Strugling

I'm loving all the rain, as long as no bad weather and its slow and easy..Of course I don't have to leave the house so that makes it okay as well..
I have the erge to weigh myself and I'm fighting it. I feel like I have lost , but I know if I get on that scale and it shows that I haven't I will be bumbed. Why do I feel a number defines me? Why can't I ever be happy with the way I look? Sometimes I feel like that is a big reason I never leave the house.. I've been thinking about joining the YMCA . I think it would be good for me and Jordan.. I will have to wait and see how Jeff's paychecks are.. We have no idea what his pay will be from pay day to pay day.. I really hate that..
Jeff's mother is really different towards us. I know I have blogged about how she never comes over or lets us know that she is at Mandy's so we could go over there.. Anyway Jeff was talking to here Tuesday night and she told him that she has been coming over to Mandys during the week to keep Ryan.. She hasn't seen Jordan or Cole since Christmas.. That really pissed Jeff off to know she is always in town , but never comes over.. She wanted to let him know that they are all going to Lowake for Mothers day at 1. Well we won't be going.. for one thing Jeff has to work Sunday night so he will be sleeping until at least 3-4.. Second we hate Lowake, third Jordan's bday is Saturday and we will go out to eat for his bday so we won't be eating out for Mothers Day.. We always just do one dinner for both occasions.. Its just too expensive to feed a family of four at a nice place two days in a row..
What are yalls plans for Mothers Day?
So proud of Cole he only owes $750 on his truck.. He will be paying it off with his Monday paycheck..Speaking of Cole he found this YouTube video of a 6 minute abs workout.. Holy Moly I tried it yesterday.. I could not finish it.. I am going to keep trying it though.. 6 minutes is quick.. I like quick exercise.

Okay moving on to my crush.. His new Movie Bel Ami is out on early release . You can watch it on Suddenlink for $9.99.. It will be at the movies this summer.. I have not watched yet.. I want to really bad, what is stopping me is I have seen so many of the movie clips and read the book that I just want to wait until it comes out to the theaters.. Rob on big screen during a sex scene .. Oh hell yeah!
He will be at the Cannes festival at the end of the month to promote his next movie Cosmopolis. It will be out in theaters this summer also..I have not read that book, but the trailer that hit the web is really hot. It looks like a really good movie.   And really good news for those of us that are Robsessed , he just signed on to do another movie Called Black List.. Its about a military interagator that caught Saddam Hussein.. So that should be really good.. Oh and just in case you didn't know his birthday falls on Mothers Day this year.. Okay I'm done.. Hope everyone has a great day..

More on Sam

Sorry I didn't get to finish my rant yesterday.. Anyway after I talked Cole into cutting all ties with Sam, which really wasn't that hard. She ended up texting him again on Sunday night again telling him how sorry she was for hurting him and that the reason she was able to move on so quickly was because she was already emotionaly detached from him , but she still wanted them to be friends.. Well he told her to fuck off and never contact him again.. I told him to block her phone number , but I don't know if he did or not..
Okay moving on. I can't believe my baby will be 15 on Saturday talk about make you feel OLD!!!
No plans yet it all depends on what Jeff's pay check is on Friday.. The good thing though is Jeff is off Friday and Saturday this week , so we can do something if we have the money..
I have been bad I haven't exercised since Friday.. I had that unwanted visitor and you know how I don't like to exercise with that. So today I'm going to, the visit is over..
I don't really have anything else to say. Hope everyone has a great day.

No more Sam

Sam is officialy cut off from this family.. She broke up with Cole on Easter weekend and all ready has a new boyfriend.. The thing is she met this guy while she was still with Cole and even was texting him here at this house..Her and Cole got into it Saturday at her house because Cole went there to give gifts to her nephews. He is friends with Robert and Krista which are Sam's family.. I told him not to go that it would be too soon to see her, but he said he was going before she came home so he wouldn't see her.. Wrong.. she came home with new boyfriend and loved all over new boyfriend in front of Cole. He left quickly after that.. She sent him a text asking that they be friends that she didn't mean to hurt him.. He came home so upset he let me hold him.. Breaks my heart that she plays with him like this.. I talked him into cutting her out completly no contact at all.. So we all un friended her on facebook.. and I un friended her on all my other stuff..
Got to go , I will finish later..

