Good News

Cole good news on Monday and Tuesday.. Monday the doctor told him his eye's were looking good and scheduled Right eye laser on June the 5th. Sorry Laura I told you the 4th..He also told Cole not to wear contacts after everything is done unless its just for a short period of time , no more sleeping in them.. Cole did not like that he hates wearing glasses.. That fact really cracks me up since it took me till his sophmore year to convince him to wear contacts. On Tuesday his blood work came back and his sugar level was normal, so they want to run two more blood test on him. One is a prediabetes test and the other is a hemoglobin test.. On June the 11th.. I still need to google hemoglobin cause I have no idea what that is..I asked Cole why they just didn't do it yesterday and he said they had to send off for the test stuff.. So yep I'm clueless why that is..Anyway his first lab work showed that he does not have diabetes.. So I'm pleased with that.. So if he doesn't have diabetes then what caused his eyes to do what they are doing , I have a theory on that let me explain.. When Cole first started at Thorps he never wore safety glasses. He would come home at night and his eyes would be blood shot from all the dirt and wind, but he would not take out his contacts.. We would hound him and hound him about taking out his contacts.. Sometimes he would go a whole month without taking them out.. He used to have problems putting them in that is why he didn't like taking them out..  months after he started working is when he started seeing things in his eyes.. We told him we thought it was the dirt that scratched eyes, that he needed to wear safety glasses and for God sakes take out his contacts and go see an eye doctor.. Well being the procrasternator that he is he didn't listen to us.. Well after what the doctor told him on Monday how contacts are really bad for your eyes because they don't let your eyes breathe and the fact that now his eyes were growing new blood vessels because the others were bleeding I think Cole damaged his own eyes by not being responsible with his contacts.. And as for the other two symptoms that Cole has that can be explained too.. He said he is always hungry and that he pee's alot.. Well for one he is a 19 year old boy working outside hard labor of course he is hungry.. For the peeing a lot well working outside makes you thirsty so you drink more.. Hell I sit at home and I pee every hour or so just from the water I drink.. Its just with his blood work coming back normal I'm believing that Cole is a healthy 19 yro boy.. His eyes are on there way to getting fixed and he has learned his lesson about his contacts. So in the future this won't happen again..Thank you God !!

Now moving on. I'm in a funk I haven't exercised at all this week and boy can I tell.. I really hate Jeff's hours. I can't wait till he goes to GoPetro so he will be up and out during the day..
He really hurt my feelings yesterday and I want to blog about it so bad but I'm really embarrased so I will just keep it all bottled up inside for now and explode later...Haa

Is that app really helping you guys stay on track?  I am so frustrated with my weight I'm thinking about checking into Weight Watchers.. My cousin's wife is doing the program and she is losing. I want to talk to her first and see if maybe she can just give me all the pointers without me actually joining , but I don't know how that works.. I also need to go buy salad stuff I haven't had a good salad in forever..

Hope everyone has a great day..

I sometimes forget

Its funny how I get so comfortable with the stuff I post on the internet that I forget strangers can access my sites. Like for instance the random comment I get from someone that I don't know, or like this morning on instagram someone liked a picture that I have no clue who she is.. I thought instagram was private amongst who was follow you, but then again I put a lot of my instagram photos on twitter, but it still makes me go hmm when someone I don't follow or is following me comments on those twitter things as well.. Its no big deal, I actually like it . Knowing that random strangers take the time to like or comment on something I have posted makes me feel less invisiable..

Well I did something that I'm not happy about, I weighed myself and I'm just sick.. I haven't weighed in a while so I was really hoping that the scale would be kind.. Nope I still weigh the same.. I only ate carbs once this week and drank 3 beers once this week and it still didn't make a differnce.. I will be checking out that app that Laura and Tia are using.. What is it again?  What really makes me mad is how my body can weigh within a 5 pound see/saw for over a year.. I am so ready to break past this.. I just don't know how.. I thought I could do it on my own , but obviously from weighing the same for over a year I'm not doing something right..I need yall's help, please give me some pointers on what to do..

Cole's eye has finialy cleared up enough he can see out of it.. So the shots and the eye drops seem to be stopping the bleeding.. I really hope he doesn't have diabetes, but the doctor didn't tell him what else could have caused this problem. He is so confident that Cole has diabetes.. Cole thinks so too, by some of the other symptoms he has.. If he does have it , I sure hope they give us a list of foods he is to stay away from, cause I have no clue.. All anyone tells me is no pasta or sugar or bread, but I'm gonna need more info than that.. I told Cole I will get a cook book and we will make it as easy for him as possible.. He is like his momma he loves sweats.. He was telling me what he ate during the day at work and I was blown away.. As much junk and candy and sweats he eats he should weigh a ton..I had no clue the amount of shit he was eating..

