What is wrong with me

Okay I'm really confused, before I started this diet of no carbs. I would have a meal between 1-3 then somewhere between 6-7 I would have a bowl of cereal or just a glass of chocolate milk and a fiber brownie.. And that would be it for the day and I was good.. Now that my head has told my stomach no carbs it thinks its starving and wanting to eat every two hours.. It is even growling at me..I'm going to still give it time. I do need to buy raw veggies though , that way when my stomach growls at me I can feed it something quick..
I keep having this wonderful dreams where I am a hot slim sexy woman and my husband can't keep his hands off me.. Then I wake up :(

Hope everyone has a good day.

First day :(

I did really well on my eating until 6pm.. Then I caved.. I'm just weak around sweats.. I had a bowl of beans with cheese, then I had 1 cup strawberries and 1 banana with lowfat whipped cream.. Then at 6 I caved for a piece of chocolate bday cake.. The good news is all the cake is now gone.. Hopefully today I will not cave.. I'm making spaghetti for lupper(lunch,dinner)  so I will just spoon me out some meat and then it some green beans.. I don't like spaghetti very much so I won't be tempted to eat it..I think I will make me an omlet this morning too. With that and lupper plus fruit I should be able to stick to the diet today..
Well thats it not much else going on here..Oh, Jeff is to turn in his application for GoPetro on Thursday, then they will do the background on him, once that comes back he can give his two week notice at Chalk Mtn. So it looks like the first of June he will go to work at GoPetro..

good weekend

We had a really nice weekend. We started out trying to go to Outback for Jordan's bday dinner , but the wait was an hour so we just ran over to Logans. My dad and step-mom, Lawrence, Rondi &kids, Pete and Cindy joined us. Its was good.. I ate way to much and had two margaritas.. yum! Then we came home and gave Jordan his gifts. Cole gave him a paint ball gun.. They have been going every now and then.. I think its great for them to do some brotherly bonding outside of the xbox.. And then we gave him a PS3.. He has been wanting one for a while. I don't get it I mean he already has an xbox, but Jeff wanted him to have it so he got it.. He was really surprised about it, he didn't know he was getting one.. The look on his face was the best.. Since I didn't have the stuff to make his cake on Saturday I made it on Sunday.. It turned out okay. I wanted to use the round cake pans and I should have used two cake mixes instead of one.. Then my home made icing was still to warm when I put on the cake so it ran off, but I just kept spooning it back on, and as it cooled it stayed put.. The cake was very good, I just wished it would have turned out better..
Today I start my no carbs diet.. I'm really going to try to just eat meat , veggies , fruit, and dairy.. I feel really bloated from all the food I ate over the weekend...
Jeff acctepted the job at GoPetro, so now we just have to wait on Wess to get the ball rolling for Jeff . Hopefully it will happen fast. I really hate the hours he is working right now.
For Mothers Day Cole got me my favorite bath and lotion stuff from Bath & Body..Very lazy day after I made the cake and corn bread for the beans and cleaned up everything..
Hope everyone has a great day.

Jordan's Bday

Well the day has come, my baby is 15.. OUCH!!!  makes me feel really old. Good thing he doesn't act like a 15 yro .. Haa  We are going out to eat tonight and then going to buy him his gift. It looks like most of my side of the family will be there tonight , but he didn't invite any of Jeff's side. Even at 15 he knows when he is forgoten..He talks to Austin all the time through xbox , so he knows that Vonda is over there, but never comes here..
I have to go to the store today and buy food again.. YUK!!  I hate going to the store and spending all that money.. I think I'm going to try no carbs diet again..We will see. I love pizza
Jeff got an email from his old boss Wess from Town and Country yesterday showing what the pay is like for the other drivers and really begging him to come to work.. It was a really nice email. Made Jeff feel good.. We talked it over and we feel like this is from God, because Jeff didn't look for this job the man came to him..The job was good when he had it before, the only reason he went to Multi-Chem was for weekends off the pay was the same.. So Jeff is going to take the job.. He left Wess a message yesterday to call him, but Wess hasn't yet.. So as soon as they work out all the paper work Jeff will be going back to T&C well its called GoPetro now.. Wess is even giving Jeff shift choice and we choose 3am -3pm ..
Hope everyone has a geat weekend

Yesssss!!