I did it

Yes I finialy got off my ass and exercised yesterday. Of course I had to wait until Jeff got up to take a shower which really sucked , but hey at least I exercised.. I will attempt to do it again today.. Thats all I got . Yep my life is soooo busy..(NOT)   okay I seriously need to get a life outside my books and out of this house..
Hope everyone has a great day.

In a funk

I have the blahs bad.. I know its just pms, but this shit sucks..
I have been bad and haven't exercised since last Monday.. Thats probably why I'm in a funk..
Jeff is talking about moving again. This company offers a transfer to Mansfield and he wants to do it. I'm on the fence about it. One part of me still wants to live up there , but then the other part is scared to death about the house. It didn't sell the first go around and I'm not so sure about renting it out. Oh and if we owner finiance then we have to deal with all that legal shit.. Not to mention living at my moms for who knows how long since we have NO money saved or moving expenses paid..He has it all planned out . Cole could stay here in the house and pay half of the house pmt. and his bills. We stay at moms and look for a place to rent. With 4 dogs its going to be hard to rent..UGH!! Then after we find us a house then we start moving our stuff into it. Cole can either come with us or move into an apartment and stay here. Then we do something with the house.. Cole really likes the money and the crew he works with. So I don't see him moving with us, but you never know..

Okay enough of that.. I hope everyone has a great day..

I'm gonna try

Not much going on here , same old thing.. I'm going to start exercising when Jeff leaves for work. That will be at 5:30. I don't like exercising in the evening , but its the only time I can.. I will begin tomorrow because Jeff is off today.. Hopefully my body can take it.. I really hate the night shift.. I feel so trapped.. I can't go in my room, I can't vacuum, I can't get dressed and go anywhere.. Not like I did, but you know how it is when you can't do something thats when you want to do it.. Well thats how I feel right now..I know boo hoo hoo.. Okay I'm shuting up.. I'm thankful he has a job..

I get my haircut today and thankfully Jeff is off so I told him I will be coming into our room at 2 to shower and get ready... See the night shift sucks even though he was off yesterday he slept until 3:30. Okay moving on

Well I really don't have anything else to bitch about.. yes I am pmsing

Hope everyone has a great day.

Not true

Well I was wrong about the whole 10 hour break between shifts, apperntaly oil field is only an 8 hour break.. Which is Bullshit if you ask me.. All truck drivers need a 10 hour break. He did not like his first night of work.. I think his second night was better , he got home at 6..
Big surprise my dad is taking Jordan and Hayden to breakfast this morning.. This is a first..
Have not exercised in two days.. I really don't know how to work it out.. With Jeff sleeping I can't shower until he gets up and I really don't want to sit around all sweaty and stinky till he's up.. I've been taking my shower before bed. I could use the boys , but then I would have to move all my stuff into there bathroom , then on Jeff's days off move it back.. My mom suggested I exercise at night, but I have always been a morning person exerciser.. I'm at a loss right now, but I will work something out.. I can't not exercise.. I will try to exercise when he leaves for work then shower.. UGH!! I hate the night shift.. All this whinney over no time to exercise really makes me sound like a selfish bitch.. He is the one that is working nights.. Okay now I feel really bad.. I'm a bad bad selfish bitch.

Moving on, Jeff's check was enough to make the house payment . so we don't have to borrow from Cole. He is going to pay the cable bill for us.. He has been such a big help. Once we get back on our feet I need to do something really nice for him..

Okay thats all I got. Hope everyone has a great day..

Oh one more thing I read this really great fanfiction story it had me laughing so hard.. Supper cute , and I'm a sucker for happy endings.  www.  m.fanfiction.net/s/5062719/1/