Hope everyone has a great day..Thanks for all your support with Cole. Love you guys!!

Got nothing to say today.. Hope eveyone has a great weekend.

Cole

Well we have some things going on with Cole that really surprised us..Please pray for him.. He went in yesterday to have his vision checked because he keeps seeing green squiggly things in his eye. He just thought they were eye flutters. Well the eye doctor said nope there not and imediately sent him to a Retna specialist.. They ran all kinds of test on him and found out that his vessels in his eyes are bleeding. So they gave him two shots in his left eye because he can hardly see out of it. And gave him these drops he has to use 4x a day for 4 days. Then he will go in today to get tested for diabetes because they said thats what causes the eyes to bleed. Plus un-benost to me he has other symptoms of diabetes. Then on Monday he goes back to the specialist to make sure he didn't get an eye infection from the shots in his eye. then they will schedule laser eye surgery on right eye. then when thats healed they will do the left eye. Not what we were expecting.. and since my son is a procrasternator he let it go for so long that he could have had his retna detached from his eye.. Also bad news is the little shit never filled out his insurance papers at work because he was still on ours.. Well now that Jeff isn't with Multi-Chem we have no insurance.. Yesterday's fees were already at $975.. They are telling him to go to the Medicade office today and apply, but I don't see him getting help from them since he still leaves at home. At first Dr. Angle told Cole to go to Shannon ER today at 5 cause he will be on call there, and he will do the diabetes test and that way he can set up payment plan at Shannon, but also that $975 was to enclude the diabetes test. Now this morning the lady called and suggested he go into La Esperanza , but when he called they can't get him in till the first of June.. So I guess he will go to Medicade and then go to Shannon at 5..

I had carbs yesterday we went and ate Mexican food for Jeffs bday.. I will do better today

What is wrong with me

Okay I'm really confused, before I started this diet of no carbs. I would have a meal between 1-3 then somewhere between 6-7 I would have a bowl of cereal or just a glass of chocolate milk and a fiber brownie.. And that would be it for the day and I was good.. Now that my head has told my stomach no carbs it thinks its starving and wanting to eat every two hours.. It is even growling at me..I'm going to still give it time. I do need to buy raw veggies though , that way when my stomach growls at me I can feed it something quick..
I keep having this wonderful dreams where I am a hot slim sexy woman and my husband can't keep his hands off me.. Then I wake up :(

Hope everyone has a good day.

First day :(

I did really well on my eating until 6pm.. Then I caved.. I'm just weak around sweats.. I had a bowl of beans with cheese, then I had 1 cup strawberries and 1 banana with lowfat whipped cream.. Then at 6 I caved for a piece of chocolate bday cake.. The good news is all the cake is now gone.. Hopefully today I will not cave.. I'm making spaghetti for lupper(lunch,dinner)  so I will just spoon me out some meat and then it some green beans.. I don't like spaghetti very much so I won't be tempted to eat it..I think I will make me an omlet this morning too. With that and lupper plus fruit I should be able to stick to the diet today..
Well thats it not much else going on here..Oh, Jeff is to turn in his application for GoPetro on Thursday, then they will do the background on him, once that comes back he can give his two week notice at Chalk Mtn. So it looks like the first of June he will go to work at GoPetro..

good weekend

We had a really nice weekend. We started out trying to go to Outback for Jordan's bday dinner , but the wait was an hour so we just ran over to Logans. My dad and step-mom, Lawrence, Rondi &kids, Pete and Cindy joined us. Its was good.. I ate way to much and had two margaritas.. yum! Then we came home and gave Jordan his gifts. Cole gave him a paint ball gun.. They have been going every now and then.. I think its great for them to do some brotherly bonding outside of the xbox.. And then we gave him a PS3.. He has been wanting one for a while. I don't get it I mean he already has an xbox, but Jeff wanted him to have it so he got it.. He was really surprised about it, he didn't know he was getting one.. The look on his face was the best.. Since I didn't have the stuff to make his cake on Saturday I made it on Sunday.. It turned out okay. I wanted to use the round cake pans and I should have used two cake mixes instead of one.. Then my home made icing was still to warm when I put on the cake so it ran off, but I just kept spooning it back on, and as it cooled it stayed put.. The cake was very good, I just wished it would have turned out better..
Today I start my no carbs diet.. I'm really going to try to just eat meat , veggies , fruit, and dairy.. I feel really bloated from all the food I ate over the weekend...
Jeff acctepted the job at GoPetro, so now we just have to wait on Wess to get the ball rolling for Jeff . Hopefully it will happen fast. I really hate the hours he is working right now.
For Mothers Day Cole got me my favorite bath and lotion stuff from Bath & Body..Very lazy day after I made the cake and corn bread for the beans and cleaned up everything..
Hope everyone has a great day.