I'm sooo relieved, Jeff's first full paycheck was $50 more than what he brought home from Multi-Chem.. Which works out good since its Jordan bday tomorrow.. Hopefully all his paychecks will be around the same amount. Thats the one thing I hate about hourly pay you never know what your getting..
Jeff got another job offer yesterday, his old boss from Town and Country which is Stripes now called and asked him if he would like to come back. They are getting another truck for here and would love to have him. Its been 5 and half years since he worked for them, but apparently its the same work week and pay scale. 6 on 2 off  , pay by the load, 3-3 shift thats am to pm one month and then pm to am the next, unless you and your partner work it out where you stay on the same shift. Jeff always worked the 3pm to 3am shift. His partner liked going in early so it worked for them to stay. plus rotating off am to pm was really hard.. Anyway Jeff told Wess he would like a couple of days to think it over.. It amazes me how word of mouth works amongst the truck drivers..

Okay Laura I told you that I downloaded that app, well I just unistalled it. I'm not ready to weigh myself.

Hope everyone has a great weekend. Jordan wants to go to Outback for his dinner on Saturday and he wants me to make him a cake.. O the sacrafices we make for our children.. He knows I hate to cook that encludes baking.. I told him it will be a box cake but I will make the icing if I can find the receipe he wants me to use , other wise its box and instant icing.. I was really hoping he would want Baskin Robbins cake, but at least home made is cheaper..

Strugling

I'm loving all the rain, as long as no bad weather and its slow and easy..Of course I don't have to leave the house so that makes it okay as well..
I have the erge to weigh myself and I'm fighting it. I feel like I have lost , but I know if I get on that scale and it shows that I haven't I will be bumbed. Why do I feel a number defines me? Why can't I ever be happy with the way I look? Sometimes I feel like that is a big reason I never leave the house.. I've been thinking about joining the YMCA . I think it would be good for me and Jordan.. I will have to wait and see how Jeff's paychecks are.. We have no idea what his pay will be from pay day to pay day.. I really hate that..
Jeff's mother is really different towards us. I know I have blogged about how she never comes over or lets us know that she is at Mandy's so we could go over there.. Anyway Jeff was talking to here Tuesday night and she told him that she has been coming over to Mandys during the week to keep Ryan.. She hasn't seen Jordan or Cole since Christmas.. That really pissed Jeff off to know she is always in town , but never comes over.. She wanted to let him know that they are all going to Lowake for Mothers day at 1. Well we won't be going.. for one thing Jeff has to work Sunday night so he will be sleeping until at least 3-4.. Second we hate Lowake, third Jordan's bday is Saturday and we will go out to eat for his bday so we won't be eating out for Mothers Day.. We always just do one dinner for both occasions.. Its just too expensive to feed a family of four at a nice place two days in a row..
What are yalls plans for Mothers Day?
So proud of Cole he only owes $750 on his truck.. He will be paying it off with his Monday paycheck..Speaking of Cole he found this YouTube video of a 6 minute abs workout.. Holy Moly I tried it yesterday.. I could not finish it.. I am going to keep trying it though.. 6 minutes is quick.. I like quick exercise.

Okay moving on to my crush.. His new Movie Bel Ami is out on early release . You can watch it on Suddenlink for $9.99.. It will be at the movies this summer.. I have not watched yet.. I want to really bad, what is stopping me is I have seen so many of the movie clips and read the book that I just want to wait until it comes out to the theaters.. Rob on big screen during a sex scene .. Oh hell yeah!
He will be at the Cannes festival at the end of the month to promote his next movie Cosmopolis. It will be out in theaters this summer also..I have not read that book, but the trailer that hit the web is really hot. It looks like a really good movie.   And really good news for those of us that are Robsessed , he just signed on to do another movie Called Black List.. Its about a military interagator that caught Saddam Hussein.. So that should be really good.. Oh and just in case you didn't know his birthday falls on Mothers Day this year.. Okay I'm done.. Hope everyone has a great day..

More on Sam

Sorry I didn't get to finish my rant yesterday.. Anyway after I talked Cole into cutting all ties with Sam, which really wasn't that hard. She ended up texting him again on Sunday night again telling him how sorry she was for hurting him and that the reason she was able to move on so quickly was because she was already emotionaly detached from him , but she still wanted them to be friends.. Well he told her to fuck off and never contact him again.. I told him to block her phone number , but I don't know if he did or not..
Okay moving on. I can't believe my baby will be 15 on Saturday talk about make you feel OLD!!!
No plans yet it all depends on what Jeff's pay check is on Friday.. The good thing though is Jeff is off Friday and Saturday this week , so we can do something if we have the money..
I have been bad I haven't exercised since Friday.. I had that unwanted visitor and you know how I don't like to exercise with that. So today I'm going to, the visit is over..
I don't really have anything else to say. Hope everyone has a great day.