I know excuses, but it was f*cking hot in this house... I will exercise today then go to the store to pick up just a few things..

Hope everyone has a great weekend..

HOT!!

okay the a/c in our house has completly gone out.. No a/c until Jeff is off work . That won't be until Monday..We were stupid to not have just replaced the motor on his last days off instead of just fixing it to get by.. Now we are screwed for 6 more days... Hopefully the rain will come and cool things off..Right now its not too bad in the house.. I opened a few windows and got the fans going, but with it suppose to be in the 90s again today I know it will get hot in the house..

I went to download Jordan's school yesterday and one part wouldn't download.. telling me something needed to be done, but I don't speak computer talk so Jeff will have to do it..Looks like Jordan is still on summer break.. When I sit down and do his work schedule I'm going to only do 8 months instead of the 10 I normaly do.. This will increase his day to day work load.. If he struggles I will go back to 10, but I need to at least try it..

Thats it for me. Hope everyone is doing well..

Not too bad

Update on my bad things in 3's


A/C working right again for now, so no new motor at this time..

Jeff fixed his truck and it only cost us $160 .. so not bad

Washing machine part cost $135, we are undecided if we want to just buy a cheap new one or the part. We went to Kuntz  to look at there scratch and dent stuff. They had a new one that was beat all to shit for $279.. I do not want one beat all to shit since its in my kitchen.It's bad enough that my appliances don't match anymore.  .He said they were getting some more this Tuesday to come back then or Wednesday...I will go and check it out. If there is one that is cheap enough we might go ahead and just get a new one..

Everything else has been going really well..I ordered Jordan's school on Friday , it should be here Tuesday or Wednesday.. I'm going to increase his school load this year.. If he struggles I will back off, but I want to at least make him try.. He took his xbox apart last night and fixed the laser on it.. I'm so proud of him.. He went on the internet and found out how to fix the problem and did it..

Hope everyone has a great day.