Bored

I am so bored right now.. the sad thing is usually when I'm bored I make me a drink, but I'm out of baileys and don't want to go all the way to Sam's and get it.. I exercised this morning for about an hour. 30 minutes on tredmil and 30 minutes on eleptical.. I have not exercised in two weeks.. the good news is I haven't gained weight either.. didn't lose any , but at least I stayed the same without any exercise.. I'm ready for cooler weather so I can go back to the KOA I miss it out there..Jeff talked to his grandmother today about what happened to me at the baby shower and also about how Vonda and Mandy have completly shut us out of there lives.. I guess that was his way of defending me with out talking to his mother.. Of course his grandmother defended Vonda and Mandy saying they were probably just caught up in the moment or too busy to notice... Like I told Jeff well that is a slap in my face too.. If I'm so unimportant that you would not notice me sitting there by myself...oh well its over and done with.. Not dwelling on it.. Besides right now Vonda is in so much pain from her boyfriend's sudden death that yesterday doesn't even matter anymore... Well gonna go druel over my crush on Tumblr...

early call

Early this morning I received a phone call from Jeff's aunt Lynn.. My first thought was she suddenly realized how they treated me yesterday and was calling to apoligize.. I almost didn't answer the phone, but I did.. and she was freakin out . She was trying to get a hold of Jeff, because Vonda's boyfriend (Jeffs mom) died last night and Vonda wasn't answering her phone. So she wanted Jeff to call her to check on her. We only found out she had a boyfriend last week through facebook.. But evidentally Vonda was in love with this guy..So he did call to check on her.. Yesterday I was so upset with him, after telling him what happened he just said he was sorry that his family did that to me, but just to Fuck em that its. When I told my mom what happened she got so upset and wanted to call Vonda and find out why she treated me like she did.. I had to convince my mom not to call her.. I guess no matter how old you are your mom still wants to protect you.. but what hurt me was that Jeff didn't want to call and talk to his mom about it.. I wouldn't have let him because I don't want there to be problems that I have caused between him and his family, but it would have been nice for him to defend me. Not just to tell me to Fuck em and act like nothing happened...So now that Vonda's boyfriend died I'm feeling very stupid about how hurt I got yesterday..This is what happened.... Got to the baby shower and everyone hugged my neck (there huggers)  and were real nice and normal.. I sat with Jeff's cousins who came in from Saginaw.. we visited pretty much the whole time.. what turned was after all the gifts were opened group pictures began.. Family groups, his and hers different groups , all together groups, but not once was I included in the pictures.. I just sat there stairing at them.. While everyone else was asked to have a picture... People that I didn't even know were asked to be in pictures.. It really hurt. At one point I was the only one sitting... I know you might think no big deal, but to me it was just one more slap in the face that I'm not wanted...and then after all the pictures were done I was leaving so said my goodbyes and Mandy had the gawl to tell me' good luck on selling the house, but of course I don't mean it I don't want yall to move'  I had to bite my tongue to keep from saying something I knew would not be right.. I just smiled and left... Okay don't judge me it is that time of the month  so I'm extra emotional.. next week all this might not even matter...Now on to other news I was so disapointed last night I sat and watched the stupid TCA for one reason and one reason only and he didn't even show up till like the last 20 minutes .. he did win two awards though so he got to go on stage and speak in that most gloriouse voice.. Now he will probably head to London...sigh...oh and we have to be out of the house by 9:45 this morning because we have some more lookers... so I guess I better get off here...

All I have to say is I'm so hurt by Mandy and Jeff's mom... I'm trying to just say FUCK em like Jeff said, but I'm the emotional one and its eating me up... Its really not a big deal what happened , but to me it felt horrible.. Sorry thats all I'm going to say right now..

Just a day

Well the house is very quiet all the guys went to the gun range. I am doing laundry then going to get ready to go the baby shower for Mandy, its in Ballinger.. We have to get my car inspected before I head that way. We went yesterday and the guy was too busy to do it. Jeff likes to go to the same place every year.. Must be a guy thing.. My dad came over and yes I did make a huge mistake so we do owe the IRS . So it looks like I will be trying to set up some kind of payment plan.. If we can have it paid off in 120 days we will save ourselves alot of money..So no more gun stuff for 120 days.. I caught the bbq pit on fire yesterday and burnt our pork chops to ashes.. My sister in law came over for me to do her hair. And I had just put the pork chops on the grill. We all got to talking and I forgot about them. Jeff did too.. I was so embarassed... Just very lucky the propane didn't explode..I was so mad too , cause they were really thick and boneless.. I'm so excited to see my crush on t.v. tonight.. I have my dvr ready just in case I miss anything... He is always so funny at these award shows, can't wait to see what he does this year. Also this will be his last public outing till the Breaking Dawn premier, so I am heading for a few month drought... Kristen is in London filming so I bet he will head home. We might get a few pictures of him and her out and about, but I really don't like those. It makes me feel like were invading on his privacy.. which those pictures do..

got nothing

Not much happening today.. Jeff giving the Durango a tune up.. then my sister -in-law (Calobs wife) is coming over so I can fix her hair for a wedding.. She had it cut similar to mine and still can't fix it.. Then my dad coming over to help me fix my IRS mistake from 2009.. Such a nice little letter we received from them.. Need to get both vehicles inspection done , and need to get a baby shower gift for tomorrow.. So thats it.. Hope everyone has a great weekend.

wow

After reading Laura's and Tia's blog yesterday it made me realize how very lucky I am.. Sorry no offence to yall, but I am in a great place in my life... I may complain about no romance with my husband , but he is my bestfriend in the whole world. I can count on him for everything.. I don't have any girlfriends to hang out with. Thats why I like blogging so much.. We all have such very busy lives (taking care of our familys) and to me it helps us to stay connected. Even if its just short and boring.. Constant communication grows relationships.. and it takes more than one person to keep that relationship alive..I look back at mine and Temple's friendship and my heart hurts.. I tried so despertaly to hang on to that friendship, but she was letting me go.. It took me sitting on the stand in the court room to realize that she no longer cared for me the way that I cared about her.. Friendships come and go.. Its a fact of life. People grow apart. So I feel very comforted by blogging , It helps me to hang on to our speradic friendship.. I have never been really close to any of you. I always felt like I was the fifth wheel. Don't get me wrong I feel very liked by yall. and I like all of yall. Its just yall have stories and stories about things that yall have shared together. Which is awesome.. but while yall were making all these wonderful memories I was at home.. So thats how I feel like a fifthe wheel... After losing Temple yall have become so important to me.. I never want to lose another friend and I call each and every one of you my friend.. I know I'm being emotional, but thats who I am.. I am alway emotional , I cry at movies, I cry reading books, I cry when I'm mad, Hell I even cry with certain commericials .  Maybe thats why I always make all those stupid facial expressions. I am emotional... Love you guys!

Here we go

Tomorrow between 6-7 strangers will be in my home... I feel kinda of shocked that people are wanting to come look at my house.. I mean I know its up for sale, but you never really think someone will come and look.. I'm having a really hard time with strangers in my home.. I have to have the dogs out of the house, so I think we will just load up in the car and park across the street and down a bit so I can keep an eye out.. I know dumb right.