I have too..

Well last week Jordan didn't want to go down to the Marial Arts place. So today we have to go. I told Jeff  that Jordan didn't really seem interested in it to me, or he would be bugging the shit out of me to go. Jeff said he didn't care, get his ass down there. So like a good little girl I will be taking my son to watch today. I do think it is good to have your kids in some sort of activity, but I don't want to force him. How much fun could that be if you really don't want to be doing something. We all know that answer. We walked the KOA yesterday. Jordan did really good. He took his scooter, which I thought would make it harder for him, but it didn't and he really had a blast going down the hills. It was good for me too, cause I got to run alot more. Its a start,  I feel like I did half and half .. run.. walk. Now on to more important stuff. I am for sure gonna need a boob job after I get all this weight off. I have lost a whole cup size. I found an old razor back bra that I had when I was at my smallest and it fits perfectly. I do not like the bra. I like my boobs to be up and out. This bra feels more like a sports bra. I am biting the bullet and going to get me a good bra either today or tomorrow.

Ouch, Ouch , Ouch!!

I was right Zumba kicked my ass . My shoulders are killing me. The instructers like to change it up every few weeks and we do different songs and moves. Which is good, cuase doing the same ones over and over gets boring. Jordan and I are gonna walk again today. He is way out of shape. So sad for a 13 soon to be 14 year old. We walked the KOA twice, which is no big deal for me, but he thought he was gonna die. His leg hurt , his side hurt, he felt like he was gonna throw up. I was like geez Jordan you should be able to run circles around me. I am used to running on the tredmil, so my goal is to run the whole KOA. Jordan's goal is to walk it twice without dying. I had a long talk with Jordan about taking the job, and he really doesn't want me too. His big concern was his school. It would be hard on me to wait till I got home to help him. I would be tired and cranky. He could try to do it on his own, but if he had problems, then he would have to wait till I got home to help. And the way the program is designed is you can't move on to something else . So if he was stuck on one part, he couldn't just skip out of it and go on to something else. He wouldn't be able to finish until I got home. Besides when we discussed me homeschooling Jordan I knew I was gonna have to make sacrifices. This is his first year. As he gets better at school, then if need be I could go to work, but right now he needs me. And he is my first priority.

I just don't know...

My aunt Cindy called me to tell me about a temp. job leasing apartments. It would only be for six weeks. Monday -Friday, maybe a Saturday if there's a special running. 8:30-5:30. If I want it the job is mine, the lady already offered it to me. Cindy already told her about my leasing experience. Now the delima, do I really want to leave Jordan alone all day by himself. Do I really want to go to work. Even though its just six weeks. I know the extra money would be nice, but I just don't know. I really , really , don't know. I have to let her know something by tomorrow. The down side to this , is if I don't take the job how guilty would I feel. And if I do take the job , how guilty would I feel leaving Jordan. I haven't even thought about getting a job. The ironic thing is , this is how I got sucked into my job at Wellington.

I need a Re-Boot !!

I didn't do anything yesterday, well I took a shower then I didn't do anything. I have the lazy's bad. I haven't exercised in 3 days. I need to get back to it. I think Jordan and I will go to the KOA today. Need a change in my routine. Tonight is Zumba and since I haven't been exercising its gonna kick my ass. Jeff has two runs to Kansas, so he won't be home till Friday. Cole called last night said his day went by fast. He didn't take enough food for the day so he was starving. He said he looked like a grease monkey. He's never been so dirty in his life. I thought that was funny. I really hate not seeing him. I guess this is the start of him moving out though, so I guess I better find a way to get used to it. My mom laughed at me when I told her I cried Sunday night when he left. She said now you know I how I felt. And you were 16. All I could do was tell her how sorry I was. Cole said he will come spend the day with us on Sunday.

oh boy what a morning...

Yesterday morning started out great. Pretty much lazy day planned. Then while I was fixing this huge breakfast. ( I love breakfast) Jeff was taking a shower. We have had some problems with our shower faucet dripping . Not like a drip..... drip..... drip..... more like dripdripdripdripdrip... Well this morning it decided it just didn't want to turn off at all. So full shower running with no one in it. Jeff had to turn the water off. I have a huge sink full of dishes(dishwasher broke) still cooking, laundry in wash. Yuk no water. Thank God for antibacteria wipes. Cause I wash my hands  ALOT... So we all ate, then Jeff went to get parts to fix shower. So $40 and 3 hours later shower was fixed. Yea go Jeff!!!!!! Well now I have all these dishes and 5 loads of laundry to do. My lazy day didn't get to start till about 6. One thing I should have done , but didn't was exercise. Now with the clouds outside and not really getting my lazy day yesterday, I want to be lazy today.

A good day..

Had such a good day yesterday. We went and saw Red Riding Hood. It was okay, I was expecting more , with all the hype about it. Then we went to my aunts and had a fish fry. We stayed till almost 11. Today just the usual.

Such a baby!

I feel so bad for yesterdays post. Thank you for all your comments. I am really fine. I was just having a very bad day. Jordan and I really need to start getting out of this house. Since Jeff is too tired on the weekends , we really need to do things during the week when he isn't home. Today Jeff and I are going to the movies, then later tonight we are going to my Aunts B-Day fish fry dinner. Should be fun, she has a Wii. Sorry for being such a baby yesterday, but it sure felt good to get stuff off my chest. I like this blogging thing. I never kept a diary so this is really good for me. I guess since others are reading it I should keep from complaining, but I just really needed to vent. Thanks guys.